ALL I CARE ABOUT IS THAT YOU'RE MINE
CHAPTER SIXTY
ALL I CARE ABOUT IS THAT YOU’RE MINE
Could I really undo the past? I’m the one who started all this bullshit system along
with the other elites of this school, but now it’s so deeply engraved in
everyone. It’s beyond my control and she was right. I’m not a good person. I
should just accept that fact and stop looking for some sort of redemption.
Nothing was going to change. I don’t have the right to want this system I’ve put
in place to stop. I got up from the floor where I was left crouching, facing
the locker. I had to hurry to class.
I turned around only to find Kieran staring at me from the doorway of a classroom.
I jump.
“Dude, what happened to making some noise?” I clutch the front of my shirt.
He doesn’t reply but keeps watching me like I’m some interesting art on dislay.
“You saw what happened here. Didn’t you?” I ask.
“Mhmm” He nods in agreement.
“Are you here to gloat and insult me further? You don’t need to. I already feel like shit. You can be happy now. You win. You were right. I’m a vile person and everyone thinks the same.”
“Is that so?”
“Yes, and I’ll admit it. I regret tempering with that email simply because I was jealous and throwing that pen drive of yours out. So just leave me alone. Okay? You’ve already punished me enough. I don’t deserve to be happy with someone who can decide to get back at me and take revenge anytime so whatever you want to do to me, just do it. After all, I’m just your plaything. Everyone in school says that. You heard the girl just say it. You can hurt me all you want, but please leave my feelings out of it. ”
“Does that mean you have feelings for me?” Kieran asked, clearly choosing to ignore everything else I said. I was hoping he’d at least say I was not just his plaything and I meant more to him. But it turns out I have too high expectations and I’m also clearly stupid.
“You know what, it doesn’t even matter if I do or don’t Just forget it.” I say as I turn my back on him and proceed to walk out but he grabs my arm, stopping me from leaving and turning me around.
“What did I say about tuning your back on me?”
“This is not the time, Kieran….”
“That’s not what I said.” He says as his other hand touches my hair gently, He was subtly threatening to go beast mode and pull my hair if I don’t answer him.
“You said it makes me the perfect prey and I’d only bring out the predator in you if I do.” I say. I cannot believe the audacity of Kieran sometimes.
“See, not that wasn’t too hard. Good girl.” He says and lets my hair go but not completing leaving me alone as his hands still held onto my arm.
“I need to go to class.”
“You did the right thing by standing up for her, and I stopped thinking you were a vile person a long while ago. I’ve forgiven you for all those things that happened. ”
“You’re just saying all that. I never apologized so why would you forgive me.?” I ask. Kieran was usually brutally honest with me so I don’t understand this lie. Surely it wasn’t to make me feel better. Kieran doesn’t make you feel better he demands it from you.
“You’ve been through enough to atone. Besides it seems I no longer want to hurt you. My desire for revenge seems to have been dulled. I’ve found something more interesting which I want more than revenge.” He eyes me hungrily.
“If you’ve truly let it go then why are you still keeping my brother and I and limiting contact with my parents.”
“Because that’s what you want. And you want me to make the decision for you. To be with me without having to make that choice yourself because you’re a coward. I’m helping you do that. Be grateful I understand you so much”
“Can you hear yourself right now? You’re being delusional. You’re seriously sick in the head if you honestly believe that.” I pull away from him and he holds me tightly for a few seconds before letting me go. Showing me that he’s in full control no matter how hard I try to grab the reins.
“You know I’m right deep down.”
“But you’re not.”
“So if I let you go, you’d chose me and want to be with me?”
“Kieran you can’t force someone to choose you. They have to choose you from their own free will.” I explained.
“Well, I can’t wait for you so you’ll just have to choose me whilst I keep you with me and fuck your brains out for the mean time. I’ve been preparing you for it this past few weeks.”
“Kieran!” I say as I blush, looking around to make sure no one overhead Kieran promising me Sex.
“Right now I only want you. That’s all.”
“As your plaything?”
“I don’t do labels.”
“I understand. Then let’s not continue this path because I can’t keep being some toy for you to use and discard whenever you become bored.”
“You really are adorable. It’s so funny how you think I’ll become bored of you, Aaliyah Waters. It doesn’t matter if you think that though because not continuing is not an option.You should have known that before you kissed me back and came all over me.”
“Kieran, stop talking like that in school.” I cover his mouth and look around.
His hands circle my waist as he holds me closer to him in a lover’s embrace.
“So I can talk like that at home?” He asks and his breath fans my open palm and tingles spread around me and warm my core up. I take a step back but he doesn’t let go. I was breaking off whatever we had and this position of being in his arms was definitely not helping.
“Do you feel that?” He asks as he strokes my cheek.
“You can’t ignore the pull that is between us. You can’t stop it.”
“I can if I’m only going to be your plaything.”
“I said I don’t do labels. All I care about is that you’re mine.”
“I’m yours?”
“Yes, you’re mine.”
“What does that even mean?”
“It means you belong to me in every sense of the word. Your mind, your body, your soul, your laughter, smiles, cries, orgasms, and every single thing about you. Everything is mine. And I’m willing do anything for you, except to let you go.”
“Kieran….” I breathe as my heart flutters at his words.
“So it doesn’t matter if you’ve not chosen me. You’d be mine whilst you take the slower path to finally choosing me. That’s the level of patience, space and time I’m willing to give you to come around and accept that we are here to stay and you’re not going anywhere.”
“Kieran, that’s not time or space. You have to let me go so I can decide for myself that I want you.”
“No.” he deadpans.
“Kieran….”
“What part about you’re mine and not going anywhere don’t you understand?"
“Kieran. I can’t belong to someone. I’m not property.”
“Then what term can I use to express the fact that I’ll not hesitate to take another life for you?” He asks with all seriousness.
I raise my hands to cover his lips again, rising on my tip toes because of his height.
“Shhhh… someone might over hear us.” Kieran really had no sense of fear. If we got caught, even our families wouldn’t be able to completely save us and redeem our names, and yet he was being so nonchalant about it.
“If you keep touching my mouth like this, don’t blame me for my next actions.” He looks down at me wickedly.
“You’re impossible, Kieran Castles. I should have….”
He grabs my hand that is covering his lips and yank them away before his lips capture mine in a mind blowing, and earth shattering kiss.
Yep, we are definitely not breaking up.
