Life Confessions
I had asked her a question and she seemed to be thinking about it for a minute before answering.
“What? I don’t have much to tell about them other than they are cold arrogant prideful bastards who killed my loved ones.” Arya responded, making it seem like it was cool and didn’t affect her at all but she looked like she just wanted to run at this point and then continue talking.
I nodded, feeling her now. I once was like that….she has this rebellious attitude, I get it, but I kind of like her now, after hearing this fact. “So you're just like me. You hated your mate.”
She glared at me, there goes again saying that and it irritates her.
“No. Stop comparing yourself to me. I am different from you. My sufferings are different from yours. I have someone I wanted at my past place yet they killed him. They raided our rogue pack and killed my father in front of me. They took me as a prisoner and then one day I found out f*ck it, They are both my mate.
Good. Happy ending.” she said sarcastically, running out of breath.
Wow, her life was a rollercoaster. Except her life was full of downs.
I kind of feel guilty about being too pushy on her when she experienced all of that. I guess every one of us fights our own battles that others don’t know about.
I guess I was just too judgy on her.
As soon as she was finished talking about it, my eyes softened at her and I looked down, “I see. I am sorry. that must have been hard on you. I guess that explains your bad attitude.”
I cleared my throat. Now that she shared her own story, I should share mine too so we could relate with each other.
“Well, mine is different.” I suddenly started to tell her my story, “I was just at school when Alpha Kai came in as my physics teacher named Mr. Jones. One day I was attacked and he saved me. One day I found out that my aunt was killed and I was sold by my father. It turned our Aloha Kai bought me, having the intention of protecting me by his side. And the rest is history.”
“Wow. Cool. You have a prince charming. I was given two demons.” She said, then stiffened a bit.
“How old are you exactly?” She sounded quite alarmed….that is new…this is a new emotion, I guess there is some improvement, I guess I am handling this better than I expected.
She has this look that says, ‘Damn that Alpha Ace. He must have gotten her when she was still a teenager. It might have seemed normal in our world but in humans, I could recall that they have a term for someone like that. a pedophile.’ Like that…
I paused, not sure of my age now as I seem to have lost count of it.
I was 18 last year. I could remember waiting for it my whole life so I could live on my own and escape with my aunt from my evil stepmother…An image suddenly entered my mind…a memory I have been trying to bury for months now.
Bryce’s face suddenly popped up in my head and I shook my head. Past is past. I had already moved on from those people….
I cleared away my thoughts, getting a bit distracted as I realized Arya has been waiting for my answer. Right, she fired a question at me…
“I’m 19,” I replied.
She paused, looking at me with a strange expression, “Oh, I am one year older.”
Really? That is a shocker! I could never tell! She looks so young too!
I could read her mind now, her eyes eagerly looking at me now that she know we have something in common. Good. Good job, self. You are getting better at this!
She seemed to have this look that says, ‘I suddenly got curious about her. How she seems too calm and seems to experience everything despite being young.’
Well, at least, if I say so myself. That is only a guess.
“Does it bother you? Living here? I mean we’re all werewolves.”
I sighed at her question, a bit happy how she is the one initiating the conversation now. Our topic is this…and I have to think deeply about my answer.
“You already emphasized that enough last time. But yes, at first it did. I feel a bit used to it now.”
I gnawed on my teeth, deciding if I should ask this question that has been bugging me for a while now. I mean, I am curious about her rogue life!
Should I ask her? Would it be not proper to do so?
Or would this only bridge a gap between us and make my efforts in vain?
Torn by my choices, I inhaled and decided to breathe it out, “They say you were a rogue and I could see their expressions turning sour whenever they hear it. Tell me, Can you explain it to me? Is still don't understand your world. Is it that bad to be a rogue?”
“Then you're still not ready for this world,” She answered. “Being a rogue is equivalent to being a homeless criminal in your world. We do not have our pack because we were abandoned, cast off, and exiled from our past pack. We have to always hunt for food, and always starve some of us die out of starvation, especially in drought times. No one is our friend, everyone is our enemy. Humans hunt us to sell us to the black market, while our kind hunts us because they see us as a threat that exposes our identity to the humans.” She started to rant, my heart feeling heavy now as she continued. Her eyes seemed to be relieving her memories….
I did not know what to say or how to console her…the tension around the world suddenly got thicker and I feel like I couldn’t breathe. “That’s…bad,” I tried to make the mood lighter, but I knew I failed right then when I saw a tear had escaped from her eyes.
I instinctively reached out and wiped her tears from her cheeks but she’s been pushing my hand away and turned her head in the other direction.
“I could remember how your mate, Alpha Ace, had hunted us nonstop. If my father didn’t come to unite us all and had formed a truce for the past year, we might have been dusted now.”
I nodded, my expression changing. I didn’t know this..Ace didn’t tell me. And I feel so bad as if I was the one who hunted them. I didn’t know how hard rogues have to live just because they were abandoned by their pack.
“Arya! You’re called!”
Suddenly, our open forum slash life confession seemed to come to a halt as we heard one of the guards from Alpha Kai’s tent call on us.
She instantly excused herself from me and ran to his tent.
I watched her back from her and sighed. Wow. I didn’t expect that would happen.
I guess it’s nice to speak to females, no matter what our kind of nature is. Humans or werewolves, we’re just the same. Females have this rare divine energy that fills you up. And even though I never had any female friends back in the human world, Arya seemed to have slight;y filled that gap.
I am afraid I would get attached to her and just want to be her friend forever but I know that this too would soon end. Once Alpha Kai heals, they would return to their packhouse, while Ace would also take me back to his pack.
This thing that happened in these woods would just remain a memory. I do not know why but I felt my heart so heavy after knowing that.
I suddenly felt Ace’s presence behind me as he tried to cover my eyes.
I paused, knowing he never did this before. “Ace?”
“Ah, you to me there.” He said before removing his hands from covering my eyes. “I learned that from seeing the human children playing. To surprise their friends.”
