Chapter 185 MISSING HER

PYRO’S POV

“The King and Queen of the Brave Wolves' Kingdom are coming!” The announcer’s voice echoed throughout the entire kingdom.

This would be a problem.

I held Ember in my lap and then went up. I rushed towards my chamber. “Seryo, hurry! Summon Cass to look for my daughter.” I ordered at Seryo.

“Copy, Your Majesty!” Seryo was standing outside my door. He rushed running towards the kitchen.

I brushed the hair of Ember and kissed her forehead. “Listen to Papa, do not… go out.”

“Why, Papa?” Her little voice was making my heart ache. Even though my father knew about her, there was no exact announcement. The presence of the Princess was still hiding. They must not see her. I had no idea why they went to us. Just an opinion of the conversation about the death of Princess Ziraya.

“Because you need to. When you grew up一”

“When you grow up, you’ll understand. I’m so sick of your statement, Papa. I want to know now!” She crossed her arms under her chest. I could see the small Hali. He was teaching him, look what her attitude was. It was like a combination of the kings.

I gazed at her with disbelief and incredulity in my expression. Like an old Princess who was having authority, she was acting like one.

“We should not reveal that I have a daughter. They’re the parents of Princess Ziraya. They would possibly create a war between our kingdoms.” I imitated her folded arms and gazed down at her. “Is that enough, Your Majesty?” I highlighted her title, every word.

“Dismissed.”

My eyes widened as she talked with the tone of authority. She climbed on the bed and laid on it while playing with her feet in the air. She was ridiculous.

Those Kings were teaching her well. Even with her father, she was behaving in a royal gesture.

I waited for Cass to come before I left her. While stepping in the hallway, I could hear the rumors from different location of the kingdom.

“I think King Fire was involved in the death of the Princess.”

“He has a mistress.”

“I think Ember is her daughter.”

“The Luna of the destroyed Red Moon Pack?”

“We should be careful about what word comes out in our mouths.”

“It was unbelievable.”

“King Fire has a good heart.”

“He has monsters like all of them.”

“Are we gonna die?”

In the midst of my walk, I had a lot of conversations that filled my ears. It was aching for my hearing, therefore I decided to stop and shut my eyes for a second. I found the things that I wanted to hear.

“My Mama will be home tomorrow, isn’t she? Is she okay? She’ll be better. If she's here, I’m gonna hug her.” When I reached the voice of my daughter, I calmed down. As if everything would be fine. Everything was okay.

My chest pumped recklessly as I bowed my head to the royals of the Brave Wolves’ Kingdom. I looked up at them. I was expecting to see anger in their faces, but my expectation was opposite.

The king tapped my shoulder. “It must be so hard for you. Please stay strong.”

They had no single idea that I was his daughter's murder. I felt guilty, sad, and hurt. Even though I killed her, she caused pain in my heart. I was with her those times that I could not handle myself because of Fira’s leaving. If only I had a choice, I would never do that.

“My guards are investigating the event. Don’t agonize. When we caught the killer, we’ll torture him.” He was telling it as if he would surely find it.

My eyes met my father. I was about to speak, but King Oswald stood up.”We’ll cooperate.”

“I appreciate it.” King Patricio’s emotion only showed a livid. It was dangerous.

The whole kingdom would face a great war if they started it.

“I can’t believe that my daughter has gone. We must take action” The sadness was visible in her face.

I averted my look as I felt her grief and sadness. If she were my mother, I might not like to see her damage. This was suffocating me/ It made me feel I should not kill her even if she broke the rules.

"You can trust us. My kingdom is always ready to assist you. I pray for Princess Ziraya's soul to rest in peace.” King Oswald bowed his head to them.

No, my father should not say that word. He was just making the fire between us stronger. I was not afraid for myself. I was scared for my daughter, Fira, and the people of the kingdom.

When they said their farewell to us, I could not look into their eyes. I felt like I betrayed my parents.

What if we change position? I was the one who was killed and King Oswald and my mother were the parents? It was heartbreaking. I could not imagine them crying. As they completely disappeared, my attention focused on my father.

“Father, can we just tell the truth?” The worry was obviously seen in my expression.

He tapped my back and said, “You didn’t do wrong. You saved the kingdom instead.”

“Yes, maybe…but they are not just royal. They’re parents, too. They lost their child and it must be sad for them.”

King Oswald Arealdo breathed out with the sympathy in the depths of his eyes. He comforted me by leaning his right hand on my shoulder.

“Sometimes royals are dealing with complications. It is a choice between a family and a throne.”

Those words kept repeating in my head repeatedly.

Can we just do both? The role of being a royal, and fulfilling a role in the family?

I must not burst out those questions and ask my father. I was the one who had the right to answer it.

I went back to Ember after a brief conversation with my father. I sat in the bed and stared at her face. Every night, I was gazing at her face until I fell asleep, but this time I could not take my sleep. The day was tiring. Day by day, I could feel the worsening of hell.

Fira, please give me a sign or anything that might help me get to your place. I might be exhausted, but that would disappear if I hold you again.

I grip the small hand of Ember and touch it to my cheek. “I’m sorry for taking so long for me to bring your mother back.”

“You’re too young to be stressed.” I caressed her forehead and brushed her hair in a smooth way. I gradually laid next to her and placed my arm in her small body. “I’m scared to fail you.”

She moved, positioning her body in a side way. Her hand touched my face as she was snoring low.

Fira, our child, is so cute. Thank you for giving her to me.

Even if it was just in my head. I was talking to her as if she was just by my side.

I’m missing her.