Episode 37
Playlist~ Enrique Iglesias - All About You
Fernando's POV
Lying down next to Micaela and cuddling her was a weird and at the same time a great feeling. Don't ask if I accepted the invitation of sleeping over because yes I did accept it, remember is what I did wanted anyways. At first I thought I'll be sleeping in the guest room, but no, Micaela wanted me to sleep on the same bed with her.
When she requested for that I was scared to accept it. I mean it's my first time of sleeping on the same bed with a lady apart from those times when I was younger that my brother and I use to sleep on the same bed with my mom. Now I'm a grown man and the cuddling of a mother is different from a woman you love in a romantic way. Another thing that came to mind was the fear of my past. Even before I lay down on the bed I was already imagining her touching me while I was asleep and that caused me to almost reject her offer.
"I know what you're thinking Ferd, you think I'll rape you like they did in your past, that's never going to happen. We're both adults here, I can never force you to make love to me neither will I force myself to do the same. You're with me Fernando, I love you so much and I'll never do anything to hurt you. So forget your past and enjoy the future that is here with us" she had said to me and that had calmed me down and I'd followed her to her bedroom.
Right now my arms are wrapped around her body and I snuggled her to me and kissed her neck. Her lovely mild fragrance hits my nose. "Your scent is intoxicating to me, my own" I sniffles and she giggles.
"So are yours my love" she whispers drawing circles with her thumb on my arms.
"Can I ask you a question?" I requested.
"Sure, anything?"
"Is it true what Ji-hye said?"
"Ji-hye said many things, which one are you talking about?"
"About your love life. Is it true you never dated anyone before now?"
"Oh, that. Well yes, I never dated any guy. I've only been to different dates with guys but I never really had a serious relationship with them".
"Why is that? Did you had any bad experience while growing up? Although I knew you never had any boyfriend in highschool unlike every other girl, but when you left highschool I was expecting you to be married by now you know" I said chuckling and she laughs.
"C'mon, I'm not too old for you to say that".
"No, my own. I didn't say it because you're old, I just found you to be such a beautiful and intelligent lady to have still remain single. Well I'm happy I met you single though if not I wouldn't have had the chance to make you my woman" I kissed her cheek.
"Maybe it was you that I was waiting for all along to spend the rest of my life with" she replied in her sweet soft voice. My heart skipped for a moment when I heard her said that, and a smile spread on my face. I turn her around and she was facing me.
"That is the sweetest thing I've ever heard in my life" I whisper and kissed her lips and let it lingers there for a moment and then we tongue lock I guess that's what they call it, right? When it comes to kissing, I don't know anything about it. I'm so naive when it comes to things like this. I kissed her the way I know how to and to be honest my girlfriend is a better kisser than I am. Oh Fernando, you need to attend classes on all of these. "You're a better kisser than I am. Where did you learn it from?" I voiced out my thoughts and her cheeks went all pink with wide eyes staring at me.
I laughed at her facial expression and she hits my chest lightly. "I didn't learn it anywhere. I'm not even a good kisser" she pouts and I laughed and pinched her nose lightly.
"Of course you are" I deadpans and she fake glared at me.
"Stop teasing me now, would you?" she gave me a puppy face and I chuckled and kissed her nose.
"Okay, I won't say that, but you still need to teach me how to kiss like you" I wiggled my brows and she giggles and swat my chest. "Ouch" I squealed and she laughs. I pushed her lightly to the bed and hovered over her and began tickling her with my right hand. Soft giggles emerges from her and it erupted into laughter.
"Ferd... stop" she begged between laughs but I didn't stop. "Please, Ferd" she begs again and I tickled her one last time before I stopped and pulled her down with me. She lay on my chest and wrapped her arm around my abs. I love it right here with her, is peaceful and lovely. Just both of us here and no one else, I can't wait to marry her and spend the rest of my life with her.
Did I say marriage? Isn't it too fast to talk about marriage? But what is there to do again than to marry the woman you love and enjoy amazing moments with her? Isn't that what every relationship goal is?
"Would you like to make a commitment someday?" Micaela's voice intruded my thoughts and I glance down at her.
"Commitment? What commitment?" I asks confusedly. I don't understand what she's talking about.
She sat up and look me in the eyes. "Commitment in relationship means having an agreement to love, trust, be honest, openess, loyalty to your partner. And this are the necessary keys to marriage..."
"Are you asking if I'm ready to get married to you?" I interrupted and she opens her mouth in a gape. Isn't it weird that we were both thinking of the same thing. "What if I say yes, are you ready to make a commitment with me?" I asks and she stared at me in silence.
I know that look she's giving me now, it means a no. She doesn't want to make a commitment to me yet because she doesn't see me fit to keep to it. She doesn't want to commit to someone like me. "You're scared of commiting to someone like me because you think I'll change my mind someday and decide not to be with you because of my past experience with women right? Say it, Micaela, say it! You think I'm not good enough to spend the rest of your life with me, isn't it?"












