Chapter 55

He is being rude. From the first time we met until now, his habit has not changed. I sadly closed the door of his room.

I'll just cook an egg and a hotdog. Kienzo's hotdog.

I cooked for a while and called him. I made him a cup of coffee as he requested. We just ate quietly, and he didn't look at me.

It's good that he didn't complain that I cooked like that. That's all the stock in the fridge.

When I finished washing the dishes, I returned to the sofa, and he returned to his room. I've been on the couch for a few minutes and restless.

I got my phone and scrolled TikToktok. I stared at tTikToktok for a long time until someone gave me an idea. I smiled; when it didn't work for you, Kiki, I don't know.

I got up to go to her room. I hope Kiki is still awake.

I open his room door, and he is awake.

"Kienzo," I called him, but he didn't seem to hear me. This man is really deaf.

“Kienzo!” I raised my voice, but he still didn't look at me. I could hear my head at the door.

I sighed and rubbed my face, and decided to approach him. It’s now or never. If it failed, at least I tried. I don’t want to regret it without knowing I didn’t try.

“Why are you still here? Didn’t I tell you to leave?” He asked coldly.

That hurts. Ouchy to love like this.

“Kienzo, it's so hurt. You know I love you so much, so that’s why you are treating me like this. ” My introduction, and I tried my best to look sad and about to cry.

He stilled and maintained his blank face.

I felt like he was getting colder. It was as if his body was covered in ice.

“You know I will forgive you no matter what you do to me. Even if you hurt me many times, I will forgive you multiple times. ” What he is doing is really hurting me.

Loving makes someone stupid.

He’s my downfall.

“You don’t know that I already tore my heart into a million pieces,” I pointed at my heart part.

“I am having to what you are doing to me and on how you treat me.” I force myself to cry in front of him.

“It is really hurt, and I can’t someone on how hurt I am.” A tear fell in my one eye

His eyes look hurt, and he looks guilty.

"Kienzo, I can't take it anymore."

No, I can handle it. I can take it for Kiki. Even if I no longer understand him I will still understand him.

“What do you mean?” I can’t read his mind.

“Is that final? Don’t you want me anymore?” I asked him sadly.

“Because if you ask me and let me choose, I don’t want to get out of your life. Even if you are cold and don’t know how to smile. Even though you don’t have a sense of humor and are serious in life, I still want to be with you. I only want you for the rest of my life and no one.” I said sincerely. I am not confessing.

I waited for him to talk, but I didn’t hear anything.

He really doesn't care anymore. He is so cold and hard tame.

“From the very start, I already know,” I smiled at him.“thank you for everything you did for me.” I turn back and wait for him to call me.

I step and my steps are heavy. It’s easier to break it right now than make it too long.

I wanted him to stop me, but he didn’t. It hurts, I already left his room but he is not showing up and calling my anime.

The Kienzo I knew was a kind-hearted and soft man. He’s the calm man I’ve, met, but now he is more harmful than the tiger when he is shouting at me.

I’m still wondering if I should leave him for real but I can’t do it. Our souls are connected from each other.

I decided to return and force him and change his mind. And I was about to open the door when it suddenly opened, and I saw him. I hugged him the moment that I saw him.

“Kienzo, please forgive. I will be loyal and won’t make the same mistake again,” I beg. If he wants to kneel to him, I will do it.

I am desperate. I will do everything that Kiki wants.

“Sorry, please forgive me.” I apologize again.

He released from the hug and looked me in the eyes.

“Claire.” He said my name slowly and softly. He closes his eyes profoundly and opens them.

“I’m sorry. Don’t leave.” He said sadly.

My eyes widened, and my mouth hung open.

“Kienzo, let’s fix this.”I keep on begging.

He nods at me, and why are his eyes sad?

I change the topic when I remember something.

“By the way, who’s Nemo?”

“Let’s not talk about her.” He pulled me inside the room. I just wanna who he was at the party.

“Are we okay now?” I asked when he leaned on the bed and opened the TV.

He asked me to be near him.

“I didn’t mean to push you to leave me, but why it’s easy for you to leave? I just want you to appease me.”

“You scare me.” I pouted.

“If you shout, it is like I am in a far place,” I complain.

“I just want you to coax me, but it seems you are numb.”He murmured like a child.

“Are you still mad?” He dipped his head on my neck and inhaled my sweat.

I smiled wide when he didn’t answer me. His ears turn into the color red.

His habit is to open the Tv and doing something else.

He changes the channel annoyingly.

“Does it need to be told? don't you have feelings!?” He mocked me.

“Don’t you know how to feel? You had a boyfriend, but you are acting like a numb and dumb.” He said harshly while creasing his eyebrow.

“You are too rude.” I pouted.

“Why isn’t true?” he challenges me.

I glared at him.

“Why are you so harsh? Did Enzo hit your brain? That’s why you are always grumpy and not in the mood?” I asked curiously.

“You have a grouchy attitude,” I said to him and looked at the Tv screen. We are watching international news. I found another attitude of him.

He frowned. He doesn’t fit to be a woman.

Kiki will always be in his red days, and if he becomes a woman, I feel pity for his boyfriend because he is always grumpy.

I came closer to him and hugged him from his waist.

I miss Kiki so much; he smells like jade-strong yet manly perfume. Even though it’s already night, he sprays perfume. Is he seducing me?

“Do you wanna sleep?” He said slowly and gently while he caressed my hair.

I think of my answer. I wonder if I feel sleepy or not.

“Hug me.” I tightened my hug to him, saying that like a kid.

“I miss you, Kiki,” I said sincerely.

He sighed and lay me on his chest while my head was in his arms.

“I’m sorry.” He said sincerely while lovingly looking into my eyes.

“Don’t do it again because it hurts me.” He is hard to coax.

“I was supposed to be acted like that because I am the woman here, but it turned around. We haven’t done to Nemo and Poques.”

I glared at him when I remembered the two.

“What?” He looks defensive.

“I know that stare,” he said nervously.

I made my face looks more serious.

“Who is Nemo? And who is Poques?” I face him.

He averted his eyes. He was hiding something from me, and earlier, when I asked Nemo, he changed the subject. Why doesn't he want us to talk about her if he's not hiding anything from me?

“Who’s Nemo?” I asked again.

I couldn’t help but lean on the bed's headboard and strike him. He was annoying.

“I don’t know who’s Nemo. What the hell is that name?!” He asked, frustrated.

I want to laugh, but I'm more disgusted.

"Nemo is the one with you at the party!" I told him annoyingly. That name sounds disgusting, and maybe her parents don’t love her. That’s why they name it to her.

He frowned.

“What happened to your cheeks?” He held my cheeks, and he scrutinized them. Kiki's forehead still furrowed as he looked at both of my cheeks.

He's good at changing the subject. If I don't talk to him for weeks, I'll make sure his destination is at the mental hospital.

I slapped him in annoyance.

"You're good at changing topics, noh!" I said stiffly to him as I looked mad.

“Who is Nemo ?!" I shout. My eyes are burning fire, ready to strike him so he will tell me the truth. Why it’s so hard for him to speak the truth? He will just say who Nemo is.

“The hell?! I don’t fucking know who’s Nemo.” He massaged his temple. This lawyer is brainless and stupid.

Kiki is feeling amnesia, and I slap his arm again.

Kiki doesn’t want to tell me the truth.

“That woman in the party!” I shrieked. I want to eat him alive now. There’s something between them because he doesn’t want me to know. He already told me if she’s not essential and answered my question. Is that hard to answer my question?

His eyebrow creases, and he looks away.

“She’s not important.” He said shortly and acted like he was watching TV.

“Really?” I challenged him, and I made sure my voice sounded in disbelief.

We are fighting again. I am starting a fight. Why does Kiki not want to give me a peaceful night and assurances? Lorex is always giving me that before without asking him.

“Don’t start a fight.” He warned me, yet he sounded nervous. He may doesn’t look scared, but I feel it. Our souls are just one, and they are connected.

“Aren’t you going to tell me? Okay, stand with me, and tomorrow I am going to Kenzo’s condo and sleep there!” I shouted at him and turned my back, showing him that I was mad.

He signed in stress.

“Okay, I’ll tell you, but please, promise me one thing.” He stops and looks at me.

“Don't fret, and don’t overthink.”