CHAPTER 8

My entire body feels as tight as a rubber band, and I have the feeling that Ford is intent on making it snap. I can see it in his eyes… The calculation, the challenge, and deep within those green irises, I clearly see lust.

What does he see when he looks at me?

Can he tell how nervous I am to be sitting here?

Over the last week working at The Sinful Night Club, I have learned something incredibly important.

Sex is not what I thought it was.

I’ve had sex. Lots of it. Most of it has been very good, while some of it has been mediocre.

None of it, though, has been like what happens inside The Sinful Night Club. As I’ve watched couples, triples, and hell, even groups of people with so many arms and legs sticking out I had no clue how many were participating, I realized my sex life has been utterly lacking. I’ve never screamed like some of the women I’ve seen here, and I’ve never had a man take hours with me just to see how many orgasms he could wring out. That’s right… I’ve seen some men spend hours on just one woman, working her over until she was nothing but a pile of goo.

The question remains, however…do I really have the guts to give this a try?

I’m quite sure the answer to is “no” as long as Ford is sitting beside me. While he may be the epitome of my fantasy man, he intimidates the shit out of me. I could never relax around him.

If I can get Ford to leave, I resolve I will at least make an effort to meet someone who has potential for a hook up. That will be my promise to myself so this trip tonight will not have been in vain.

“So what do you want?” Ford asks, and his words cause me to jump in my seat so that my wine sloshes over the edge.

I don’t bother looking at him as I sit my glass down and use the bar napkin to wipe the wetness from my fingers. But I answer his question with all the vagueness I can muster, “I have no clue what you’re talking about.”

Ford chuckles. He laughs in a way that pretty much says he thinks I’m full of shit.

He doesn’t pull any punches and tells me just how it is. “Thalia, you’re here because you want to get fucked like you’ve never been fucked before. Don’t be embarrassed about it. Accept the fact that there is not one person in this building who will judge you for participating in and fulfilling your desires.”

I stare at him, contemplating what he just said. His words are the perfect thing I need to hear and yet they do nothing to alleviate my nervousness. “This is so far out of the box for me; I’m really not sure I can do this.”

“Want my help?” Ford asks casually as he picks up his glass of scotch and takes a sip.

His offer doesn’t surprise me. Ford is an extremely sexual creature. While I know there are women in here a million times more beautiful and sexy than I am, he’s a guy and he’s not going to pass up an easy fuck.

Still, there’s no way I can accept. I shake my head and politely say, “No offense, but I don’t think it’s a good idea to bang my boss.”

Ford’s head falls back, and he lets out a peel of rich, sensual laughter. When he looks at me, his eyes are filled with mirth and his teeth flash at me with amusement.

“God, you’re fucking adorable,” Ford says with a grin. “You have no idea how much I would enjoy defiling you.”

I know he’s half kidding me, but I decide to play along with his joking demeanor.

I cock an eyebrow at him and with a skeptical voice, I ask, “Defile me? That sounds very criminal.”

The amusement slides right off Ford’s face and instead his eyes burn with something I can’t identify as he looks at me. “Oh, Thalia, the things I want to do to you are very criminal, but there is no doubt in my mind you would enjoy them.”

A full-body shudder runs through me, and I’m completely mortified Ford witnesses it. I know he recognizes it as my body betraying me, essentially telling him I very much like the idea of him doing criminal things to me.

Reaching his hand out, Ford takes the stem of my wineglass in between his thumb and forefinger and slides it toward me. “How about you sip at your wine and let me show you a few things as we sit here at the bar?”

I pick up my glass and take a gulp. After setting my glass down, I ask for clarification. “And just how would you show me?”

Ford gives a nod of his head toward the glassed rooms. “I’ll sit here with you, and we’ll watch the various shows that are going to happen. As you know, there will be some kinky-ass shit. If you have any questions, you can ask me. If you have any interest in trying something, I volunteer. If I’m not your cup of tea, I’ll find someone to take you in one of those rooms and give you your fantasy. But for now, we’ll just sit here and watch.”

I stare at Ford, weighing my options. I know that this is a very dangerous game I could be entering. I’ve already seen enough inside The Sinful Night Club to know my body is going to react. I know that I’m going to want things. Worse yet, I’m sitting next to a man who seems more like a God than a human being and who has offered to give me what I want.

I should leave.

I should get up, politely decline Ford’s offer, and leave.

Instead, I spin my barstool so my back is to the bar and I’m facing the glass rooms. Without even looking at Ford, I mutter, “Okay. We’ll watch for a while, and you can answer any questions I have.”

That’s the most I’m willing to commit to, although even that sounds hollow to me.

Ford swivels his stool so he’s also facing outward. The move causes his knee to brush against my bare thigh and goosebumps to break out.

My eyes scan across the four glassed-in rooms that are visible from where I sit. All have action going on inside. Before I can even focus on anyone in particular, Ford leans toward me, draping his arm on the bar behind my back.

“The third room,” he says quietly.

My gaze slides there, and my breath catches as I take in the beauty of what is happening inside.

It might be every woman’s number-one fantasy, or at the very least in the top three.

The room itself is stark and bare. The walls are a cream color. There is a raised platform in the center upon which a mattress draped in lavender silk sheets rests. During the nights I’ve worked in The Lustrous, I’ve noticed this room is usually used by a couple or threesome who enjoy performing publicly.

The three bodies on the mattress are certainly putting on a show. A woman with pale blonde hair is sandwiched between two men. They are both tall, well muscled, and equally well endowed. Their hands and mouths are everywhere, and even the two men share a deep kiss.

“What do you think of that?” Ford asks, his voice sounding like pure sex.

I don’t even think to lie. “What woman wouldn’t love that?”

Ford chuckles, but then his voice turns even silkier. “I expect the woman who doesn’t love cock in her ass wouldn’t. Do you like anal?”

My spine tingles with the prospect of what Ford is asking me, but I have to answer him honestly. I turn my face so he can look in my eyes and know I’m hiding nothing. “I don’t know if I like it or not.”

Ford nods in understanding before turning to look back at the room. I let my eyes follow as we watch the threesome for a few silent moments as they kiss, stroke, suck, and bite at each other.

One of the men rolls to his back, taking the woman with him until she’s straddling right over his dick. She reaches her hand down and guides him inside. His hands go to her breasts as she starts undulating on top of him. I cross one of my legs over the other, which doesn’t give me any relief from the throbbing between my legs. If anything, I can feel my clit pulsing in cadence with my heartbeat and my breathing starts to become shallow because I know what’s coming next.

The other man crawls behind the woman, places a hand at the back of her neck, and pushes her forward until she has to balance herself with her hands on the other man’s chest.

I don’t know whether to be appalled or turned on by the crudity of it, but the man simply spits in his hand, wipes it on the end of his dick, and then drives it into the woman’s ass. My own ass puckers at the thought of that invasion, which I know could not have felt good. The woman, however, immediately starts moaning as she lets both men do the work. Holding her body still, the man underneath her thrusts his hips upward while the other pounds her ass from behind.

“That’s not how it would be your first time,” Ford says. I’m too mortified to look at him as we discuss the potential of me engaging in anal sex. He continues, “That woman has a lot of experience, and she likes it rough and painful. Not many can take a cock like that.”

I watch the unbelievably dirty and erotic threesome, getting more turned on because it’s clear they are enjoying themselves immensely. At the same time, while it could be my utmost fantasy to be with two men, the thought of taking a dick back there scares the living crap out of me.

I’m probably going to regret this, but I can’t help but ask, “How did she work up to that?”

Ford’s hand comes to my jaw, which causes me to jerk in surprise. He turns my face so I have to look at him, and he chastises me. “Be honest, Thalia. You’re not asking how she worked up to it. You’re wanting to know how you could work up to it.”

I try to shake my head in denial, but his grip on my jaw is firm.

“Just ask me, Thalia.” His voice rumbles with command. “I’ll tell you whatever you want to know. I’ll show you whatever you want to know.”

His hand falls away from my jaw, but I am powerless to look away from him. His jade eyes promise me so many things that my head spins. My entire body feels electrified, and I swear pure adrenaline is flowing through my veins.

I lick my lips. In a hoarse voice, I ask, “How would I work up to something like that?”

I swear flames leap in Ford’s eyes, and he gives me a wicked smile. He answers me by standing up from the stool so fast to position his body in front of me that I gasp in surprise.

His large hands go to my legs. When he puts pressure on them, they uncross and spread apart. He steps in closer, placing his hands on the bar behind me, effectively caging me in.

Ford leans his face toward mine until his mouth is just inches away and I can feel his warm breath… smell the smoky peat of his scotch.

“I’d take my time with you,” Ford whispers with such seductive promise that my legs start to close involuntarily so I can squeeze against the ache between them. Instead, the insides of my thighs hit Ford’s legs and practically tremble when he continues, “I’d loosen you up first with a really good orgasm… Probably with my mouth between your legs. Then I’d fuck you slowly from behind, while using my fingers in your ass. Or, if I felt like you could take it, I’d use a plug. Regardless, I would work that tight little ring of muscle very gently so that by the time I slid my cock in your ass, you’d be begging for it.”

I can’t say anything. I can’t even move because I’m afraid it would be to get down on my hands and knees and beg Ford to do what he just said. Instead, I let my breath out in a slow gust and stare right back into his heated eyes.

He gives me a slow smile as he drops one hand from the bar to come to rest on my thigh. His hand slides up slowly, going right under my skirt until his thumb grazes the edge of my panties. He does this without ever taking his eyes from mine.

“But you’re not ready for that yet,” Ford murmurs as his thumb does nothing but stroke me. “I’d start off with something a little bit different.”

My heart is pounding so hard I feel like it’s going to explode out of my chest. My fear should be ruling my actions as I would be best served to hightail it out of here. But I’m too far gone.

“How would you start off with me?” I’m slightly embarrassed over how young, naïve, and even needy my voice sounds.

Ford’s hand goes still on my leg, his eyes boring into mine as he assesses the legitimacy of my request. “Do you want me to tell you or show you?”

This is bad.

Really, really bad.

I want him to show me. Absolutely I want it, and I want it so much it physically hurts. There’s an ache between my legs that I know only action will satisfy. I am so freaking attracted to this man in a way I’ve never been attracted to anything. Not even chocolate. He makes me feel beautiful and desirable, and I know he will be the best sex of my life.

I just know it.

But he’s also an ass, and he’s my boss, and he’s just a means to an end for me. He owns a freaking sex club, for God’s sake, and the list of negatives could go on and on. This is a man unlike any other. I’ve never dealt with someone who has his magnetism, confidence, or command. I’ve never wanted to just roll over and submit to someone so much. I’m afraid if I do that, I’ll lose myself forever.

This is so bad.

But I’ve made my decision.

With a hard swallow and without ever letting my eyes waver from his, I tell him, “I want you to show me.”

I do not mistake it, and it amazes me, but Ford’s expression is one of relief. It’s fleeting, and his eyes immediately darken. With one hand still under my skirt and resting on my hip, the other comes up to wrap around the back of my neck. He gives me a squeeze—perhaps of warning, maybe of reassurance—and says, “Are you sure?”

No. I’m totally not sure.

“Yes,” I whisper. “I’m sure.”

Again, relief morphs into lust as he pulls his hands away from me. “Let’s go to my office. We need to set a few ground rules first.”

I’m not sure what I was expecting, but it most definitely wasn’t a talk to discuss rules. I thought perhaps he’d just take me into one of the rooms. But I can’t ponder that because Ford has my hand in his and is pulling me off the stool to drag me out of The Lustrous.