Episode 58

Playlist~ Christiana Perri - Human

Micaela's POV

"Antonio, why would you send him the hospital's address? Why did you even tell him I'm pregnant?!" I scowled at him.

"What do you mean? You're carrying his child, Micaela, he deserves to know" Antonio replied me and I shook my head in objection.

"I don't want him to know I'm carrying his child, it's not going to change anything. Can't you see he doesn't want anything to do with me?"

"You never know maybe the child growing inside of you will change his mind".

"It's not for you to decide. If anyone knows Fernando, it's I his ex-wife. He's a man of his words, he never goes back to changing what he has proclaimed".

"You're wrong, even God takes pity on us no matter how grave our sins could be, how much more a human like you and I. Fernando is not as cruel as you think, he has a diamond heart".

I snickered at his last sentence. "A diamond heart you say?" I inquired and he nods, "just wait until he gets here only then can you tell if he really does has...." I trailed off when the door flew open and my ex-husband barged in. His fragrance hits my nose and I sniff it in like there was no tomorrow, how I missed his smell. "And here he comes" I muttered under my breath and glance away.

"You're here, buddy. We apologize for not appearing at the pre-trial, my client's health was at stake that's why" I heard Antonio apologize.

"I see, I obviously see how sick she looks right now" Ferd's voice sounded cold and with humor when he said that. I was dying to stare at his face but I can't do that right now for my own sake.

"Here is the doctor's report on her if you still think we're lying to you" with my peripheral vision I saw Antonio handed him my pregnancy test result. Ferd snatched it from him and I caught him reading it.

I was expecting some yellings from him but all I got was awkward silence in the room. My head remained in a bow because I was still scared to look him in the eyes. I heard footsteps approached to my bedside and I suddenly became nervous, something in me tells me it's not Antonio but Ferd. My intuition turns out to be right when Ferd squats right in front of me. His presence got me trembling and I shut my eyes closed.

"Look at me" he gave the order calmly and his breath fans my face. I refused to stare at him like he wanted but my eyes was begging me to open them up. "Micaela, I said look at me" he requested again and his hand touched my face and tilts my chin. I was forced to open my eyes to catch a glimpse of him.

We both locked gaze and just then did I realize our lips was an inch apart. Staring into his handsome face and letting his aftershave scent fill my nose is all I'm going to dream of tonight. How I wish time would stand still and let this moment last forever.

"You're pregnant for me?" he said rhetorically and I forced a slight nod in response. My response triggered a snort from him and then light chuckles emerged from him. His reaction sent little hopes to me that he was excited that I'm having a baby for him. "You lie, Micaela. That baby is not mine" he continues and my hope was completely shattered. I gasps in disbelief and my heart broke into pieces all over again.

"It's...it's..yours" I trembled in tears.

"That's a lie!" he screamed to my face and stood up.

"Fernando what are you saying? Micaela is carrying your child, you can't possibly deny the...."

"Shut the fuck up I didn't ask for your opinion!" He intruded Antonio who has butted into our conversation. "You two think you can fool me into believing the child she is carrying is mine?"

"What the hell do you mean, Fernando? Micaela has never cheated on you with anyone!" Antonio defended.

"Really? How did you know that? Oh, don't tell me I know how. Because you are the only one she has cheated on me with that's why you're defending her!"

"Fernando stop talking nonsense already! I've never had any feelings for your woman let alone think of having sex with her!"

"Stop lying! I don't believe a word you say!"

"Ferd, Antonio is saying the truth, we never slept with each other, we don't even have such interest at heart. All Antonio ever did was be a good friend and defend me from the crime I didn't commit intentionally".

Oh God, I can't believe Ferd thinks so low of me. What have I done to deserve this? How can the man I've ever loved so much and still love treat me like a whore he just met?

"You know what? I don't care if the baby you're carrying is mine or not, that doesn't change anything Micaela Alvarado, my rape charges on you still stands. Have a great day with your boyfriend!"

I was still trying to let the words sink into my mind when I heard him say, "Congratulations ex-wife, I hope my ex-best friend take care of you and the baby" and with that he slams the door closed.

Tears suddenly cease from my eyes and I couldn't tell what I feel anymore. I just sat down here like a carved statue without blinking nor did I say a word. I don't think I can survive this loneliness, bitterness, heartaches, and....I don't think I'll be a good mom to this child, it's better he or she isn't born than to have me as a mother. I'm only human, I'm not made of steel, so I can't hold on any longer.

Fernando's POV

"Arrhh!" I screamed at the top of my voice inside my car with my hands hitting the steering wheel frustratingly. How could this be happening now? Why the hell would she get pregnant for me at such a delicate time? I might have acted up unconcern in there at but I know deep down my heart that the child she is carrying is mine. I glance down to the test result staring at me on the passenger seat and I nervously grab it and read it all over again. The test result confirmed it, the baby Micaela is carrying is a week and three days old, it falls in line with the exact night we made love for the very first time during our honeymoon vacation. I need not be told that the baby is really mine.

What the hell am I suppose to do now? How do I embrace this new truth when all I want is revenge? What if my mom finds out the real truth of my divorce with Micaela? Yeah, my mom had no idea what has happened and what is still happening between Micaela and I, she still believes we're still married. The reason she hasn't really found out is because she returned back to Mexico for her business few days after I got back to the city. Remember how I told my brother not to mention it to her? Well he kept to his words and didn't mention it to her until she left, but my brother already knows what is going on and he's been on my neck to forgive my ex-wife.

Forgiveness is not something that comes easily, it takes time and I don't know how much longer before I'll heal from the damage and forgive her. That is the least of my problem now, my worries is the child that has come into the picture. I'm going to be a father, can you believe that? How do I accept a woman I hate so much to be the mother of my child? That's a death sentence, they'll never be peace in the family, we'll be a bad example to the child, it's better the child isn't born than to have us as parents.

What am I still doing here? I should leave this vicinity already, I need to go home and think it through before I decide on what to do. Perhaps she'll reason with me and get rid of the child after I come to a decision. It's going to be for her own good and my own good, there shouldn't be any connection at all between the two of us. I turn on the ignition of my car and I drove off to my mansion for some cool off.

"How long more before you would have told me?" a feminine voice asks immediately I stepped foot in my parlor and I jolted from where I stood and glance around and then my gaze went upstairs.

"Jeez! Mom! You scared the hell out of me! What are you doing here?"

"Answer the question son" she requested ignoring my own question. I watched her walk downstairs to join me, and her face was looking so gloomy.

"What question, mom? Weren't you suppose to be in Mexico City closing some business deals? What are you doing here without a word from you that you were coming over?"

"Is it true you divorced your wife?" she encountered my own question and that got me jaw dropped. She knew? But how? Who told her of our divorce?

"I don't know what you're talking about, Mom" I replied with a blank face and my gaze kept shifting from one thing to another.

"Do not lie to me son, I only want the truth. Look me in the eyes and tell me nothing but the truth" her eyes went dim with sadness and that got me feeling bad. My mom does deserve to know the truth, but what's the point? It's only going to break her heart and I don't want that. "Fernando?" she called my name quietly and I gazed up at her and gave a nod. I don't think I have any other choice but to tell her.

"Yes Mom, whoever told you didn't lie to you. My marriage with that woman is over".

Tears streams down my mom's cheeks and she covered her face in her palms. I knew she'll break down if I told her about my divorce that's why I've been keeping it a secret from her. I took a step forward and hugged her to my chest. "It's okay mom, you don't have to cry, I'm fine with how everything went" I consoled her.

She wiggles free from me and she shook her head in tears. "I can't believe you'll say that, son, how can you be fine when you just divorce a woman you're so in love with?"

"That's past tense now, mom, I don't love that woman anymore. She betrayed my love for her, she lied to me, she made me believe she was deeply in love with me while it was only because she was obsessed with me.

"What are you saying, son? Micaela I know will never do such to you. That girl loves you very much, she's the most honest and kind-hearted girl I've ever met. She's....."

"Enough mom, enough already! She fooled you into believing all that. To be honest with you, she fooled us all! Micaela Alvarado isn't the innocent angel you and every other person think she is. That girl is a Jezebel, she is a manipulator and she is my worst nightmare!"

"Son, I think you're exaggerating. I don't understand what you're saying about my daughter-in-law. All marriages have it own challenges, you can't just divorce that woman for just a little mistake she must have done. She is not perfect and so are you, that's why you two need to learn to be patient and forgive each other often".

"You're just talking base on sentiment, mother. If you ever come to know what she did, you'll hate her forever".

"That's not possible, I'll never hate such a sweet girl over some little quarrels you two might have had. Tell me son, what did she do to you for you to speak ill of her?"

"I'm not sure you want to hear it, mom. It's better we forget about it" I replied and turnaround to leave.

"If you don't tell me this minute, I'll pick up my phone and call her right away!" My mom threatens me and I halted halfway.

I squint at her and I saw her holding up her phone, she really did meant it. I turnaround and took a step forward and came standing in front of her. Secrets, we all have secrets and sometimes our secret can either ruin our lives and relationships, or it can influence it positively. Which one is it going to be now between my mom and I? Am I ready to reveal a secret I've been hiding from her all this years? How is she going to feel when she gets to know about it? Would she ever trust me as her son again?