Chapter 127 I'M SO SORRY

FIRA'S POV

"King Fire?" Janus walked towards me, encircled his arms on me, the gesture of ownership. "Thank you for coming, your majesty." He bowed to him.

Pyro nodded his head with a blank emotion on his face. "Just want to congratulate the two of you."

The ache ran throughout my chest as he gave us a small smile. It seemed that he was not affected.

Janus looked down at the broken pieces of glass. I bent down to pick it, but he grabbed my hand. "No, let them clean that. You need rest." He looked again at Pyro. "Excuse us." He bowed again at Pyro before guiding me towards our house.

I did not glance at him again. I was scared to know that he had no care for me anymore. I felt the choking in my heart that continued to tighten. Every step passing him was heavy. I felt that there was a part of me that would always be owned by him. Possibly, my heart.

When my feet stomped on the door, going inside the house. My body weakened. I felt my heart was breaking, torturing it, ripping as if would stay to me even if how many years would pass.

I tried not to look back. I really tried so hard until we arrived at our room, a husband and wife room. I could still not believe that I am now married. I would now spend my entire life with the man I did not live for the sake of order. It was difficult, but I was thinking that I did this to save everyone.

Janus was slowly removing my bridal gown. He was at my back while patting his lips with small kisses on my neck down to my shoulder. I tilted my head. I could feel the discomfort of the situation. I acted like I was not feeling good, massaging my forehead.

"Sorry, I'm not feeling well." I walked towards the bed and laid. I covered my body with a comforter.

He climbed on the bed, inserted his body on the comforter. I should get used to sleeping with him.

He is now my husband. Crap. I am missing Pyro so much.

My mind filled with his image, the way he stared at me had nothing. It was just casual as if we did not share love with each other.

Janus' hands traveled to my chest. I knew this would happen, but I hated his touch. It was not Pyro, I could not accept it. I was managing myself not to refuse.

"You're quiet, my Luna. Maybe you're adjusting to our relationship." He touched my belly, even that gesture I did not want him to do it. I just prohibited myself from removing his hand. "Are you surely pregnant or should we repeat making love to make a heir as soon as possible?"

I wanted to shake my head. I did not want to do that countless times. I felt dirty in my body even though it was just touching. However, we are husband and wife now. I should prepare for doing a job as a luna, a wife.

I faced him, observing his expression. I could see the overflowing happiness in his eyes even though he was not smiling.

I'm sorry, Janus. I hope you will accept me despite my lies.

We did not make love the night that I was acting to give my body. Eira prepared a potion that I should make him drink to remember something intimate that happened, but the truth was there was not the exact event. We kissed, he touched me, he was tempted to insert his manhood, but I used the potion to make him sleep. When the morning came, I acted as if we had s€x. That he owned me, the real thing was me cheating the memory in his mind. He would remember the unrealistic experience and that would be his belief.

"Can I sleep? My head." I touched it and acted like it was troubling me.

Janus gently massaged my head. "I'll call the doctor to che—"

"No, please. I'm good. I just need sleep."

He nodded his head, he was being sweet, stroking my hair. A big smile formed on his lips when he leaned his elbow, the bed dipped. He stared at my face which made me awkward. His next lines made me more uncomfortable.

"Is Pyro bothering you?"

I kept my mouth shut. I had no answer to his question, but I was scared to make him mad. I gulped my saliva, removed the obstacle in my throat and got ready to speak.

"No. I was just surprised to see him here."

I gasped an air as he pinched my n*pple. It was hurting me so bad. I thought he was used to doing that to every woman and he was unaware. Luckily, he saw my expression, that was why he removed his hand from me.

"Sorry."

"That's fine."

I felt embarrassed. He brought his hand to my belly and touched it in an up and down direction. "I'll summon the doctor tomorrow to check on the baby. I hope it's a boy."

I cleared my throat. Is it too obvious that I am pregnant? It was early for him to recognize the signs.

A sigh of relief came out from my mouth as I heard him snoring. He was exhausted from all the preparation. I could see through his features and heard it from his voice. He was sleeping tightly as his chest moved up and down.

The liquid gradually rolled on my cheek. Pyro popped into my head. Janus' hand was on my tummy and it gave me uncomparable pain.

It is the guilt that is poking into me with a sharp stab. It is Pyro's child, it would hurt if Janus knew about this. I will do all my best to be as good a wife as possible.

I gently touched the hand of Janus. It was hard, the hard work would be visible to its structure. The ring was shining.

Sorry…

I know no matter how many apology I said, it would not change the fact that I betrayed you for so many reasons.

I hope you understand me.

I'm so sorry.