Chapter 80

I want to throw everything I see.

“Kier! Kier!” I angirly shouted his name.

“Wife, I’m here,” I heard him say in a deep voice.

I welcomed him with my slap; he was shocked.

“You are a liar!” I shouted at him.

“When are you lying to me?! Until when you’re planning to say to me?!”

“What do you mean?” He asks, confused.

I slap his face again.

I came back to the coffee shop earlier and am thankful that the priest was there, and I’m glad that I could find a picture of my wedding with that damn fake priest.

That priest told me everything that he is not registered, and someone hired him; his work is as a host at wedding events.

Everything is a slap to me.

My blur darkened when I saw the wedding picture frame hanging in the centre of the living room; that wedding picture is a size like a painting.

I went near the wedding picture and tore it.

“Wife! What the fuck?! Calm down!” Kier shouted when he saw what I did to our wedding picture.

I face him angrily, clenching my fist, “you fucking asshole! you are a big lie in my life!” I growled.

“What, I lied to? What did I do? can you fucking tell me straight to the point? I don’t understand what you want to say! And please calm down!”

“Why are you hurting me, huh? Why are you doing this to me? You are an asshole! You don’t want to send your mom to jail because she knows the truth; you’re scared that I will know everything! Our marriage is fake and not registered! I know everything!” I shouted at him.

Kier was shocked.

“Who told you about it?” he said weakly, “wife, I can explain.”

He tried to hold my hand, but I slapped him.

“You are a fucking asshole! Dickhead! Stupid! You make me believe a lie for fucking five years!”

I am so mad.

“And you’re with your crazy mother! No wonder that’s why your mom links you to different women!”

That’s why Kier looks nervous when his mom came into our house earlier morning, and they talk in private.

“Wife, please. Calm down; let’s talk about it! I will explain, please,” he beg.

“I didn’t mean to. I was blind by my greedy back then! And I didn’t tell you about it because I know you’ll be mad. I want to marry you because I love you, I want to start a new life with you. To build a family, and the mother of my children. I want to correct my mistake.”

“You are a fucking liar. Manipulator!” I shouted ahim.

“Why are you doing this to me? Huh? Why you’re always hurting me?! I accept your son with your woman, I accept everyhting but this fake marriage is what I couldnt accept!”

Our nighbors is hearing me because I'm yelling.

Being mad is healthy because you’ll know what is your boundry.

“I’m sorry,” he said. That all he know what to say?

“What else are you hiding from me?! Huh! What else are you hiding from me except we’re not married! And you have a son with your woman! What else!”

I punch his chest and he let me, he recieve my wrath.

Kier kneel in front of me and hug me feet while he’s crying. I remove his hands on me, I don’t him to touch me

“You made me look fool!”

I push him and he sat on the ground.

“I accept your bastards! I accept that your mother doesnt like me! I fucking accept everything! Why did you return this kind of pain to me? I didnt ask anything why are you hurting me! Damn it! Kier I was damn tired! I’m tired to fight, im tired to fight for this marriage. I'm so tired. Im trying and pushing myself to fight and hold tighter but youre giving me a reason not to do it!”

“Please, don’t give up,” he said while crying.

I look at him while he is crying, he look fragile and weak..

“Fuck you! Youa are a liar!” I couldnt stop myself from saying bad words to hom, he deserve it afterall.

“Can you say anything? You couldn say anything because what I said were true! You are a big liar and a manipulator!”

He deserve my wrath.

“Please, give me a chance. I’ll prove to you that I have changed and won’t repeat my mistakes.”

He beg while crying hard.

“Don't touch me!” I stopped him when he was about to touch me. He followed me, and remained in his place.

I want to feel sorry for him but my anger towards him is more dominant.

I saw Vane standing at the door looking at the two of us.

“I won’t clean my name. Everything you know is true. I made a mistake. Hundreds of mistakes. Please, give me another chance to correct all of it.”

I didn't listen to him.

“I regret meeting you! I hope you're not the only one I met! I hope our paths never cross! I regret our marriage! Yes, I was happy with you, but if I'm going to feel this pain in the end, I hope I never felt such joy with you!"

I'm having trouble breathing because of my crying.

He crushes me. He made me look stupid. I thought he was the one for me, I thought he couldn't hurt me, I thought he was different from everyone else. It's all just a misconception.

I loved him because he made me feel everything. Kier made me his priority, he always coaxed me, and he didn't go along with my anger.

He understands me, he never gets tired of understanding me. He never left me, he accompanied me in all phases of my life. But, why is this?

What joy he made me feel before, now he makes me feel so much pain.

I made him my world.

I have trust issues, but for him I forced myself to trust him, because I told myself he was different from everyone else.

It's not good to insist on something that shouldn't be.

"Our marriage may be fake, but my love for you is legit. I love you more than my life," he said while looking into my eyes.

I just cried more because of what he said.

"I know you don't want to believe me anymore because of my lies. I will never fake my love for you.”

What he said made my chest tighten.

“If you love me, why do you have to hurt me like this? Your love is too painful," I said to him weakly.

He just bowed. He continued to cry in front of me while kneeling.

He doesn't seem to be the brave, arrogant and bad-tempered Kier he used to be. He is very weak now in front of me.

"True love doesn't hurt," I reminded him.

I looked in Vane's direction, and he looked at me sadly.

"Your love is not true, because if it was true, you wouldn't hurt me like this. You wouldn't hurt me, and lie to me."

"I never lie to you," his voice was raspy.

"Isn't it really? You're a man, you're caught and you dare to lie," I scolded him.

I left him while he is kneeling nd crying.

I went with Vane, and we went in the bar. I want to drink until dawn, to ease the pain. Why love needs to be hurt?

It’s been days since Im going hom drunk. Kier takes care of me when I come home drunk, but he doesn't say anything.

He's just quiet.

I feel that he wants to talk to me, but he is holding himself back. He doesn't like us fighting.

One night I was disturbed by the cryI heard.

I was about to move when I realized that Kier was hugging me tightly while he was crying.

"I'm sorry for everything I did; I regret all of it," he said crying.

“I didn’t mean to hurt you. I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want to tell you that our marriage is fake because I know it’ll hurt you. I want us to get married not to cover the mistakes I made, but to marry you for real, to start a new life with you. I love you so much.”

I pretended to be asleep while listening to what he was saying.

“I’m scared to lose you. It’s okay that you’re treating me coldly as long as you won’t leave me. Please don’t leave me,” he beg while crying, he is not aware that he wake me up.