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The thirteen year old boy struggled to hold his screams, his wolf taking over his body as he went through his first shift. His father was on a vacation with some pack slut, leaving his son alone to deal with the shift. Tears flowed down his face, making his eyes burn as he held in all the shouts.

"Relax, my son, relax. Let the shift take over."

He looked up to see the spirit of his mother, smiling down at him. She gently stroked his cheek and ran her fingers through his black hair. She kissed him on the head as the boy fell asleep. When he woke up again she was gone and he had paws. He slowly stood up, getting used to his wolf's body. He walked over to the mirror and tilted his head. He was full black wolf and he was huge, he turned to the side to see three white markings that looked like claw marks on his ribs. It was the same on the other side as well. His eyes were an ocean blue, but they were dull with pain and sorrow.

He quietly walked out of the packhouse and sprinted through the forest, gaining speed as he dodged trees. He stopped when he heard a scream, looking over across the territory. He noticed an Alpha trying to protect his mate and child, his yellow eyes burning with rage. He then looked at the attacker and almost jumped over. His father's wolf was baring his teeth, satisfaction in his eyes as he knew he won.

A she-wolf was standing beside him, wagging her tail as she watched with her bright amber eyes. He swallowed, his heart hammering against his chest. He slowly backed away and ran back to the packhouse, horrified from what he saw. The houses were on fire and there were dead wolves all over. That is why his territory was silent, all the warriors were attacking the Oakwood pack.

He shifted back after his wolf explained it to him and ran up to his room. He closed his door and tried catching his breath. He closed his eyes, his father was a killer. A murder. He killed his father, his mate, and now another Alpha and his pack. He prayed to the moon goddess to help him get through this.

The next morning he was pulled from his bed and thrown onto the ground. He smacked his head on the marble floor, a female laughing above him. He glanced up to see his father smirking at him, his dark brown eyes sparkling with glee. The she-wolf beside him had a sick and twisted grin on her face, her green eyes bright with joy. He swallowed the bile that rose up in his throat, hatred for his father and his new "toy" forming deep within his heart.

He slowly stood up though, knowing he had no choice but to obey his father. The older Alpha grinned triumphantly as he clapped his hand on his son's shoulder. "Son, you are to go and kill three prisoners that I picked out for you." he said.

He followed his father outside, hating the idea. On their knees were three young werewolves, the youngest had to be his age. Only thirteen. A woman was crying and clutching her slightly large stomach and guilt filled him. She was pregnant. He shook his head.

"No." he growled.

The man turned and glared at him, "What?" he spat.

The boy looked at the man in the eye, "I am no longer going to listen to you! Eleven years I've put up with this abuse and I hate you for it! You murdered your own father, your mate and now innocent wolves! All you do is beat me and screw other pack sluts like this bitch here. You're a disgusting man who has no compassion!" he snarled.

"You don't have any compassion either, my boy!" the man barked.

The boy growled, his eyes turning black. "I know that, thanks to you. I don't know how to feel, I don't know how to love! All I know is how to deliver pain and I hate it! Mother wouldn't allow this. I don't see how she loved you! The mate bond blinded her to your horrible ways and it sickens me! You treated her like shit while she treated you like a king!"

The man grabbed his son's jaw, "Don't you dare continue." he ordered lowly.

The boy shoved him away, "I will continue! You call yourself an Alpha when all you really are is a man whore! That woman is pregnant! An innocent life is growing inside of her and you're just going to end it? Just like that? You call me a bastard child and you hate you. What about my brother, huh? What about him? You sent him away to another pack, because you didn't want to deal with two sons. Luckily for him he didn't grow up in a twisted family. I'm challenging you to a fight, coward. If you lose, you leave this pack forever. Along with that disgusting slut. If you win...I'll have to obey everything you say."

The man smiled, "Deal."

The boy nodded, determined to beat his father. After fighting him off so he could escape some of the beatings, he knew his father's ways. He trained with every warrior and watched his father train. His wolf howled in agreement, both of them wanting to end this bastard's life. He turned and ran into the neighborhood that the rest of the pack lives in. Searching for his closest friend who will be his future Beta when he wins.

Present time

~Vanessa~

I woke up to see Veloces putting his shirt on, his back muscles flexing as he slipped it onto him. I studied him, admiring his body. Even though he's an ass and abusive, he still has a hot body and face. I frowned, why is the hot guy crazy? I didn't move or even make a sound, not wanting to piss him off.

"I know you're awake."

I jumped a little at his sudden statement; he slowly turned and looked at me. His blue eyes were dull with exhaustion. He seemed unsure of what to say, so he finished buttoning up his shirt. He then ran his hand through his midnight black hair.

"Listen, I'm sorry for yesterday. I'm glad to see those claw marks healed...I shouldn't have...I'm just sorry, okay?" he blurted out, I could hear his heart hammering against his chest.

Fear was swimming in his eyes and it confused me, why was he afraid? I nodded, "It's fine, but know this. Every time you hit me, I will fight back. I'm an Alpha as well, even if we have two complete ways of thinking how Alphas should act. I will not be abused because you have issues. Got it?"

He nodded, "Just please stay away from me."

I was taken aback by his words, he looked at me. "I don't want to hurt you." he whispered before walking out of the room.

I slwoly sat up and watched the door close, he doesn't want to hurt me? Then why did he act the way he did? I groaned,this is way too frusterating for me. I collapsed onto the bed, staring at the ceiling. Suddenly someone pounced on me, making me shriek. I shoved the attacker off and was about to lunge at them when I saw Christine laughing on the floor.

"You should have seen your face!" she laughed.

I rolled my eyes, "Bitch. About time you got here! I thought you were coming yesterday afternoon?"

She sat up and hopped back onto the bed, "My grandma was coming so I asked Clayton if I could stay a little longer. I convinced him to meet the rest of my family and they loved him! So, how is life with Alpha Veloces?"

"Not great, he's abusive and it sucks." I grumbled.

She sighed, "Clayton told me about that. Something about having a horrible father."

"I'm not shocked, most of the messed up type learn it from someone. He has so much hatred that I don't think he even has room for love. I know I'll never be able to love him, he's a monster."

~Clayton~

"Hey, there you-

Veloces seemed like he was on the brink of tears, standing outside of his door. He closed his eyes and sighed, "He was right."

I shook my head, "Your father wasn't right about anything."

"Yeah." he scoffed. "She thinks I'm a monster and I am. I clawed her face, Clayton. I...I hurt her like he...like he hurt my mom."

Tears streamed down his face, "How am I supposed to get my own mate to love me? My last one attacked me and tried killing me. I-I can't...I can't open up to anyone. I don't know how."

I frowned, this really was tearing him apart. I ran my hand through my hair, "Let her teach you." was all I could say.

Vanessa should be able to, but I need her to realize he isn't that much of a bad guy. He's broken and he needs to learn to love again. His last mate was a crazy woman who wanted revenge for him kicking her mother out of the pack. I shook my head, this is the first time I've seen him cry in a very very long time.

"Come on man, why don't you go and...run for a bit? I'll watch over her." I suggested.

He nodded, "She won't think I'm cheating right? If I'm not in my office. I'm not like my father, I'm not going to-

"She won't. Now, go for a run and cool off."

He nodded and walked past me after mumbling a thank you. I sighed, for years I've tried fixing him and so has his brother. Maddox and I have no idea what to do, Holly tried once by getting him to go on a date with her cousin but he refused. I need Vanessa to know about his past, but it's not my place to tell her. Goddess, how I wish I could. She doesn't understand and until he tells her, she will never understand him.

I groaned, what in the world am I going to do? If he loses his second chance mate that'll be it. We won't only lose our Luna.

We'll lose our Alpha too.