Chapter 44

Avery's POV.

Kira growled, fighting to take control over me, I tried to keep it down but nothing was working.

I let my guard down and I shifted immediately.

Leaping out of the window, I went after Xander, I just wanted to see him.

I've hurt him. I've hurt him so much in the bid to keep him safe, but not anymore. I'm gonna set things right, I'll talk to him and we'll plan together.

After all, he's my mate, the moon goddess didn't make any mistake in giving me my second mate.

Mind linking with him was a fruitless effort because he wouldn't grant me access.

I picked up his scent and raced through the woods. I didn't race due to questions and regrets this time.

Right now, I race to seek my mate, to comfort him and pacify him, I've hurt him more than enough.

I was getting more and more scared when his scent weaved in different directions. He's deep into the woods and I fear the attacks of rogue wolves or any other evil creature of the night.

I heard a painful deep howl, the moon was bright and beautiful.

After hours of searching, I found him.

I followed my hearing and I saw him!

A wolf is now a man. My mate.

I shifted back and whispered his name"Xander.."

He turned around abruptly, "don't come near me Avery, please for your good...stay away!" He warned taking unsure steps backward.

"Xander, please stop this. You're hurting me." I whined and he looked at me looking alarmed.

His eyes are still not normal, they still have a hue of black in them, which means his wolf is still restless.

"Go back to the pack Avery, you're endangering yourself by coming here, you know what happened the last time we were here...go home please, I'll be back soon." He muttered and turned his back on me.

"We're together in every situation Xander and you know this." I gently began to take gentle steps towards him, not wanting to scare the man away.

He's afraid of hurting me, afraid of marking me. Xander is afraid of marking his mate and I understand. I told him I'm not ready for it yet.

"You probably don't belong to me Avery....perhaps the moon goddess made a mistake in making me your mate, everyone thinks Erik is the right one for you, they want you and Erik to be together." His voice was pain filled as he made those sentences.

"And what about what I want Xander, ever thought of what I want."

I was almost near to him now, but he swung around and stared at me hard, his dark eyes shining brightly in the night. There were tears in his eyes and I could see he was trying his best to dispel them.

"What do you want huh? Do you even know what you want? I don't think you want me, if you do..you wouldn't be getting cozy with that disgusting wolf who's dating your adopted sister. When it's evident to most people, why can't you see it? How can you turn blind eye to such things?" He asked, frustration evident in his voice.

I stepped back with a surprised expression, not because Erik and Shannon are dating but for him to think I don't want him.

His face pales immediately when he sees my face, "I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, I didn't mean to say anything that would hurt you, I'm sorry Avery." He apologized and engulfed me in a hug, our naked bodies collided in heat as we hugged.

I relaxed and began to cry.

My cry wasn't because of what he told me, I cry because I've missed this man in my past life due to my stupid attitude.

I missed a man who loved me without an interior motive and went for a scumbag like Erik

His stupid was I in my last life?

"Is it ok baby. Just calm down, I'm sorry for being a jealous jerk. I'm sorry for saying things I'm not supposed to say... I'm so sorry Avery. Please don't cry, please love." He began to stroke my hair and pat my back.

Soon enough, I reduced the crying to whimpering.

"I'm sorry Xander, I should have told you everything when I had the chance, I'm sorry." I apologize with sobs.

"Oh sweetheart, it's ok now. Keep cool."

"Are you feeling cold?" I asked when his body shivered at my touch on his back.

"Uhmm...no, I'm not feeling cold....our close naked body contact is making my wolf savage but don't worry, he's under control." He said and gave me her sweetest smile.

Oh God, how much I want to devour those perfect lips of his.

I tightened the hug and clothes began to cover us.

My imagination wasn't so good this time, my nun-like nightgown was still torn and Erik was in his black tuxedo.

Just the way I had seen him during the party.

He looked at my dress and a deep frown appeared on his face.

"I'm sorry for that." He said, pointing to my torn gown and scratching his hair.

He looks so cute doing that.

I gave a deep smile reviving those hot intimate moments we shared a few hours ago.

A blush crept into my cheeks and he smiled.

"I just lost control. I'm sorry."

"Nah, it's fine...you control yourself in a way I couldn't even comprehend, your wolf is one savage one and I love it."

His wolf seemed delighted by my comment as Xander's eyes turned completely dark and he let out a deep low growl.

Xander quickly brushes him back.

"He's cute, really cute," I commented again, loving his wolf reactions to my flirts.

"If you continue that way, don't hold me responsible for what might happen, my wolf isn't so civil. He wouldn't mind having you sprawled on the floor."

I let out a chuckle, loving the sound of that.

"Here, this should conceal one of your flowers peeking at me."

He handed over his jacket to me and I blush way harder than before at the realization that one of my boobs was outside.

"Thank you," I muttered shyly.

‘Will you two stop flirting with each other and get talking? The night is far gone.’ Kira bellowed in my head and I let out a chuckle.

She has a point, I need to talk to my mate.

"Can we talk now Xander? It's important." My tone has this seriousness that even shocked me.

"As you wish, the point now is where do we sit? We don't want any trouble from rogues, we need somewhere not so exposing." He expressed his worry but I assured him that everything was alright.

I couldn't sense any danger from any corner.

We found a suitable spot and sat down.

"Ok. So I'm all ears."

"I know something is brewing between Erik and Shannon." I started and he arched an eyebrow.

"Why are you still close to that rascal?" His face flashed anger.

"I don't know how to put this to you but I suspect them in lots of things, strange things are happening that most of my findings lead to them."

His interest was piqued, and I'm glad he didn't ask questions.

I can't tell him the entire truth, so I need to fabricate something to fill in those missing links that I can't tell him yet.

"Starting from my parent's death, nothing is natural about my mom's death, secondly I smell and sense some strange dark powers emitting from Erik, though it's not strong but I suspect he's into something dubious."

I stopped and looked at him, he nodded me to continue.

"My instincts are hardly wrong, especially when I get my powers."

"Haven't you always had your powers?" He asked, looking confused.

"No. I got my powers a few days before my birthday, that's why I still haven't got the hang of it yet." It was literally the truth.

He nodded and I continued.

"Shannon is bent on getting me and Erik close by all means and that remains a mystery to me." I stopped and he smiled.

"I've noticed that, plus she's hands down jealous of you. I don't know why she'll want her boyfriend to date you."

"That's one of the things I want to find out. And I found something shocking."

"What's it?"

"Erik's mother is a scarlet witch," I said in almost a whisper.

Xander's hands flew to his mouth and the surprised look on his face nearly made me laugh.

I was pretty surprised the first time the moon goddess told me too.

"I thought they were banished from the pack years ago?" He asked, hands still on his mouth.

"Yeah, but some of the good ones were allowed to stay due to some reasons best known to the Alpha of that time," I explained, pulling his hands from his mouth.

"Darn! I never liked that woman. She has this negative energy I'm not comfortable with...that's why I was pretty scared seeing you in their company. Shannon is not such a good one."

"I know Xander, she's the Beta's wife and Erik is the Beta's son. To stand up against those two...we need proof and that's what I need to get."

I explained and Xander had a bland expression on his face.