Chapter 12 I WANT TO

"I did not say that." He came even closer. I can already smell his breath. Her scent covered my nose. My favorite view was looking at his eyes, his seductive eyes!

My knee was weak but I did not want this situation to end. I am glad, I felt the joy in my heart. Jumping in happiness.

"Answer me, then. Be my boyfriend," I said while smiling with my puppy eyes. I felt like I was being immature to act like this, but I did not mind.

He just stared at my face as if memorizing every part of it.

I could not help myself to stay staring at his lips. That was the first lip I kissed and I still feel the taste of it. It was like I wanted to repeat it even if it was stealing over and over again.

What is in this man? I am bewitched by his features.

Even though I do not know him very well yet, it seems like I am ready to give the world to him. The intensity of my love for no reason, I do not understand.

"Do you not want me?" Despite my disdain, that is what came out of my mouth. He still did not speak. He was just looking at me but I could see his repeated swallowing.

He bit his lip so hard that he looked down at my lip. I grinned ear by ear. Maybe he wants to kiss me too? Hmm? Am I right?

"Kiss me if you want," I said playfully so he frowned again.

Maybe you are the only one who likes it, Anmela? Do not do that again.

"You are different," he said as you could see the amazement.

Am I weird? Why am I an alien? Where am I different?

"You stole my first kiss," he said rudely.

First kiss? Does that mean we are the same?

Of course, he did not have a girlfriend either, but he did not even kiss anyone? How handsome is he?

I stopped myself from smiling so I just bit my lip.

Is that true? Me? And just me?

He caressed my heart as if I was going to cry because of being so touched by his words. I was lucky to know I was his first kiss.

Why does he let me do what I can think of? I guess he is too kind?

I looked at his lips again. I was really attracted to them. It tells me ‘kiss me.’

Seriously! What Anmela, had her lips come to life? My imagination is cruel!

"Please do not be angry if I repeat." I quickly touched her cheek and kissed her lip.

I am going to be crazy!

In my whole life, he was the only man who gave me thrill and joy.

I was surprised because he responded to my kiss. He put more pressure on me. Suddenly he lifted me up, wrapped my thighs around his waist, and sat me down on the table. I was shocked but I did not think about what was going on. His lips were delicious. I just wish that we stay like this forever. I never mind what will happen tomorrow, I do not care what people think of me. All I just want is him. I need him in my life, he is like oxygen, the reason why I breathe.

Sometimes, I felt nothing exciting in my life, boring. Study hard, no fun. Even though Alem asked me to join her at the bar, I refused. I am not the kind of girl.

I drowned in that kiss of his. I even wrapped my hand around his neck. I could feel the thrill and the heat on my cheek. I can not believe this is happening.

His lips moved around my upper and lower lips. I could feel the taste of it and I could taste the sweetness that I do not know the reason if he ate anything sweet or just because of the kiss. I almost ran out of breath because of what we were doing. His hand was just on my waist not moving there. I have different feelings as if something is digging in my stomach. He kissed me softly and carefully but I could not stop him so I gently bit it but he did not object. The kiss deepened but before that could happen, he let go of me. I was still embarrassed to chase that but I was stunned at what I did.

When we stopped we were both gasping for breath. My cheeks warmed as he just stared at me. I can not predict what he was thinking. He always had no emotions.

All I knew was that I was having so much fun. I could not quite imagine my first love would be like this. If I get hurt, it is okay, the important thing now is that I really love him but I will not forget my studies.

That is a promise! For the family. I will never abandon my family because they are also my treasure, nothing would compare to how they take care of me.

She barely folded my skirt without looking at me. I admired him for being caring to me. I smiled at how he reacted. This guy is the guy that I want to marry and I will pursue it no matter what the hardships would be.

I stood up suddenly and looked at his handsome face.

"Why..." I asked a few questions. "Why did you do that?" I can feel my heart beating.

I can not believe this happened. I thought he did not like me but what he did seemed to have hope in my heart that he might feel the same way about me.

If I wish for his love today, tomorrow, or every day it is okay. Hoping was still the reason why I kept chasing him. I just do not understand why he responds if he does not really like me. Isn't he?

He always kicked me out away from him, he would almost curse me. It is hard to understand him, maybe now he is okay, but later he will shout at me again. Saying to leave him alone.

Does he like me? Do I have any hope? A sigh came out of my mouth.

Laurent, you are unpredictable.

"Answer me. Why did you do that?"

He stared at my face before speaking.

"Because I want to."