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I stared at him in stunned silence, he didn't say anything else. He just went back to sleep. I ran my fingerd through his hair and shook my head. Rejection won't solve our problems, it will only add on to them. I tell myself that I hate him right now, but I don't. I can't.

I'm in love with him and have been. What he did was wrong, but maybe we could find a way to help him.

"I don't hate you, no matter how hard I try. That will never happen." I whispered.

"I love you." He murmured.

I smiled and kissed him on the forehead, "And I you."

He slowly opened his eyes and looked at me. I smiled softly at him, assuring him that I won't abandon him like everyone else.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to lose control. I-I...I never wanted to hurt you. I know it was wrong." He whispered.

"I need help."

I frowned as he cried quietly, I then kissed him on the lips. When we parted, I smiled at him.

"And we'll get you some." I replied. "Now, go to sleep. You need the rest."

He slept for four hours straight, I shouldn't be surprised though. He hadn't slept at all since throwing me in the cell. A few pack members told me he had to fight off his dad throughout the three days.

He would always win, but this time he didn't. I know his dad is stronger, but Alaricas is stubborn. I'm so scared that it'll get him hurt one of these days.

I looked up from cleaning the blood off the ground as the door swung open. Eduardus seemed shocked when he saw me, I glared at him before finishing the cleaning.

"Where's the monster?" He asked.

I clenched my jaw, "He's your baby brother. The fact you can go from being a kind and concerned brother to being like your parents, disgusts me."

"Oh, stop denying it. You probably hate him too."

"I didn't turn around and abandon him, unlike you. I love him and will always love him. If you can immediately do this, then you never loved your brother." I spat.

He stood completely still as I stormed off. I sighed and threw the cleaner at the wall. I'm keeping his so called family away. All they do is hurt him abd I don't want that happening anymore.

I released a breath, running my hand through my hair, I walked upstairs. I poked my head into his room to see him still sleeping.

I stepped in and softly closed the door, I stayed quiet as I walked up to the bed. I leaned down and kissed him on the cheek.

"I love you, Alaricas." I whispered.

Seems like I'm the only person who actually does love him.

I hummed to myself as I made dinner, Alaricas was finally awake, but he refused to leave the room. I managed to get him to drink a glass of water and take small bites of toast, but other than that, he claimed he wasn't hungry.

Eduardus had left earlier, without uttering a damn word. I could care less though, I'm still angry at him. I know Alaricas did something horrible, but that doesn't mean abandon him. He left his younger brother alone, depressed, and unpredictable.

Unlike Eduardus, Alaricas apologized and knew what he did wrong. Eduardus didn't even go see him, to make sure he was okay. Maybe I just forgive too easily.

I shook my head, I trust him. Even after he threw me in a cell and hit me, I trust him. I being naive once again, but I know the real him. Now, I know he needs help. He even admitted to needing help, I just don't know what for.

He's not completely insane, but he's bad when he's beyond pissed. I pursed my lips, he could have killed me. He could have gotten the revenge that he wanted. Why didn't he?

I know for a fact that he loves me, but even I know love isn't always enough. I ran my hand through my hair and stared at the finished dinner. Maybe I'll ask him.

"Alaricas, please, I want to have dinner with you. I made your favorite, steak!" I beamed.

He raised an eyebrow, "That's your favorite."

"Shhhhhh, don't lie." I teased.

He half smiled before that frown came back. I released a breath and walked over to him. He tensed up as I wrapped my arms around him.

"What's bothering you?" I whispered.

"Nothing." He mumbled, instantly pulling himself away.

I sighed and grabbed his wrist, I pulled him back to the bed. He panicked a bit, but I quickly assured him that I wasn't going to hurt him.

"Please, tell me." I pleaded with him.

He shook his head, "I'm fine. Aren't we going to eat?"

I frowned at him, but eventually gave in and followed him downstairs. He was silent as he grabbed his plate and set it down. I was about to make mine, but he already made it for me. I smiled softly at him and planted a kiss on his lips.

"Promise me, you'll tell me when something is wrong?" I murmured.

He smiled, but I could tell it was forced. He didn't say anything, he just kissed me on the cheek and sat down.

Dinner was silent until I decided to ask him the one question that has been pestering me. I didn't have the guts to ask until we were doing dishes.

"Alaricas?" I spoke.

He looked at me with dull eyes, "Yeah?"

"Why didn't you kill me?"

He was silent for a second, "I couldn't."

"Why?"

"I love you too much."

Alaricas

She stared at me in shock, for the first time since the day I found out about my aunt, I smiled. I smiled a true smile. Her eyes immediately filled with happiness as she hugged me.

I hugged her tightly, as if this is the last time I'll ever see her. And it is. When we pulled away, I crushed my lips against her's. Needing to kiss her one last time.

"What was that for?" She gasped as we parted.

I gently stroked her cheek, "I just love you."

After the dishes were done, she got a phone call from Cain. I left her and walked into our room. I walked into the bathroom and closed the door.

I grabbed the silver razors and stared at them. I thought over everything, from my earliest memories to my recent ones.

"The only reason she's staying is because she pitties you. She doesn't love you. How can she ever love you after you threw her in that cell?"

"Accept the rejection."

"I, Jolene Flare, reject you, Alaricas Cain, as my mate and alpha."

"Bastard child."

"Monster."

"You don't deserve any love."

I clenched my jaw and blinked away the tears. I can't do this anymore. All I ever do is screw everyone's life up. My parents were happy with one child, but then I had to come along and ruin that. Jolene, she would have a better mate by now. Maybe they would be starting a family now. But the moon goddess cursed her with me.

I'm just a burden on everyone, even my pack. How can they love me as their alpha? I'm a mistake.

Even my own brother left, he was too disgusted by me. I don't blame him though, I'm a terrible person.

Tears ran down my cheeks, my whole life is a mistake. I'm not supposed to be here, so why not do everyone a favor?

I took the blade and sliced through my wrist. Blood immediately started flow from my wrist and to the ground. I then cut my other wrist, ignoring the stinging pain.

I started to feel light headed after a while, my chest felt insanely tight. I grabbed onto the wall, but it was useless. My legs gave out and I fell, I felt numb as I hit the cold ground.

I slowly closed my eyes, "I'm sorry, Jolene." I whispered before welcoming the darkness.