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Alexander's POV

I wasn't really planning to be here but then Dom told me that she has arrived. It didn't even took a minute to come back here from my home.

I wanted to see her. Not like i haven't seen her when she first time stepped out from that house and went for a dinner. When she was shopping or when she went to the collage.

I was fucking stalking her. Just because I wanted to see her.

I didn't disturb her when she was meeting my parents and her sister. I wasn't ready for her to leave which she will do now after seeing me.

She was under thought that i am not here while i was watching her whole day. Specially when she was dancing. I loved it.

But she has lost her shine, that cheeky smile and messy behavior. All because of me.

This one month was hell without her, sleepless nights and unbearable pain in my heart.

Today i couldn't stop myself from reaching her. Just one time and I'll leave her alone.

Her eyes zeroed on me while i hold her so she won't fall back. She has lost weight, looking weak and pale.

My spies in that house was informing me everything about her. I know she wasn't eating well.

I tried to look for a hate in her beautiful eyes but i couldn't. It was just anger. I know she can't hate me. She is upset with me right now but i will make it all right.

No matter what i need to do, I'll get her back.

Because there is no Alex without Bella.

Before she push me away, i retrieved my hand back from her body. I don't want her to think that i am trying to force into her life again.

This time I'll take it gently, the way she wants.

She looked at me surprised, may be she wasn't expecting me to leave her. Of course she wasn't because she is not used to this Alex.

"How are you?"

I asked and noticed her throat bobbing up and down.

"F_Fine"

She mumbled looking away from me.

No you are not fine. She is treating me like a stranger. Talking like she doesn't know me.

I want my Bella back who used to jump on body like a monkey.

Suddenly both of us were short of words. But i have to say something, she still haven't take it out on me. She needs to do that.

"I miss you"

I gulped down the fucking lump in my throat. Fuck! I don't want to cry now. I have done that enough.

"Is that why you were following me."

She snapped at me.

Yes, that's it babe... Throw it out. When you throw your anger out then only i can make space for apology.

"I wanted to apologies..."

I kept my voice calm.

Her beautiful eyes went glossy as they glared at me.

"Apology for what... You should be happy that finally it's gone. You wanted to kill it anyway..."

She spat angrily.

"I never wanted it to happen like this... I wanted to convince you..."

I replied.

"Convince what?"

She pushed me back angrily.

"Convince to kill my own baby..."

Angry tears started flowing from her eyes.

"I hate you for whatever happened..."

She pushed me again.

"Because of you i lost my baby..."

Her tiny fists collided with my chest again.

"If you could have agreed everything would have been different... We would have got married, we would have our own baby but no you were stuck with your own plan..."

She pushed me again.

"You Ruined both of us..."

She hit me again.

"I hate you... I hate you..."

I grabbed her wrists and caged her against the wall.

"I hate you"

She cried.

"Shhh..."

I placed my forehead on hers. Her angry shivers traveled to my body.

"I know you are angry and you are right..."

She released a shaky breath but didn't push me away. Her delicate fists are on my chest. Her angry and my guilty breathing mingled together. She was still, not resisting my touch or closeness.

I know she missed my touch too just like i missed hers.

No matter how many times she says that she hates me, i know she can't. She needs me exactly the way i need her.

She closed her eyes refusing to look into my eyes. She must be scared to loose her anger. I won't blame her, i also melt when i look into her beautiful eyes.

"I know you are angry but you have to listen to me, My love..."

My nose tip touched hers.

"I am sorry for not understanding you, for wanting to hurt our baby... But i changed my mind before asking you to come to the restaurant... I wanted to tell you that nothing matters more than your happiness..."

Her tears fell on my wrists

"That if you want this baby then it's okay, i am ready for it too... I will try to become the best father in this world because you will the best mother..."

More tears slipped down.

"I wanted to show you the room i prepared for our baby... I wasn't aware of the gender but i wanted beautiful baby girl just like you... With beautiful blonde curls and mesmerizing blue eyes... So i asked them to make it pink... I wanted to show you this... If you don't believe me, that room is still there, i didn't let anyone touch it..."

Her silent tears turned into sobs.

"I agree i shouldn't have hide Valentino's truth from you but i was going to tell you... I was just waiting for the right time..."

I wiped her wet cheeks. She haven't opened her eyes yet.

"I was scared to loose you... I thought you will leave me once you find out that he is your real father... Because I know i was wrong to kidnap you. I wanted to earn you before giving you the information... I was selfish but only for your love..."

My own tears fell on her hands which she is keeping on my chest.

"I never wanted to control your life... I was trying to protect you... I used to restrict your movements because of Russians... I messed with them and now they will target me... I don't want any harm to you... It was for your safety not because i wanted to control your life... I don't want to become like my father or brother... You know it, i have told you about this..."

"Leave me"

She mumbled sniffing her tears back.

I don't want to leave her. I need her warm touch.

But i have too, i want to gain her trust back not anger.

I stepped back from her, my legs felt heavy while doing that.

"One chance, Bella..."

I looked at her with pleading eyes.

"I can't"

She breathed out.

"I can't forget it so easily..."

"Take your time..."

I replied.