Chapter 65

Kienzo lifted her and brought her to their room and the battle begin.

“Kienzo I don’t want, I am feeling tired.” Claire said weakly and tiredly.

They are just done Kiki and wants to do it again. He is kissing her in the neck.

“Just this one. I did the work but you are more tired than me.” Kienzo said and continued to kiss her in her neck.

“Hmm.” Claire groan. She doesn’t have energy.

“And I miss you.” Kienzo murmured huskily and his hands move to her breast.

Claire is closing her eyes.

Kienzo keeps on kissing her when his phone rang but he didn’t mind and continued kissing her all over her body.

“Your phone is annoying, it keeps on ringing.” She complaint. She wants to sleep peacefully but Kiki is not letting her go and keeps on kissing her.

Kienzo's phone rang again.

Claire gathered all of her energy and push Kienzo who’s in top of her.

“Your phone!!” She shouted angrily.

“Let it. Fuck it!” Kienzo is annoyed too.

Kiki answered the phone, he doesn’t have any plans to answer the caller if he didn’t saw his younger brother name in his screen.

He answered the call out of his will, “what?!” He asked irritatedly.

Claire is just looking at her and listening until he ended the call.

“It’s Keran. They are in the bar and he they are waiting for me.” He informed her.

Claire nods his head and close her eyes, “take care.” She said sleepy k but Kienzo kiss her again.

“Kienzo, I thought your siblings are waiting for you?” She asked while frowning.

“I wanna stay here with you.” He said and lay besides her and hug her from her waits.

“Go with them.”

“No. I wanna stay with your side.” Kienzo insisted.

“No, come there. Your brother called, right?”

“Hay, don’t you miss me?”

“We are together. How am I going to miss you?”

“Okay, I’ll go.” Kiki surrender but he didn’t move an inch.

“Aren’t you going to stop me?” He added while looking at her intensely.

“Why do I’m going to stop you?” Claire raise her left eyebrow on him.

He sighed frustratedly. Kiki didn’t do anything and decided to get up and get ready.

Kienzo sighed, “be ready when I get home.” Kienzo murmured.

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“ I want to settle down.” Keran said out of nowhere.

Enzo stops from drinking his tequila.

They are in a bar.

“With Chandria?” Kienzo asked out of nowhere.

“Joke , I was feeling bored that’s why I think to settle down.” Keran joked.

Keran is not yet ready to have a wife and a big responsibility. He still wants to enjoy his money; his last ex was after his money, which gave him trauma. He will have a girlfriend if willing to share his treasure and the sweat of his hard work.

Kienzo sighed, “don’t be hard to Chandria. She’s the daughter of our mom’s friend.” He reminds Keran.

“Bro, you can’t do anything silly don’t feel any special feelings towards her, right?” Keran asked his older brothers.

“Let her get tired.” Enzo advised and continue to drink.

“It’s gonna takes years before Chandria get tired from you unless someone is there, and do what she’s doing to you.” Kiki said deeply, “you can’t force your feelings, Keran.” He taps his shoulder.

“Why life is complicated? Or we’re just making it complicated?” Keran asked suddenly.

They became silence in his questions.

“I do not want to hurt Chandria, I do not want to be in a complicated relationship it’s so fucking fuck up!” Keran hissed.

“Why don’t you give it a try? If you have a feelings for her don’t yourself back.” This time, Enzo talked deeply.

Keran think deeply.

“I am thinking about it, and I am sure that I don’t have feelings for Chandria.” Keran is sure about that matter.

“I can’t be in a relationship because my life is in fucked situation!” Keran said problematically, “I want to be okay mentally, If I’m not, I might hurt the person that I love. I do not want her to put in a complicated situations.”

Enzo continue drinking.

“Are you liking someone right now?” Kienzo raise his eyebrow.

“No! I am just worried. I do not know where I am heading to, I do not know what I want. I feel lost. I am near my thirty, yet I do not know what’s happening in my life! Fuck it!” He stressed.

“I know our parents are not pursuing us to have a family and settle down, but dude! Society is telling us that we have something to prove at this age, that we are already married! Fuck! I am so lost.” Keran stated.

Kienzo keeps in silent.

“You are lost and you should be reminded that you are heading or directed where you should be. Fuck the society, Keran! Don’t let it affect your life! I am already in my thirties and I am enjoying life. Don’t let auntie pressure you about your life.” Enzo advised his brother. They may fight a lot but they back each other whenever they are in need.

Their aunts is pressuring them to have a family. What a toxic Pilipino culture!

Our life doesn’t have timeline.

“Yo, I have my career and my business but I feel empty! I feel so fucking alone! I know I have you guys! But, I really feel alone. But sometimes I feel like there's no progress in my life!” Keran is so frustrated in his life. He must be thankful he has brothers like them.

“Just let things flow and be free. If you feel lost then be it.” Kienzo.

“Yeah right!” Enzo second the motion, . This is our own choices and life. Just let things happen, Keran. You will be alright soon, dude.” Enzo cheered him up.

Men are also talking about their problems too.

“Problems are multiplying, they don’t lessen and we encounter them to discover ourselves deeply.” Kienzo.

Keran heaved a deep sighed and process his brother's words.

He had been lost and finding himself but nothing happens. His brothers knows his problems and he’s beyond glad that they are guiding him.

“Drink your thoughts away, even you keeps on thinking about it they are still there.” Kienzo chuckled.

“Yeah, don’t be; we at we worried too much about the results of our board exams.” Enzo laughs. He still remembers how they are worried about the result of their board exams and keep thinking about it until they realize they’re just pressuring themselves.

Keran chuckled, “who would had thought you passed the board exam and damn! You are both lawyers! Fuck the two of you!” He laughs. Deep inside Keran is proud of his older brothers achievements in life.

They just laughs.

Enzo realized that let things happen cause we can’t control what will happen. Let things happen. It's’ a waste of time thinking about those things that’s not gonna happen.

Their subject matter changes as they reminisce what had happened to their lives before.

It’s really felt good having a conversation with your siblings. It’s lessen the heavy and burden. But, it feels good when someone is there for you through hardship and victory.

Be focus to what's happening recently, because thinking about tomorrow is just wasting your energy.

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3RD PERSON POV

Kienzo opens the door of his condo. He is not drunk even though they drink.

He opened the light and saw Claire’s on the sofa while bowing her head.

He frowned. It’s already late. Why is she still awake?

He heard her sobs.

She’s crying again.

She’s being emotional.

“Claire…” he called her to get her attention, but she didn’t pay.

Before he came closer to her, he opened the lights.

“Claire… what happened?” He asked worriedly as he approached her.

Claire's face is already wet from his tears, and her eyes are swollen.

She showed her the pictures that she was holding.

He stilled.

Why does Claire have a photo of those?

Kiki clenched his jaw and closed his eyes to calm himself.

“Who gave you those pictures?” He asks seriously and with no humor.

Claire continued to cry and shook her head.

“You had a child,” Claire said and started and broke down.

“Who gave the hell this to you? These pictures were before.” He asked calmly.

Damn! Who sent these pictures to Claire?! Everything was all the past.

Dolly.

“You’re dead, Dolly.” He murmured.

“You have a relationship and a child….” She hardly said.

“Kienzo, why are you like this? It so hurts.” She cried.

Kienzo needs to calm himself before he can kill who did this to him.

“Dolly is my past. I do not want to lie or hide anything from you. I got her pregnant when we were in a relationship. Looks,” he gets the picture and shows her carefully.

“Dolly and I are still young here. Look at our face closely.”

The images are all from the past.

There’s no more to get back in the past, which has already ended.

“This was when we were on a high school to fresh college year.” He added.

“Do you love me?” Claire asked out of a sudden.

“Did you ever feel that I don’t love you?” Kiki returned the question thoughtfully and looked at her softly.

Claire thinks and if she feels that Kiki truly loved her. He respected her and didn’t take advantage of her. Kiki trusted her. He didn’t force her on everything she didn’t want to do. He’s so damn gentle with her. He accepted, and mostly, he never got mad or cursed her.

Claire shakes her head as an answer.

A while ago, she was fuming mad when she saw the picture, but her anger disappeared when she saw Kiki. Her worries turn into peace.

Kiki is giving her peace of mind.

“I’m sorry for not making an effort, for making you feel that I love you. Let me fix that issue.” Kienzo said sincerely.

Claire wants to curse herself, she is not a crybaby, but when it comes to Kiki, she is becoming weak.

Her strong personality disappears when Kiki is in front of her.

All she knows is that she is mad at Kiki, but she’s not angry anymore.

Kienzo gently wipes her; he smells like alcohol, a mix of perfume and alcohol, but she doesn't mind.

Claire doesn’t know what to say anymore because Kiki is already in front of her.

It seems that they are connected.

That’s how love is; you will swallow a lot of poison.

What happened between Kiki and Dolly is in the past, and it shaped their characters.