Chapter 7152 I'll break your legs

Chapter 7152 I'll break your legs

Chen Xi quietly looked at Jia Xu, her expression gradually shifting from silence to helplessness, until Jia Xu finally shut up and looked at her.

"Wenhe, I have a question for you. How do you really view me? Do you think I neither trust you nor have the foresight you have?" Chen Xi asked very seriously.

Upon hearing this, Jia Xu, like Chen Xi, fell into a strange cycle of self-justification. However, it was extremely difficult to prove himself in front of Chen Xi, especially the idea of ​​proving that he could see further than Chen Xi, which was simply ridiculous.

Jia Xu believed that the most important reason why Chen Xi could change people's hearts was that Chen Xi relied on one victory after another to crush all the guys standing on the opposite side to pieces, and then extended his hand to give them some dignity, allowing those who were not fundamentally opposed to his own side to join his team, which led to the current enormous power.

This is precisely why there are rules that can restrain powerful families, and also those who are the most disobedient and least likely to take rules seriously in this world.

"So you know that too," Chen Xi said, waving his hand. "I know you and Yuan Fanggong are doing this for my own good, but how should I put it? Your understanding of the overall situation is really not as good as mine."

These words left Jia Xu somewhat speechless, because when all the issues came down to the core point, namely ability, there was no way to communicate. They were willing to believe in Chen Xi because Chen Xi's abilities exceeded their understanding, and everything now was proving this understanding, which was why they were determined to believe that Chen Xi could do even better.

But when you face Chen Xi with this mindset, you'll be hit by a boomerang—since you all acknowledge my abilities and know them, why are you fixated on the fact that I see things more clearly or more directly than you? Have you considered that everything you're thinking about now, I've actually thought about as well?

No matter how pessimistic I, Chen Xi, am about the future, and no matter what my mindset is, I am better than you in terms of doing things and in controlling the future.

"Is that what you think?" Jia Xu was silent for a while before looking at Chen Xi. He had considered how to deal with this seemingly unsolvable question when he came. After all, this sentence, as well as the current prosperous era, were Chen Xi's biggest trump card. They were the real power that could annihilate all doubts. They were the truth that no one from ancient times to the present could bypass when standing in front of Chen Xi.

"If I hadn't thought about these things this way and comforted myself in this way, I would probably be facing the problem of self-doubt right now. You all know my weaknesses quite well," Chen Xi said with a hint of weariness. "And it is precisely because of this weakness that, even though everything I have created is right in front of me, there are still people who will launch attacks."

“Some of what you said before was wrong, but one thing is right: I am stronger than you. What I have created is something that only I could have created in this era. And most importantly, I will waver.” Chen Xi interrupted Jia Xu and said very seriously, “But then what? Even if I waver, no one else can defeat me.”

This is another solution to all the problems: my weakening does not mean your strengthening. Even if I waver, even if you use many methods to test me, as long as I, Chen Xi, am alive, it makes no difference. All you can do is influence, not decide. You cannot change what I do.

"Wenhe, do you know what my uncle told me?" Chen Xi changed the subject and asked.

"It's nothing more than making you face reality." Jia Xu composed himself, his face darkening as he said, realizing he might not be able to avoid Chen Xi's rhetoric.

“Not only that, the most important point is that even after Yuan Fanggong did so much, his final suggestion was just to let me choose for myself. If I wanted to play the role of a wise ruler and a wise minister, then I would play that role. I could take whichever step I wanted to take.” Chen Xi said with a slight sigh, “Actually, I knew at that time that he didn’t really have any other choice, so he chose the way he thought was best for me.”

Indeed, Chen Xi knew very well that Chen Ji had realized he had no way to deal with Chen Xi, which was why he chose to pave a way for Chen Xi with his own life at the last moment, so that Chen Xi would face reality. If there were any other way, Chen Ji would probably have tried it, but there was no other way.

At this point, even an elder like Chen Ji, who is related to Chen Xi by blood and has the backing of his status, can no longer exert any influence on Chen Xi. The limit they can do is to use their own understanding to do things that are good for Chen Xi, and then use other methods to show leniency.

"I know better than anyone else just how strong I am," Chen Xi said earnestly.

“No, you don’t know.” Jia Xu shook his head and continued to harp on the ability. Jia Xu also had no way to deal with Chen Xi. The most troublesome thing about Chen Xi was that terrifying ability that almost single-handedly created the entire prosperous era. Faced with this unsolvable ability, any normal person would know that words are extremely pale.

Chen Xi raised an eyebrow and looked at Jia Xu with great confusion. "I've already explained it to this extent, don't you understand what I mean?"

Chen Xi didn't want to listen to the chanting anymore, whether it was a sutra that was good for her or one that influenced her and wanted her to do something. Today, Chen Xi didn't want to listen to any of it because it was meaningless.

"Zichuan, what makes you think that everything Chen Yuanfang and I said was for your own good?" Jia Xu asked Chen Xi earnestly.

Chen Xi paused for a moment, then seemed to understand something. If they thought about it this way, new problems would arise, and if there were a backlash, others would not be able to bear it.

If someone does something in Chen Xi's name, even if there is a backlash, Chen Xi will let it go as long as it's not too serious, considering their path and their true intentions. After all, even though Chen Xi has become a saint and is so strong that others can't catch up, as Chen Ji said before, the closeness and distance between people and the blood ties between people are unavoidable.

When other methods fail to restrain Chen Xi, using this emotional influence is arguably the only effective method, yet even that may not yield good results.

At least this plan is relatively safe and won't have a huge backlash. Chen Xi can create this prosperous era, but he can also destroy it. Conversely, Chen Xi can mold the people of this era. So if you don't think about things from Chen Xi's perspective and instead have other ideas, your death will definitely be very undignified.

The reason Liu Bei and Chen Xi were willing to give certain people face was mostly because they were still in the same boat and had a certain emotional foundation. But if your true intentions conflicted with those of Liu Bei and Chen Xi, what about face? What a joke!

“Where is there any intention of doing this for your own good?” Jia Xu slowly shook his head and said, “Chen Yuanfang is doing this for the family at least half the time. It’s just that you and the Chen family are completely intertwined. You share the same fate, and if you have a problem, it will be a bigger problem than if the Chen family has a problem. So Chen Ji will try his best to help you. But as for the core issue, you know it too.”

Chen Xi was silent for a while, then sighed deeply. He remembered the last question he had asked when he came out of Chen Ji's study, "Uncle, if I weren't a member of the Chen family, would you have done this?"

Chen Ji's answer at the time was actually somewhat disdainful. To be honest, Chen Ji shouldn't have answered that way, but he had already taken the poison and had completely seen through life and death. He didn't want to act anymore, so that's why he gave that answer.

That answer is actually what Jia Xu is talking about now: what it means to have the idea of ​​doing things for your own good. In essence, everyone is doing their own thing. It's just that protecting you is the optimal solution, the way to get the greatest or even greater benefits, so everyone is protecting you.

"And yours?" Chen Xi asked Jia Xu very seriously.

Upon hearing Chen Xi's words, Jia Xu's face, illuminated by the dim light, revealed a complex expression.

"Zichuan, would you like to hear a story?" Jia Xu asked Chen Xi.

"I'm still willing to listen to what you have to say." Chen Xi nodded, not caring about wasting time. He also wanted to hear how Jia Xu would convince him. To be honest, after thinking about it carefully, Chen Xi realized that he couldn't even convince himself in his current situation.

"Do you know where I first met Consort Tang?" Jia Xu said with a hint of reminiscence, then pointed to the west before Chen Xi could speak, "That was probably the place where I first met Consort Tang."

"Wait a minute, that's not right. Didn't you first meet Consort Tang in Luoyang?" Chen Xi interrupted Jia Xu, cutting off all the emotions Jia Xu was building up.

“The layout of Chang’an and Luoyang is the same.” Jia Xu said with a hint of weariness, his carefully cultivated emotions shattered, and he looked somewhat dejected. He then pointed to the darkness and said, “It was around there that I first met Consort Tang. At that time, I didn’t see her as a woman, but as a child.”

"Yeah, I understand. Anyway, I've seen plenty of people like you." Chen Xi nodded. After seeing so many beasts, when he looked at beasts or in the mirror, he found them quite pleasing to the eye.

"At that time, I was in a state of despair. I realized that this dynasty was completely beyond saving, and all my learning was useless in serving my country. I was completely despondent." Jia Xu was not unaffected by Chen Xi's tone, but he said it with a hint of reminiscence.

"Back then, I was probably just a walking corpse," Jia Xu summarized. "When you're young, there's always a period when you think you've seen darkness, and then you feel powerless. When you look again, you see darkness everywhere, and then you either feel dejected or angry. In short, it's really interesting."

"And then?" Chen Xi asked with a hint of curiosity.

"Then I spent a day playing with Consort Tang, and then I left Luoyang. After that, I invaded." Jia Xu said with an undisguised murderous aura.

"Damn, how much did you omit?" Chen Xi asked with a hint of surprise.

"You see me very clearly. So do you think someone like me can see through Dong Zhuo's true nature?" Jia Xu asked Chen Xi calmly.

Chen Xi paused for a moment, then nodded. Although it was a bit excessive, Chen Xi felt that Jia Xu knew exactly who Dong Zhuo was and what kind of beasts the Xiliang soldiers were.

“But I still made that choice,” Jia Xu said calmly. “Because at that time, I was filled with a certain rage, and I really wanted to destroy all of this.”

"And then?" Chen Xi asked Jia Xu.

"You didn't even ask why?" Jia Xu asked, somewhat puzzled.

"Given the environment more than twenty years ago, it's normal for people to be driven crazy, especially someone like you who knows a lot and sees far enough. It's only natural that you'd end up like this." Chen Xi didn't feel any anger or dissatisfaction, because this kind of thing really could be attributed to the environment. People from the last era were all crazy, and Chen Xi had that understanding.

"Then I saw Consort Tang again here," Jia Xu said, pointing to his spot. "Right here, I remember it very clearly."

"Shouldn't you have seen Consort Tang again in Luoyang? In fact, if I remember correctly, you were the one who sent Consort Tang out of Luoyang. Otherwise, with the chaos of war, it would have been questionable whether Consort Tang would have survived." Chen Xi asked with a hint of curiosity, while Jia Xu looked at Chen Xi speechlessly.

“I understand, the design is the same,” Chen Xi added.

"At that time, I thought that was all there was to my morality, my character, and my true nature. Especially when I held Consort Tang in my arms, I basically thought that this was how I was going to live my life. I had no morals, no bottom line. All the classics I had learned, such as the relationship between ruler and subject, father and son, had evaporated from me. I was a traitor," Jia Xu said with a hint of madness.

That wasn't being a male concubine. Even if someone was the Empress Dowager's male concubine, they would still be looked down upon. Jia Xu, who came from a declining aristocratic family in Wuwei, had his own moral principles. But when he held Consort Tang in his arms, Jia Xu knew very well that all his morals had evaporated.

This is extremely important because at that moment, Jia Xu had completely let go of everything. Everything he had learned had become a tool, not an ideal. For a young man from a traditional Confucian family who came with the ambition of reviving his family and supporting the Han Dynasty, everything shattered when he embraced Consort Tang. That sense of utter devastation, that feeling of disillusionment with everything in the world, turned Jia Xu into a beast!
"Everything I learned, everything I cherished, my morality, my ideals, all collapsed, leaving only a corpse named Jia Xu, who lived only to witness everything." Jia Xu said this, and the recollection in his expression made Chen Xi completely understand Jia Xu.

Indeed, Chen Xi understood Jia Xu. Everything he learned in his youth was completely different from the reality he faced in his young adulthood. In middle age, he trampled on all of that with his own power, and in the end, he was embraced by a woman who had desecrated his ideals and morals. Even if it was his own choice, Jia Xu knew he was doomed.

Of course, if we really want to trace back, we should criticize based on what we saw and heard in our youth, and we should condemn based on the environment we were in at the time. But to be honest, he did choose his own path, especially someone like Jia Xu, with such terrifying talent and such long-term vision. He had the possibility of making his own choice, but in the end, he went down the wrong path.

"Of course I'm not here to criticize these things." Jia Xu collected his thoughts. He could still recall his feelings at that time, because at that moment, for Jia Xu now, he had actually gone astray. Moreover, if he hadn't met Liu Bei and Chen Xi, Jia Xu felt that he probably would never have been able to turn back from that wrong path in his lifetime. So he needed to speak out.

"So, you should understand what I'm trying to say." Jia Xu looked at Chen Xi. "I don't know if it's for your own good, but I do know that from the current perspective, I made a mistake back then, a very serious one. And I am Jia Xu. Even if you, Chen Zichuan, are as lonely as the moon in the sky, you should still be able to see me. There are people stronger than me in this era, but I am at least one of the stars."

If someone like me can make a mistake in that kind of environment, tell me if there's a problem with the times, and how someone like me can make a mistake and then get back on track. Tell me, have you actually changed the overall environment? Have you made things better?

Without a doubt, Jia Xu presented the facts, the same facts as Chen Xi presented.

"If I had a choice, I would still want to be a human. There are plenty of people who can lead beasts to devour people. I can do something else." Jia Xu looked at Chen Xi and said very seriously, "So, Zichuan, take a gamble. Damn it, I'm not doing this for you, nor for your own good. I need you to take a leap of faith. I've been decadent for decades, missed my youth, and then met you. I spent more than ten years pulling myself out of the mire, and you're telling me to run away?"

"I don't care if you believe in yourself or not, or if you waver or not. I just want to tell you that you must continue to be the prime minister, fight hard for this era, and continue to lead everyone forward. Run away my ass! If you dare to run, I'll break your legs!" Jia Xu's voice was filled with anger at this moment. He was not there to persuade Chen Xi at all.

"Uh." Chen Xi was rendered speechless by Jia Xu's final summary. He had considered various ways to respond to Jia Xu's answer, but he never expected Jia Xu to say something like this.

Compared to all other rhetoric, this straightforward, even somewhat threatening approach, made Chen Xi feel the most at ease.

See, all the feelings surrounding Chen Xi's impending departure and the story's impending end can be shattered in some way.
Having lived a disillusioned life to the age of sixty, having met many fellow book lovers, I transmigrated to the past and met the thirty-year-old Emperor Taizu. My only thought was, "I may die, but Emperor Taizu must not."