Remorse

<" Daddy..daddy..save me

daddy…please save me daddy.. " a pitiful childish voice cried desperately, calling out to a man who had his cold back turned to him , the baby continued rolling down the hill until it little body was covered in blood and he stops breathing.>

Xavier rolled to the edge of his bed, in an attempt to escape, only for him to close his eyes again and there it was again this time not just one but three of them.

< He walked into a very familiar greenhouse, still in his office dress with a broad smile on his handsome face, he took long strides towards a young woman who was busy planting seeds, he was effortlessly trying not to draw her attention so that he could achieve his plan, but a childish giggle disrupt his plans, he turned to the two adorable kids with a finger on his lips signaling them to play along but the baby girl just innocently had to call out with her two short hands in the air, she called out to him " daa..daa! '' On hearing her voice Clara looked back with a broad smile that could probably put the sun to shame, " you're back! " He nodded positively to her with a smile before turning to glaring at the innocent girl who still had her hands up.

Swallowing the urge to curse in front of his kids,he started walking to her,on seeing that her father was coming for her the little girl's cheerful giggle increased to the extent that she was even jumping on her seat.

Her innocent action made the man forget who he was for a second until he realized that with each step he takes towards them the further the distance between them increase, he became restless as he started chasing after them but no matter how fast he ran he just couldn't close the gap between them, he could only look on in horror as bloody tears drop down his family face and right before his eyes they started disappearing like a mist.

He let out a sharp wail, calling out for them, but his cries all fell on nothingness until he couldn't see her beautiful smile again.

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Xavier jolted up from his bed drenched in cold sweat,he subconsciously turned to the empty space behind him, running his hand on it, the coldness brought him back to reality.

Feeling dejected he got out of bed, picked up his wind breaker, absentmindedly put it on before walking out of his room .

He mindlessly unlocked the next room that was already transformed into an infant room.

He stood there just staring blankly at the white and pink painted room filled to the brim with all kinds of baby toys, closing the door behind him he took slow steps towards the huge silver cradle close to a bed, subconsciously he ran his long fingers across the iron bars, before he started playing with the little hand drum, gradually he fall deep into his thoughts.

A little girl was firmly holding his finger with her tiny ones as she innocently pulled it towards her toothless mouth, he chuckled gently trying to retract his fingers from her firm grip afraid to make her cry but all of a sudden the child vanished, there by dragging him into the cold arms of reality.

<If only he was aware he would have...If…>

" No, I was wrong from the start, maybe things wouldn't have ended up like this,if I hadn't appeared in her life, maybe I shouldn't have married her in the first place and dragged her into all this. She was supposed to be a gentle flower, made to be cherished and nurtured to health, but I heartlessly turned her into a thorny rose, I brought her to ruin, I ruined her, it's all my fault I'm her culprit.

She was pregnant with my child but all I did was to hurt her, I broke her.

And when I found out she firmly told me it was someone else's child without a second thought I stupidly believed her and asked her to abort my own child, she did so much just to keep our child.

Now when I finally found out the truth but the heavens played a big joke on me, I had the power yet I allowed such a tiny life slip out of my hands, I couldn't save my own child or maybe I could have,if she didn't lie to me, why did she have to lie to me?.Why ?!!.>

Xavier couldn't sleep, after his nightmare, guilt kept pricking his heart.

Although it's already past 3am, he slowly walked out into the cold night hoping to get some relief but his legs took him to the greenhouse which has now been renovated to Glory's taste and have a lot of flower seeds planted in it soil, he walked further into the greenhouse but his step came to a sudden halt and turned back on his heals as quick as possible. There it was as vivid as if it only happened yesterday, he could see himself pinning her on that cold floor, her skin harshly poke by flower thorns he knew he should stop, her pitiful pale face told him she was hurting but he didn't pay any attention to her.

He wanted so badly to get all these memories out of his head but they just kept on playing with him. Everything in his mansion reminds him of her. She was a delicate flower vase but he mercilessly crushed her with his own hands breaking her into tiny pieces that could never be mend.

The magnificent white piano , has now been moved to an artificial lake at the back of the garden, once again Xavier found himself walking towards something that bares her memories , he slowly walked in the bank and there sat a beautiful woman with her godly ten fingers dancing on the keys of that piano she was smiling at him making him obsessed with every ounce of her, but then a loud

bang!!!! Shook the earth

She smashed those fingers because of him, she lost her dream because of him and she refused to have a dream again even when she longed to play pianos again she didn't dare take a step towards it all because of him.

Sorrowful tone started playing in the quiet night .

Inside her room Glory was looking down at the man through her window with a clenched fist and greedy eyes but the lonely man was to occupied with his thoughts to notice those heated gaze , setting in front of the piano with his fingers dancing on the piano keys as if the weight of the world is now placed upon him.

"I'm sorry Xavier, I know you are giving up on your happiness just to make me happy." he is doing all this for her and she couldn't help him in anyway, since she has chosen to walk this path she won't dare to go back because it is too early for regret, she will have to be the villain in their lives.

Ding

ding,

The ringing of a phone made her turn her attention away from him, she frowned slightly at the caller ID before tapping the answer icon.

" Good morning."

" What's so good about the morning ?"I can see that you are becoming soft, but you should know better. If he becomes suspicious of you , he won't be the lovely man you are seeing now! So you better pull your act together and don't make the master worry. "

In a dark room a man could be seen backing the door

" The boss can appear at any time and you must have a good explanation to table before him. If not , you should know the consequences , even though the boss is nice to you now he could still change. "

After saying those words the other person disconnects the call.

" I'm sorry Xavier, but I can't leave, I will have to take advantage of your love , now nobody can stop me from being with him , I've done stupid things just to be here."

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Luckily Alex health was quick to respond to the treatments he has been receiving, but the doctor said he's still not fit to be discharged because of the amount of blood coat gathered in his waist. He still needs medical professionals around him, until his injury is healed.

Clara decided to stay with him at the hospital, she has been doing her best to nurture him back to health since the past.

" Clara came over. " Alex called her with a mischievous grin, in his hand is a plate of chicken soup his mom prepared for him to help him recover .

" What is it this time Alex? Clara asks, pouting her lips with a frown.

" Open your mouth let me feed you, I can't finish all this, if not for my accident, I would have been the one taking care of you, see how weak and exhausted you look "

"Well thanks for thinking about me but I'm not eating that , mother prepared it mainly for your quick recovery, what if in the process of me eating it she walks in ,what am I going to say to her?." Clara has always been uncomfortable around madam Qin, especially with the way the elderly woman's gaze is always glued to her, whenever she catches her eating the foods she prepared for her son .

" If that's the case, you don't have to be worried, I will keep an eye at the door , I heard chicken soup is very good in nourishing a woman's health "

" Now you are sounding like a gynecologist instead of the phycologist that you are." Clara joked before opening her mouth to collect the food, she was worried that he would really stand up to guard the door.

" You know I'm actually an expert in cardiology."Alex informed her with a small smile.

" Yeah, but stupid me had to find out from a crazy woman," she answered with a sad smile.

" Huh?, what do you mean?." Alex raised his brows with a frown.

" When Jan kidnapped me she mentioned something like that." She replied dryly trying not to recall that eventful day, but Alex could only heave a relieved sigh, he slowly raised his hand and ran it through her jet black hair.

< For the first time he was grateful for his choice of career back then, if he hadn't paid more attention to gynecology while he was studying cardiology back then, there was no way he would have discovered that weak heartbeat of her child who was struggling to stay with her . He smiled at her knowing that the doctor wasn't buffing when he called her a strong woman, for indeed she was.

" Alex, I just wish that you will practice cardiology from now on. " Clara advised cupping his large palm with her small ones ,she never knew he was that good with a woman's health, because of this she will forever be grateful to him, if not for him she would have really lost her baby and maybe she would have given up on life too.

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" You all are a bunch of idiots!, when did my men became this useless?, how did you lose her to him?" A man thundered with his fist tightly clenched.

" But master, you asked us to be gentle with her, not to mention how tight the security around her is, Xavier has done everything in his power to keep her safe. but I promise we will keep trying to get her. " A young man said respectfully with his head bowed.

" Do your best to get her?!, I never knew you were this brainless!, just lie low for now. She should be two months gone by now, we should let her play out there for another five months then I will personally go bring my family, hump, let's see what Xavier Reynold will become of Xavier Reynold by then."

"That bastard couldn't even take care of his pregnant wife and just how will I allow such a person to take care of mine?I will surely show him his place." With a smug smile he finally turned to face his subordinate

"You may leave. " his lips curved up into a sly smile but because of the darkness his handsome face couldn't be seen.