Chapter 10

“Stop pacing around and sit your ass down,” Liam said in a bored tone as he kept flipping through the channels at my house.

“How the fuck are you so calm? We might get the results through mail any second now!” I exclaimed and he rolled his eyes like he was least bothered about it.

“We both know that you are obviously gonna get the internship so stop worrying too much, if anything, I’m the one who should be freaking out,” he replied, patting the seat next to him. He was right and I relaxed a bit. I know I studied so hard and did well but still, I was freaking out of my mind.

“Why aren’t you worried?” I asked curiously as I sat down beside him.

“Because I’m not interested, Em. I studied only for you and it doesn’t matter if I get or not,” he shrugged and stuffed his face with Pringles. God, he was such a pig sometimes.

“But I want you to get it, Liam,” I said in annoyance and nudged him.

“You want me to get it only because you don’t want to be stuck alone,” he glared at me making me gasp.

“Hey, that’s not true.” I kicked his legs playfully. He narrowed his eyes at me which made me grin sheepishly. He knew me so well and it was true. I didn’t want to be alone if I get this internship and I prayed to God that we both should get it somehow.

“Well, that’s one of the reasons but I also made you study so hard and you owe it to me,” I replied, pointing my finger at him which made him laugh. I snatched the chips from his hands and started eating those unhealthy calories out of stress.

“Who knows? Maybe the second and third spot could be given to some hot guys and you could have a good time, drooling over them.” He wiggled his eyebrows and smirked.

“Nah, I already have a hot guy who is giving me a good time,” I sighed dreamily and wondered when he hasn’t texted me yet. It was Saturday and he usually texts me in the morning.

“Ew, TMI dude.” he pretended to gag, making me laugh. We both heard my phone ding and I immediately saw a mail notification. Fuck, my hands were all sweaty and the phone slipped through my grip as I tried to unlock it. I could feel beads of sweat form on my forehead. I rubbed my hands on my dress and tried to open it again when Liam snatched the phone from me.

“For god’s sake, I’ll check it before you have a fucking heart attack,” he opened the mail and I observed his face. He showed no reaction and kept reading the mail like a robot. Oh god, did I not get it? My heart was racing and I took deep breaths to calm down.

“Well,” he covered his mouth with his hands and cleared his throat.

Well what?

“Tell me,” I let out a shaky breath, afraid to hear his response.

“You got it, Em.” he whispered with a small smile on his face and I jumped up from the couch, not believing my own ears and felt a bit disappointed that he didn’t get it but he continued, “And guess what? The second position was indeed given to a hot guy and you are looking at him right fucking now,” he grinned widely. I screamed in shock and happiness. This was fucking amazing. He stood up, laughing at my reaction.

“Oh my god, We both made it!” I laughed and pulled him in for a hug. I was beyond happy and my eyes almost teared up.

“I’m honestly surprised. I hope there isn’t any other Liam Anderson in our class,” he chuckled and hugged me tighter. I pulled back with a huge grin on my face.

“We should totally celebrate this,” I squealed, not able to wipe the smile off my stupid face.

“How about tomorrow? We could go out for a few drinks,” he asked as he sat down on the couch.

“I’ll let you know. Now, give me the phone,” I stretched out my hand to see it for myself in case he was pulling some kind of sick prank on me. I sat down, feeling way better and relaxed than earlier, and went through the mail carefully.

“It says we should report from next week and about seventy percent of our academic credit will be based on our performance at this internship,” Damn, that was some serious shit. I should definitely buy some good clothes to make an impression.

“Yeah, we will have around three classes for the whole week from next semester and I think we can manage it,” I noticed that he was also going through the mail on his phone.

“Change of plans, dude. We are going shopping tomorrow. I have nothing to wear,” I stated, not peeling my gaze from my phone.

“Oh dear lord, shopping with you?” I peered at him from the corner of my eyes and noticed that he went a bit pale. I couldn't help but roll my eyes at his dramatic expression.

“Oh shut up, it won’t be like last time.” I laughed, thinking about the last time we went shopping. He literally cried at the way back home, complaining that his legs were hurting from all the walking. Imagine having to try on a hundred dresses to get the right one, Men.

“Yeah, sure,” he scoffed, flipping through the channels again.

“Hey look, the third position is given to that girl, Lucy.”

“Lucy who?” he asked with a confused look on his face.

“Lucy, the girl I mentioned the other day. She kinda likes you,” I winked at him. Oh, this must be fun.

“I don’t think I’ve seen her. Is she pretty?” he asked with a confused look on his face, scratching the back of his head.

“Yeah, maybe.” I shrugged trying not to make a big deal out of it knowing he would lose interest if I exaggerate.

“Hmm...whatever, I gonna watch the game at my house. I can’t believe you don’t have even a single sports channel,” he grimaced and stood up, collecting his things, “Please don’t tell me Austin watches those stupid rom-coms with you,” he said with disgust, making me laugh.

“Who said we would be watching TV when we have far better things to do?” I smirked at him as he made his way towards the door.

“Ugh, I’m gonna pretend I didn’t hear that, take care, Em.” He kissed my forehead and left my house. I closed the door, with a smile on my lips, still not believing that we actually got the internship.

I looked down at my phone, wanting to tell this news to Austin so badly. Of all the days, he chose not to text me today. He used to send dirty inappropriate texts during the weekdays. What happened to him now? I pouted and saw the last message he sent sometime in the middle of this week.

‘Bored out of my mind, want to spread your legs on my desk and tease your wet pussy with my cock,’

I blushed at the thought of it and felt my core tingle with excitement. I missed him so badly that both my heart and body ached for him. Maybe I could surprise him by going over to his place. I knew he would be at home since it was the weekend. I quickly grabbed my keys and rushed out of the door with my phone in the other hand and drove to his place.

Once I reached his building, I took the elevator and punched the buttons. I quickly adjusted my dress and hair, wanting to look good and grinned excitedly, imagining his reaction when he sees me. When the elevator dinged, I took a deep breath and walked out, making my way towards his door. I stopped dead on my tracks when I saw a girl walking out of his door wearing a skimpy black dress that was way too short for my liking, her red hair disheveled and she wiped the smudged lipstick off her face as she walked towards me. My heart sank at the sight in front of me. No, no, no, it can’t be true.

He wouldn’t do that to me, would he?

I tried to check if I had the right door and it was indeed his place. My eyes filled with unshed tears and I immediately turned around before she could see me. I stood frozen, unable to move, and saw her walk past me to the elevator. I tried so hard to control my sob.

God, not this again.

I turned left and immediately took the stairs before she could think I was some kind of a freak, standing in the middle of the hallway for no reason. I took a deep breath and tried to convince myself that there must be some kind of explanation and I shouldn’t jump to conclusions. My phone dinged and I unlocked it with shaky hands to see a text from him which broke my heart and proved me wrong that there was no explanation for what I saw.

‘I think we should stop this.’

I broke down on the stairs as tears flowed down my cheeks. I closed my mouth with my hands to control the sounds of my sobs as I didn’t want someone to hear me crying. I felt a shooting pain through my heart like someone was ripping it apart and squeezed my eyes tightly to prevent any more tears from falling. I honestly didn’t think he would fucking cheat on me. I pulled myself together and dragged my feet through the stairs and wept uncontrollably till I reached the ground floor. I quickly wiped my tears with the back of my hands and took a deep breath, trying to compose myself.

Okay, I need to get out of this place first.

I hung my head low and rushed out of the building before anyone could see me in that miserable state. I sat inside my car and took my phone, typing out a reply angrily.

‘Exactly what I thought,’

I hit send and threw my phone in the backseat. I felt my lips tremble as I tried so hard to fight back my tears. I didn’t want to cry over that asshole and hated the fact that this hurt more than the first time when Justin cheated on me. I wiped away my unwanted tears angrily and let out a dry laugh at the fact that we weren’t even a thing and I had no idea why I was feeling this way. How did this day go from perfect to disaster so soon? I drove my car as I kept blinking back the tears. Fuck, I am stronger than this, I kept chanting it over and over again.

Once I reached my home, I took my bottle of vodka from the refrigerator and drank straight out of it, not minding the burning sensation in my throat as it felt way better than the ache in my heart. Was I only good enough for a fuck? Why did I fall for his fucking charms and his stupid hot looks? My lips quivered as I laid down on my couch and the realization sunk into me. I had been falling for Austin Williams all along but he could never be mine, now or ever.

I never wanted to see his face again.