15 - Amore Mio: Forbidden Desire

Luckily, the subject of Domenico's family was eaten after my interjection. I was hoping internally that they wouldn't make a new plan any time soon. The thought of losing Domenico and that at the hands of my family would be unbearable for me. Mierda, I hate the predicament I'm in right now. I would love to see Domenico now. As strange as it sounds, but with him I can switch off. It's just him and me. And a lot of sex.

My family is saying goodbye to Adrianas. We all stood in the foyer. My gaze wanders to Adri. It occurred to me that she still wanted to speak to me. "What did you want to talk to me about?" I whispered to her. First she looked at me confused, as if she didn't know what I was talking about, but then her facial expression changed and she whispered back: "Oh, it's already done," she dismissed with a smile. I raised an eyebrow in bewilderment. How is it settled? Strange. "Okay," I mumbled back and ran to Ángel, who also wanted to talk to me. "What did you want to talk to me about?" I asked the same thing again. "Oh, um...yeah doesn't matter now. Another time," he said. In earnest? First they all want to talk to me and then like this? Strange. Are all the López siblings like this today? "Okay, well then," I mumbled, spreading my arms out for a hug. "Bye," I mumbled as Ángel wrapped his arms around me. "Bye," he repeated my words. We broke up again and then I ran towards Adriana. Without warning, I wrapped my arms around her. "See you," I murmured into the crook of her neck. "Sí," she laughed, somewhat taken aback, which also made me laugh. "Bye," I grinned as we parted ways. "See you then," she smiled. We broke up again and then I ran towards Adriana. Without warning, I wrapped my arms around her. "See you," I murmured into the crook of her neck. "Sí," she laughed, somewhat taken aback, which also made me laugh. "Bye," I grinned as we parted ways. "See you then," she smiled. We broke up again and then I ran towards Adriana. Without warning, I wrapped my arms around her. "See you," I murmured into the crook of her neck. "Sí," she laughed, somewhat taken aback, which also made me laugh. "Bye," I grinned as we parted ways. "See you then," she smiled.

During the drive, my thoughts turned to the gala. Domenico will be there too. I don't know if that makes me happy or nervous. Does he know that I will be there too? I don't think so, otherwise he would have written about it with me. I took my eyes off the window pane, took my cell phone out of my pocket and wrote a message to Domenico.

Hey

I would like to be with him now, but I couldn't. I can hardly say that I sleep with Adriana. That would look suspicious. I closed my phone again and waited. After all, Domenico can't always answer directly. Or yes. What felt like two minutes later, my cell phone lit up again. I casually glanced to the left to make sure Alejandro wasn't looking at me. But he had to concentrate on the traffic anyway.

Hey

I snorted. Just as simple as me.

How are you? What are you doing? I would like to hear your voice, or even better. I'd love to be with you right now. Oh man, that's so much at once HAHA

I grinned as I sent the message. "Dios, you just met!" Alejandro laughed next to me. My eyes darted to him, but when I realized he meant Adriana, I relaxed again. "Got a problem, hermano?" I asked, cracking a grin. I was still a bit frightened. Mierda, I was scared. Then you realize how risky the whole shit is. Mierda.

"No," he replied casually, concentrating on the road. I looked back at my cell phone display to see if Domenico had already answered.

Shall we call?

I sighed. Can Ale go faster? "When are we home?" I asked Alejandro. "Right away, why?" he replied. "Just like that," I murmured, and started to answer.

I'm not home yet, we stayed with Adriana a little longer. But could I call you when I'm home?

I squinted to the left to check on the ale. Mierda, I think I'm getting paranoid. Or maybe I shouldn't text Domenico when Ale isn't even two meters away from me. My cell phone blinked. A message from Domenico. I had to grin.

This is how we do it, see you later tesoro.

I had to suppress a wide grin. I just loved it when he gave me Italian pet names. I closed my cell phone and didn't answer it anymore. We phoned right away. "And hermana," Ramón began, leaning between Ales and my seat. "Are you looking forward to the gala?" He asked curiously. "Are you happy?", I asked the counter question, because to be honest I didn't know if I was happy or not. "Sí, I'm sure it'll be fun," he replied. "Joar, I'm happy too," I just mumbled. "When is it exactly?" I wanted to know. "Next week Tuesday," Alejandro replied. I just nodded and turned my head back to the windshield. So in four days.

When I got home, I immediately stormed up to my room. "But someone is in a hurry," I only heard Ramón laugh weakly. Oh yes, I did. In my room, I closed the door and locked it. Better safe than sorry. I ran into my adjoining bathroom and quickly climbed into the shower. Before that I put a towel on the dresser next to the shower. I carefully turned on the warm water, but recoiled because it was still cold. Again and again I held my hand in the water until it finally had a comfortable temperature. In slow steps I stood under the warm water, which was pattering on my body. I tilted my head back slightly and ran my hands over my face and then through my hair. I stayed in this position for a moment and thought about everything. The last five weeks. All the moments with Domenico, but also all the tears. Tears I shed because of my guilty conscience. I can't say if it would have been better if I had finished with Domenico and myself at the beginning. Then I wouldn't have him by my side. Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? All the moments with Domenico, but also all the tears. Tears I shed because of my guilty conscience. I can't say if it would have been better if I had finished with Domenico and myself at the beginning. Then I wouldn't have him by my side. Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? All the moments with Domenico, but also all the tears. Tears I shed because of my guilty conscience. I can't say if it would have been better if I had finished with Domenico and myself at the beginning. Then I wouldn't have him by my side. Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? that I had shed because of my guilty conscience. I can't say if it would have been better if I had finished with Domenico and myself at the beginning. Then I wouldn't have him by my side. Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? that I had shed because of my bad conscience. I can't say if it would have been better if I had finished with Domenico and myself at the beginning. Then I wouldn't have him by my side. Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? Now I couldn't deny it anymore. I fell head over heels in love with Domenico. I love him. The thought actually brought tears to my eyes. Not because of the guilty conscience towards my family, no. But for the reason that the relationship I have with Domenico will probably always remain secret. I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me? I could never tell my family that. I probably wouldn't even dare to do that. Would they hate me?

It was too late. too late to end it I couldn't take it. I'd rather live with my guilty conscience. I sighed desperately. "If only it were that easy," I snorted, and began lathering my body. If only it were that easy.

As I got out of the shower, I wrapped the towel around my body. Then I ran to my room to get my cell phone. I immediately called Domenico on FaceTime. I wanted to see him. While it was tooting, I ran into my closet to look for a sleep shirt and fresh underwear. "Hey," Domenico smiled exhaustedly at the camera. "Long day?" I replied and put my phone aside for a moment to put on my shirt and panties. "You could say that," he laughed. Fully dressed, I picked up my phone again and walked back to the bathroom with my towel. "And how was the food?" Domenico wanted to know. I had to laugh when I thought about the thing with Valentín again. "It was very nice and above all funny", I began, putting my phone on the dresser over which a mirror hangs. I quickly got my face cream, and then continued. "Adriana and I made fun of Valentín because he looked like a cow had licked his hair. And then everyone laughed at him. I kind of felt sorry for him then," I laughed and started to apply lotion to my face. "And suddenly you were the topic of conversation," I slipped out. I widened my eyes when I realized what I just said. Fuck!!!