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~Lou Wilson~

He didn't even let me explain. Maybe I'll learn to love him someday, but no, he completely freaked out. Why can't he listen to me to the end. The fact that I'm still not clear about my feelings towards him is nothing special, especially after he's rejected me so many times.

Oh gods, what have I done? I have ruined everything. I should have kept it to myself and surely sooner or later I should have been able to honestly return his words...

I ran through the corridors of the pack house, crying loudly. From the straight robe in the entrance area, I grabbed a coat so as not to walk around naked.

Members of the pack who came towards me looked at me in surprise, but said nothing. All except Sebastian.

"Lou? What happened?" he tried to stop me, but I just ran up the next flight of stairs and soon disappeared behind the thick wooden door of my room.

At that moment I just wanted to be alone.

I closed my eyes and leaned my forehead against the door. More sobs escaped me. Why does that hurt so much? I was the one who didn't return his feelings, so why did I feel worse than he did?

Who came up with all this mate nonsense? I used to think it would become my own fairy tale, but now? Now it's just hell.

After a few breaths of just trying to get my breathing back under control, I finally rolled over to my bed.

Only now did I see all this. Something that immediately made more tears flow.

My whole room was decorated. There were many vases of red roses scattered throughout the room. Strings of lights hung on the walls and partly on the flowers, giving everything a romantic touch. And the best thing at that moment was the huge package of chocolates that was lying on my bed.

I walked towards it with a veiled look and then also recognized a small red piece of paper that was stuck to the chocolate.

'I hope you can forgive me my stupid mistake very soon. With love, Ari'

I had just calmed down at least a bit when I started sobbing at the top of my lungs again.

The better question now is, how can he ever forgive me? I promised him just a few days ago not to do to him what he did to me, and yet I broke my promise. I'm such a hypocrite.

How can I ever forgive myself?

Maybe he was right and things just don't fit between us.

Suddenly there was a knock, which made me look expectantly towards the door. Without waiting for me to say anything, she opened up.

Sebastian came in sad.

"Sebastian, please, I just need some time to myself right now." I tried, but he just gave me a pitying smile. I really didn't feel like talking about it right now, and certainly not with him. Zara would do me much more useful...

"I'm sorry Lou, but I have no choice."

No choice? What does he mean?

"What me-are you?" The hiccups from crying kept interrupting my speech.

"Please pack your things and then I will drive you to the pack boundary!" he explained with an apologetic look.

Panic spread through me immediately. Why the pack limit? What did that mean?

"I'm really sorry Lou, but I can't help it. It's an order from the Alpha."

That made my heart skip a beat. Arian caused this? Arian bonded me out of his pack? Everyone knows what being exposed to the pack boundary did to you. It made you an outcast, a rogue...

My mouth opened in shock. How was I supposed to survive out there alone? Without a pack, without family, without friends. How? Why Ariane?

"Please don't t-th." My whole body was shaking. Arian was giving me my worst ever worst nightmare. It was so bad I never even thought it was going to happen to me.

No, it's Arian's fault. He's my worst nightmare.

"No-no you can't do that...Bit-ite." I sobbed and begged. Thousands of tears escaped my weary eyes. I can't do this any longer. Please...

"Lou please pack your things now. If you're not gone by the time he comes back, he'll kill you himself."

Those words finished me off. A mate who killed his own soulmate. I don't think that's often happened in the history of wolves.

I almost collapsed on the floor. How could I go on any longer? But Sebastian held my arm.

"I-I don't have anything." I sobbed and looked around my newly decorated room. None of this I could take with me. The only thing I did was change into a pair of simple sweatpants and Arian's t-shirt, since I was still wrapped in the long raincoat. When I finally finished changing, I stepped out of the bathroom and said, "I don't need any more clothes."

I know enough about misfits to know that most of the time they walk as wolves. Some even until they completely forgot their human side. They ran wild...

"Well then come on." Sebastian offered me his arm but I didn't take it, instead my eyes landed on the bed with the chocolate box again.

Chocolate helps with lovesickness, doesn't it?

My eyes were still tearing and my chest was tightening, but this box of chocolates, even though it's from Arian, looked really tempting.

"Wait!" I walked over to the bed and tucked the chocolate under my arm.

Chocolate makes you happy, chocolate makes you happy, chocolate...

Even chocolate probably couldn't help here. But you didn't have to let them go bad.

We had just arrived at a black Mercedes EQA when suddenly someone stopped us.

"Sebastian what's going on? Lou isn't going to leave us again, is he?"

Caught, the named looked at his mate, who had widened her brown eyes in shock. Goose bumps also spread over my body when I think about what is to come.

How can Arian do this to me just because I haven't returned his feelings yet. But after the action? Will I still be able to love him at all?

Until now, I only knew Anna Summers by sight and hearing. We were never properly introduced. But there was the blond-haired now and scanned my weeping face.

I couldn't take that pitying look and turned to the car. Through the reflection in the pane of glass I could now see my own face. I just looked awful.

Will I get yellow eyes in my wolf form now too? That's the typical characteristic of us outcasts. But actually, the yellow eyes are the result of a terrible act that you have committed. But I haven't done anything. But maybe breaking the heart of the alpha counts...

"I must drive them to the pack boundary, orders from Arian." the Beta sighed.

"WHAT? NO! YOU CAN'T DO THAT?!" Anna got louder and started arguing with Sebastian.

It was sweet of her to do so much for me, even though we haven't really had much to do with each other. But she couldn't do much about it either.

They discussed for a while, but the beta couldn't do anything. He was under an order from the Alpha. Eventually he climbed into the driver's seat and turned his head towards me before starting the engine.

"Okay, listen, Anna and I have an idea of ​​where to take you and where I can skillfully evade the Alpha's orders. You are our Luna. An innocent Luna that we will protect with our lives."

Tears almost came to my eyes again. What were they up to? I thought an Alpha's command could only be resisted by another Alpha or a Luna.

Sebastian drove off into the now dark forest. The forest already scared me when I thought about roaming through these forests alone forever, but I had to trust Sebastian and Anna. They wouldn't allow that.

You promised me...