Chapter 19

“I’m not leaving you, Austin. I just thought you might need some space, given what happened. I don’t know how you deal with stuff,” I cupped his face and he closed his eyes at my touch.

“Stay,” he whispered. I wrapped my arms around his neck and he hugged me like his life depended on it. I had no idea what he was going through but I could feel his pain and it brought more tears to my eyes. We stayed like that for what felt like an eternity before I broke the silence.

“Uhh...Can we move to the couch? My legs are hurting,” I tried to lighten the mood and he chuckled, carrying me over his shoulders like I weighed nothing, making me yelp.

“Put me down, I’m scared.” I laughed but he paid no mind and made his way towards his bedroom. I felt the softness of his bed as he dropped me. He got in the bed and hugged me from behind. I could feel his hot breath on my neck which made my core tingle. I pushed myself closer to his body, greedy to feel more of him and he groaned against my neck.

“Stop moving,” he murmured and I hummed in response.

“You are not a distraction, Emma. You are the only reason I’m calm right now. I need you so much. Just give me some time,” he spoke suddenly, making my heart race and I melted against him.

He needed me.

“I hate it when you are silent, what are you thinking?” he asked against my neck and I turned to face him. I shook my head, smiling at him adoringly.

“You must be thinking I’m crazy or something,” he grinned, making me roll my eyes.

“Well, that did cross my mind once,” I teased him as he took my hands, entwining his fingers with mine.

“It’s just that...I’m not used to this, Emma. The intimacy, talking, and communicating, I was never good at it and it scares the shit out of me.” He spoke and I wanted to ask why he was scared but remained still, afraid that he might stop talking if I move even an inch, “You make me calm and I just don’t want to lose you like I’m losing everyone around me.” He choked out his words, making my heartache. Fuck, he was really hurting and I was an idiot to push him. I should have kept my mouth shut.

“I don’t want to lose you too,” I whispered, making him smile widely.

Fuck, he looked so cute.

“I didn’t want this morning to go this way. I wanted to talk to you about something else and shit had to happen,” he sighed and I caressed his face softly, loving the feel of his stubble. I noticed how long and thick his eyelashes were and found myself drowning in those hazel eyes.

“What did you want to talk about?”

“I---I wanna try this dating, going out and stuff, I don’t want just sex with you. I know you deserve more and I’m---I’m willing to try,” he stuttered for the first time since I met him. I got up with a jerk and looked at him with wide eyes. Was he being serious? My heart started to race and I took a deep breath before I could have a heart attack.

“Are you sure? I don’t want you to do this for me.” I blurted out without thinking and he smiled at my doubtfulness.

“Of course, I want this too. I’ve never felt this way with any woman. Heck, I haven’t even had a proper conversation with one except you,” he pulled me closer and I grinned widely, “I may not be good at this so just bear with me,” he sighed and I bit my lip, trying to control my smile.

“It’s okay, I can deal with stupid, confusing, closed off Austin Willams,” I said with a sly smile on my face, making him chuckle. I couldn't believe that he was willing to do this. I was freaking out with happiness internally but decided to play it cool on the outside.

"You haven't dated anyone? Even in high school?" I asked him curiously. He shook his head as he balanced his body on his elbows.

Damn.

“So am I the first girl you are going to date?” I teased him and he narrowed his eyes at me, “Oh my god, technically you are a virgin at dating,” I laughed, making him groan.

“I’m never gonna hear the end of this, am I?” he sighed, pulling me back on the bed.

“Nope,” I giggled as he traced my sides with his fingers which made me ticklish.

“I’m sorry about Dan, though,” I spoke after a while.

“It’s okay, I cut all ties with him.” He muttered, playing with a strand of my hair.

“If it makes you feel any better, I never liked him from the beginning,” I spoke as he kissed my bare shoulders.

“I know, you had eyes only for me,” he replied cockily, making me scoff. I remembered about Liam’s mail and pulled myself from him.

“Also, I wanted to talk to you about that lawsuit,”

“What about it?” he had a confused look on his face and I explained him about how Dan could have been behind it and his eyes went wide.

“Shit, that makes sense and it might be a possibility,” he scratched the back of his head and groaned in frustration.

“Send me that mail and I’ll take care of it,” he stood up and I immediately missed his warmth.

“Alright,”

“I’m gonna kill that motherfucker if I come to know he was behind this shit, I can't believe I made him a partner at my company.” he hissed in anger and started removing his shirt. My eyes followed his every move and I kept drooling over his abs.

“I need to shower....wait, did you just clean my room?” he asked, amusement lacing his tone and I quickly peeled my gaze off his body to see him looking around the room in shock.

“Ummm...well I was bored and it was really messy,” I tucked my hair behind my ears as my cheeks burned in embarrassment. He pulled me by my hand so that I was standing in front of him.

“You know I have a maid for that right?” he chuckled. I wrapped one arm around his neck while I traced his abs with my other hand and felt his breath hitch.

“Now, wouldn’t you like a personal sexy maid?” I asked in a seductive tone, making him swallow hard and his grip on my waist tightened, “You just imagined me in a maid costume, didn’t you?” I asked which made him laugh out loud. He looked so beautiful and I wanted to make him laugh like that always.

“You get me, sweetheart,” he said in a husky tone as he slid his hand under my dress, “God, I missed how much you liked things to be freakishly clean and organized,” he squeezed my ass, making me gasp.

“You remember that?” I breathed out as I felt my pussy getting wet.

“Of course, I remember how you take your coffee with exactly two cubes of sugar, how you tie your hair in a bun always because you hate it when it is all over your face, how your eyebrows scrunch every time you think so hard, how much you hate clothes lying around on the floor, how much you hate being late,” he paused, swallowing hard and I looked at him in shock, stunned by his response. I never knew he noticed these things about me and felt my heart beating so fast that I thought it would jump out of my chest, “how your breath hitches when I touch you, how your squirm beneath me when I kiss your neck,” his hands traced the length of my wet pussy over my underwear, “how wet you become even before I touch you down here,”

Holy fucking shit!

I was lost in him. His touch. His words. His eyes. His scent. He said he was bad at talking and communicating but here he goes, making my heart do somersaults.

“Austin...” I whimpered with parted lips and closed my eyes as he moved my panties aside and fingered me, slowly.

“how you moan my name, making me hard in an instant, I remember everything single thing, sweetheart.” I opened my eyes and looked up to find him already staring at me with his penetrating hot gaze. I stood on my tiptoes and crashed my lips to his. He kissed me back, increasing the intensity and his tongue slipped inside, exploring every inch of my mouth. I felt my legs go weak, as he rubbed my throbbing clit with one hand, while his other hand, held me flush against his chest.

“You are so beautiful,” he murmured against my lips.

My poor heart couldn’t take it anymore and I finally admitted to myself, the one thing I was trying to deny for so long. I was in love with this stupid, hot jerk.

I was in love with Austin friggin Williams.