Pregnant

The white ceiling and the smell of antiseptic woke me up. That only meant that I was in the Hospital.

I roamed my eyes and noticed that I was alone in the room. Suddenly the door opened and a doctor along with a nurse came in.

I tried to sit up when they got on my side. I felt okay but a little bit tired.

"How are you feeling? Are you okay now?" the doctor asked while smiling.

I felt myself. Lately, I’ve been feeling exhausted even with simple moves. Even now. I also felt tired.

“I think I am. But lately, I’ve been feeling exhausted. Maybe I was just stressed,” I said to the doctor. She smiled again.

“It’s normal. You are actually two weeks pregnant. Congratulations. ” It was like a bomb that exploded in front of me. "Your baby is actually healthy so no need to worry," she added.

My eyes widened as I stared at the doctor who was smiling at me.

I didn’t know what to feel. I was shocked. Philip suddenly came to my mind. Fuck! I knew he was the one who brought me here. I just hope that he didn’t know it yet.

“D-Doc. Where is the man who took me here? ” I asked nervously.

“He’s outside. I think he bought something outside. Do you want me to call him?”

“No! I mean. You don’t have to. Did you already tell him about me being pregnant? ” I was praying that she didn’t.

“No. I didn’t. I want you to know it first. Why? Is there a problem?" She asked with a concerned expression.

“Can you do me a favor, Doc? If he asks about my condition, please tell him that I was just stressed. ” I could see how the doctor was suddenly confused by what I said.

“If that’s what you want. No problem,” she agreed without asking why.

The door opened just in time we were done talking with my doctor.

It was Philip.

I looked away. I couldn’t bear to look at him now that I know I’m pregnant and Nicholai was the father. I couldn’t tell him now. I didn’t want to break him anymore.

Damn it! Why was this happening?

I simply touched my stomach. I wanted to cry. I knew I wasn't ready but here it was. I didn’t want my child to feel unwanted. The baby was innocent.

Philip walked in and immediately asked the doctor about me. I was just silent. The doctor told him that I was just stressed and just needed to rest and I could go home too anytime.

"Love, are you really okay?" Philip asked worriedly.

“Yes, Love. I’m fine. I just need to rest. I want to go home to my condo. Can you take me?” I looked at him for a bit and then looked away.

“Of course. Let me settle everything first,” he said while kissing my forehead before leaving.

Philip settled everything, like my bills, before we left the hospital and took me to my condo. We were already in front of my condo unit when Philip talked.

“Would you like me to stay with you tonight?”

“You don’t have to. I know, you still have work tomorrow. I will just sleep and I will be fine tomorrow. I assure you. ” I looked at him and I saw how he wanted to stay with me.

But I felt the opposite. I wanted to be alone. I had to think about what I needed to do after knowing that I was pregnant. I needed to think about what should and would be better for my child.

I heard him sigh in defeat. “Fine. But please call me if something happens. I’ll tend to you anytime,” he said while holding my hand.

“Okay, Love. Be careful on your way home. ”

“Okay. I’m going now. I love you. ” My heart suddenly constricted. It was like anytime, I was going to cry. I looked at Philip as if I was memorizing his face.

I already concluded what would happen to us now that I was pregnant. And I didn’t know if I could let him go and do what was right.

I couldn’t bear to see him hurt because of me. Because I made a mistake that I could never undo. The aftermath of the mistake that I had made was already inside me. Alive and healthy. And I should take responsibility for it.

“I love you too,” I said to him and then kissed him. He was kinda taken aback. But he kissed me back in the same manner. I poured out everything I felt because it might be the last.

He hugged me and kissed me for the last time before he left.

I went inside my condo and cried my heart out. I want to blame what was inside my womb because I was hurting. But I refrained myself. No! It was not the baby's fault. The baby was a blessing. Maybe there was a reason why He gave this little one to me unexpectedly.

I wiped away my tears and calmed myself and I decided to take a bath.

I felt a little relieved after taking a warm bath. I changed into my silk nightdress and was about to blow dry my hair when my phone suddenly rang. I put down the blow dryer on the nightstand and picked up my phone on the bed.

It was my mom.

I answered the call right away and my mother’s worried voice greeted me.

[Denima! Are you okay, baby? Philip called us earlier. We are here in the hospital but the nurse said that you’ve been discharged and already home. We are late because of the traffic.]

“I’m okay, Ma. Just stressed lately. The doctor said I just need to rest,” I lied.

I heard my mother sigh in the other line. [Okay. You worried us. All right, I'll drop the call so you can rest. We are on our way home too. Love you.]

“Love you too, Ma. Be careful on your way home,” I said before she hung up.

Suddenly I felt heavy again because of the lie I told my mom.

I was startled when the doorbell suddenly rang.

My forehead creased. It was already late. Maybe it was Philip. Maybe he forgot something so he came back.

I hurriedly combed my hair and got out of my room and walked to the door. Without looking who was outside, I immediately opened the door with the thought that it was just Philip. But it was not.

Nicholai's angry face greeted me as soon as I opened the door. My eyes widened and I was about to close the door when he grabbed my hand and pulled me inside my condo before slamming the door shut. He leaned me against the closed door and angrily looked at me.

"If you think that you can escape from me, think twice, Denima."