Chapter 8 FEELINGS GETTING CLEAR

'Stick to me, then.'

That was repeated in my brain. What does he mean? Did he usually say that for all the girls? If that is so, he does not really mean that. But Alem that he does not want to have a girlfriend? This guy is unpredictable. He made sure that what he thinks is for him only. Hard to predict.

The whole day was just a usual day. Taking the class, experimenting, grouping and talking to our classmates. I went home but I did not even understand the lessons because of the thought of what Laurent meant. Those words were a big deal to me. I should not worry about that, but it messed up my mind. I felt like I was going to go crazy. Why is he not understandable?

"Are you still floating? What happened? I'm wondering why he pulled you? Where did you go? Does he say he wants you? He loves you? You are beautiful? What? Tell me a story! I would love to hear any single details!" Alem asked one question after another but I did not answer even one.

“It is nothing, but… I am confused, I do not know how I feel.”

"Why?" She was obviously curious. She wanted to spell it out immediately.

"Because when she went there with Seilen, the nurse at the clinic, my chest felt like it was aching, I could not understand. I felt very upset. Is that normal? Do I have a disease?"

Her eyes widened and she even covered his mouth and then hit me on the shoulder.

"Girl, you are in love, so in love!"

"Huh?"

I thought I only liked him, but this was so fast. I am in love. What is the difference of like and love anyway?

"That is the feeling of being in love, Anm. You are so innocent. You are starting to go crazy with men!" She is being blabby again. She was so happy, bursting out laughing. As if that was the first time, I mean that was my first time being in love and my best friend is being a fool.

I turned to my side when I felt someone walk by.

"What did that man do to you?" Ardent was annoyed. His wrinkled forehead was visible.

"Nothing." I looked down.

“Are you sure?”

“Yeah. I am sure. We just talked.”

He nodded at me, surrendering. "Do you like anything?" He is being a care man again.

"Maybe, Anm likes h. I mean she loves him,"Alem revealed that to Ardent. He also needs to know. Ardent's facial expression suddenly changed.There something in his expression. I can see the pain in his eyes. Why would he hurt?

"Do you love that man? How? When? Why? Do you know him? Anmela, you just know him for a day. It does not mean that you are in love."

To his series of questions I could not answer him because I also did not know the answer.

I ran when I saw that Laurent had left the clinic and was probably on his way home.

"See you tomorrow, Alem, Ardent, Bye!" I shouted as I ran towards Laurent. I do not want to answer Ardent’s questions. It would be a good choice to escape because I really do not know how to answer it.

"Mr. Baider." I shouted again but he ignored me. He walked straight. It was like he is deaf or something or maybe he was acting not to hear me. I followed him, we reached the parking lot but he did not even glance at me.

"Laurent, I love you!" I shouted at him, that was the reason why he stopped from opening the car. He froze while looking nowhere.

I do not have a job today. I am off so I want to go with him. I quickly opened the door of his car and then went inside. He is still shocked so he does not speak.

"What are you doing?" He frowned as he sat in the driver's seat.

"I will go with you. A gentle reminder I do not have money, huh? I would not send you on a date, I just want to be with you. This is great, right? Being with the man I love even though it is a simple ride," I said enthusiastically.

"You go with another man," he said disgustedly.

Who is the man? Ardent?

I smiled with my small eyes. "Are you jealous?” I choked his waist to annoy him. “Do not worry you are the only one, the reason why it is beating." I pointed to my chest.

"Tsk.” He averted his gaze.

He did not start the car so I was bored. He just held the steering wheel and looked ahead.

"Aren't we leaving yet, Baby boy?"

He looked at me and frowned again. I quickly touched his cheek and kissed his forehead.

"Why is your forehead always wrinkled?" I asked despite his shock. Maybe he just needs a little care from the people who love him. As the time got longer, I started to get used to his attitude. He has a reason why he is always like that. I believe I will know that in the future. Maybe when the time comes that he trusts me already or when he falls in love with me. I would love to see that in my existence in this world. I can spend my entire life with him. It is my decision and I promise to myself that I will do what I wish for. He will be my first and last love. That is nice to hear. I was just thinking about him, I am already thrilled. I am happy and it seems like there is a touching sensation in my heart that gives me remarkable feelings that would last forever. That is my love.

I looked at Laurent, why did he just sit there and looked handsome? He did not do anything, but it seems he was touching my heart. What a powerful man who makes my heart trump.

“Where are we going? Let us go. I am willing to be with you anywhere!”

He did not answer me and just started the car. I watched him excitedly.