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ARTEMISIA

"I missed this," I mumbled.

"I-I..." Sin stuttered.

"You don't have to say anything, just hold me," I said.

I breathed out as his arms wrapped around me.

Emotion surged through me for having him so close. I couldn't remember the last time we had been in the same position.

He had refused to come closer to me and he had treated me like a plague.

Now, he was holding me in his arms! It was unbelievable.

I blinked several times and discreetly pinched my arms to see if I was dreaming, I winced at the sharp pain I felt.

"I'm sorry Artemisia." Sin said and I felt his body tremble.

I frowned, before gazing up at him.

His head and shoulder were drooped. I touched his jaw to tilt his head so I would stare into his eyes.

He had bags and dark circles underneath each eyelid. It was as if he had not been sleeping ever since we were having issues.

His lower lips trembled and it opened. I thought he was going to say something. But, nothing came out of it.

"I am sorry." He sobbed, clutching me to him tighter.

"Why are you apologizing? I don't understand."

"I wronged you." He said, sniffling.

His head was on my hair due to the difference in our height, I was reaching just his shoulder and I sensed all the tears that were pouring out of his eyes were there as well.

"I understand."

"You don't." Sin muttered. "I know you think I am cruel, but it isn't my doing."

"I am aware of that," I replied, rubbing his back.

Sin's eyes locked on mine, he shook his head a while later and glanced away.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. I wasn't myself and I won't promise not to do such again because each of my behaviour was affected by the moon's disappearance."

"Why didn't you say something about it sooner? I'll understand." I mumbled, staring into his eyes.

"Telling me what is going on with you is better than keeping me in the dark and doing what I don't know to me. I feel lost and like I made the wrong decision in staying with you."

Sin shook his head again and he choked out another sob. It was as if there was something he wasn't telling me.

I could see it in his eyes. Yet, I couldn't let him say it because he already looked broken and I didn't want to ruin the moment we were having.

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"So, did you go in with Emma?"

I slapped myself mentally as soon as the question came out. It wasn't what I wanted to ask after seeing him break down, but I couldn't help myself.

Also, my mouth tends to run by itself and I wanted to know where I stood in the relationship. I wanted to know if I was still his wife or maybe he was considering Emma now.

Sin stared at me. For a while, I thought he was going to ignore my question until he spoke up.

"I don't intend to choose any mate. You are mine forever and no woman can ever come in between us." He said.

"That isn't the question," I mumbled. "And stop entering into my head."

"I didn't. You said it out loud. I can't read your mind, it is like a heavy shield is blocking it."

"I thought you read everyone's mind."

"Yes, with the exception of my mom because she blocks me from doing so all the time, Laurent, he can block me at will as well if he wants and you. You always talk out loud. That is why you think I am going into your head."

"Oh!" I blushed. I wonder how many more things he had heard me say since my mind could barely keep things to itself.

"So, what is between you and Emma?" I asked again after a few seconds of silence.

"Nothing."

"Nothing?" I tilted my brows whilst staring at him. There was no way I could tell what he was thinking. Before he was becoming open to me, now it was as if his mind was a rigid wall. Unable to penetrate.

"I thought you were going to ask me about why I was cruel to you and not about your sister."

"I just want to know because I feel..."

"Betrayed." He finished.

I nodded.

"I didn't go in with your sister. I don't know what happened because my mind is a bit fuzzy but I am sure nothing happened. I'd never do anything with Emma when I had you."

My heart warmed at his words. He had me and that was what matters at the moment. I couldn't help it. I walked up to him and held him to me.

"I believe you," I whispered. I truly did. Although I had my doubts, I didn't believe he had done anything with Emma.

Emma was deceitful as Julie had said and she enjoyed seeing me in pain.

I had heard what they said earlier but it was better not to bring it up. Also, the conversation made me realize Sin was really clueless about whatever was going on.

"You do?"

"Of course," I said. I hoisted myself on the ball of my feet and touched my lips on his.

Sin was rigid and I thought he was going to shove me because I saw his eyes widen.

I took him not shoving me away as an encouragement and I continued to access his lips with mine.

I heard him groan and I pushed myself into him more.

"Artemisia." He groaned, gripping my neck.

"Kiss me back," I mumbled.

"I wouldn't be able to stop if I kiss you back and I need to apologise for all I have done before this." He said.

"Doesn't matter right now," I said.

Sin nodded and began to kiss me back.

Even though I believed he needed to apologise to me and take back all the cruel things he had said to me, I needed to feel his touch as well.

I needed to know if the connection between us was still intact.