Chapter 79
“I want pasta!” I whine to him.
He got his phone and tapped on it.
“Wait fifteen minutes; I already ordered it.” He shortly focused on what he was reading.
It was breakfast, and he didn’t wake me up like he used to.
“I want,” I think of unhealthy foods.
“I want fries, burger, pizza, and cheesecake,” I demanded him.
“Okay.” He answered shortly again.
I wasn’t expecting him to his answer.
He should scold me; why is he giving me what I want? He changes.
He gets his phone again and types on it, maybe ordering the foods I requested.
“I gotta go, I already called someone to clean this, and I got you a driver too.”
That’s all he said, and he left me just like that.
I dangerous glared at the milk he made for me, and I hadn’t drunk it. He was ensuring that I had already consumed my milk and vitamins before leaving for work, but he now acted like he didn't care.
He is cold on me.
I came to work having a grudge toward him; I didn’t have the energy to work.
I don’t understand myself too, I should be in hospital and taking care of Keran, but I am here and thinking about Enzo. I am not comfortable with the way Enzo is treating me.
When I entered my office, I was shocked when my employees were all new; I didn’t see any old.
“Good morning, ma’am.” they treated me in chorus.
Where are my old employees? Why do they change?
For as long as I remember, my employees do not look like that, my old employees like to gossip, and these new ones look shy.
“Excuse me, is Mrs. Velasco Chandria here?” I look at the woman who came in.
“It’s me; why?” I asked.
“Hi, good morning. By the way, I am attorney Sarah Connor, CPA, and your husband sent me here.” She smiled at me.
Huh? Why is there someone like her here?
What’s Enzo’s plan?
I invited her to my office.
“I already looked at your financial statement, and you have huge losses, and your trusted employees might be stealing. That’s why you this kind of big losses.” She should tell me the folder that she had been holding.
“I will be your accountant in your business.” She said.
I was stunned.
“Your husband will charge me for this matter, and I will be in charge of legal business and financial stuff.” She smiled at me.
She introduced herself to me and talked about many things; I decided to visit my warehouse, and all my employees were new. I even got a business advisor and manager, and I don’t need to pay her.
I don’t know how to react, Enzo helps me a lot in my business, and I don’t see what I did well to him.
They told me that he was the one giving them a salary, helping me big time.
I realized my wrongdoing. I am teary-eyed.
I need to apologize. Enzo’s doing things for me; he cares for me.
"That your fault, ma'am. I told you, just try to love and open your heart to sir Enzo. He's still smart, like his twin. ” Kiray preached to me.
I go home because I feel I need someone to talk to, Enzo.
I only talk to Kiray in this house and the cat.
“Of course, sir, Enzo feels hurt by what you did. You are still his wife. Even if you see Sir Enzo kissing someone, you will get mad; it’s still signed respect of the marriage and respecting each other. If you agree that you can do whatever you want and have a third party, it is fine to have a mistress, but you didn’t have.”
“Stops being a flirt, madame; you only have one heart, so you probably have one man in your heart.” Kira scolds me.
I looked at Kiray, and she gave me a sign of peace. She knew how to talk back to me because she was the only one I could speak to in this house.
“I feel that sir Enzo likes you.” She added while caressing the cat’s head.
“Look at sir Enzo, he is kind, and he was the one giving your employees a salary. You know what? You don’t deserve him because I deserve him, heart!”
I tried to call Enzo, but he was not picking up his phone.
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I threw the box of cheese when Enzo left me in the kitchen.
I was so feeling annoyed, and I followed him into his library. I slam the door and face him.
“Enzo!” I angrily said his name.
“I am going to tell this to my dad if you still ignore me!” I threaten him.
He stops what he is doing.
“I’m not ignoring you, Chandria.” He answered exhaustedly.
I started him and didn’t answer anymore.
“I’m tired” He’s shutting me down.
“I am going with Keran!”
“Okay.” He shrugs.
I became angrier at his answer.
I can’t stop crying in front of him.
“You are so bad! You are neglecting me! I am about to give birth, but you don’t care about me! I hope you are not the father of my child!”
I don’t know why I said those words to him.
“Yeah, I wish to,” he suppresses a smile on me.
“So Keran and I wouldn’t fight anymore. We still have a good relationship. You haven't visited him.” He said emotionless.
I was stunned.
“I already told you, Chandria, if you want an annulment, I can give it to you immediately. Just don't slap in my face that you love Keran. Please at least respect our marriage.” He said coldly.
“I’m sorry.”I cried.
“Don’t be. I know you love Keran,” He bitterly smiles at me.
“I thought it’s easy to love someone deeply in love with someone else.”
“Enzo…” I plead.
“Keran told me that you’re going with him and stay in his house,” he put down the ballpen.
“You can go. I won't stop you. The annulment will be in Keran’s house tomorrow. My secretary will deliver it tomorrow morning.” He smiled, but it didn’t reach his ear.
“I won’t go anymore to him. I regret it.” I cried harder.
“It's fine with me, Chandria. You don’t need to feel guilty.”
Why is he not calling me the endearment he used to call me?
“Enzo, sorry. Please talk to me. I don’t understand myself and feel guilty about what I did. Trust me, months with you, I lose my care for Keran, and I am not thinking about him anymore.” I wipe my tears, “maybe I love you….”
I stilled.
“You can’t unlove Keran that easily.” He chuckled sarcastically.
I came closer.
“I thought of it too.” I hold his hand. She just let me.
“Because with you, I feel safe, and I can’t sleep at night without you by my side. I don’t understand it, but when you started to ignore me and didn’t pick me up at the house and did not show at me, I felt hurt.” I sob.
Enzo heaved a sigh, and he stood.
I ran away from him again yesterday and waited for him to come to me, but I waited for nothing.
“I do not want to see you cry. I got mad at Keran, not you, okay?” He said softly and wiped my tears.
“But I think I am starting to love you.”
He smiled at me.
“You need to think of it. You don't need to say it, okay? You should sleep.” His coldness has been removed, and he is a concern again to me.
I harshly remove his hands from my cheeks.
"Do not you love me? Did you love me even a little? Because when I'm with you, all my worries are gone. I feel like I'm in a safe place because you're there next to me. You fix my problem in my business, and I don't think about anything anymore. ” God! What am I saying?
“These emotions, I never felt these towards Keran. Please believe me..” I beg.
“Did you love me even a little or have a crush on me?” I am hoping.
He is looking into my eyes.
“Enzo!” I shook his shoulder.
“I am not yet sure about my feelings, but I am sure that I want to be with you until I grow old. Don’t you want me.?” I asked.
Instead, he answered me, and he kissed me.
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KYLE POV
“Damn it, Kyle Cyan!” I heard mommy say my name.
She’s mad at me again. When didn’t she get mad at me?
“Cyan!” she shouted my third angrily.
“Yes mom?” Tamad na tanong ko sa kanya.
“You!” She pinches my ears.
“You used the mustang again, you bastards!” She slapped my shoulders.
“You like your third brother! You are a burden on me and my headache!”
“Mommy! My ears!” She pinches my ears again.
“Ma, it’s my birthday today.” I frowned.
“Yeah, it is your birthday today. We are going out and fix ourselves!” She growled at me.
I receive a lovely gift from this older woman who keeps nagging all day.
“We are three again,” I said sadly.
Sometimes they are not here, and I am all alone.
“Your brothers are not going again, and you bring your friends again.”
“Eh, what do you want to happen then? We are just three in the house!” She’s about to eat me alive.
“I don’t want to go, momo! I wanna stay here in house!”
It’s October 31, and it’s my birthday. What clownery.
“You! Don’t play with your gadgets; I will get them!”
“When it comes to me, it’s always prohibited, and when it comes to my old brother, it’s always a yes!.” I said seriously.
“You are a Favoritism!” I acted cool in front of her and hid my real emotions.
“Of course, they are already old enough and have their own lives! You! Fix your life! And you only gave me a headache! Break up your girlfriend selling a banana cue in the field!” Mommy shouted at me angrily.
It’s so hard to be young; the oldies are trying to control my life, and they are the ones who are deciding for me. Don’t they let their children make a mistake and learn from them?
That’s why I want to get old fast, so I can do whatever I want in my life. All I want this coming Christmas is love and freedom.
I am not happy.
“She is not my girlfriend!” I shouted back.
She doesn’t like that woman because she is selling a banana cue field, and I don’t have achievements yet. Why can my brothers have a girlfriend when they are my age?
If I didn’t break up with the banana cue, she would break us apart and embarrass that woman in front of many people.
She doesn’t like me to like that woman because of our social differences and gap in status.
Mom is not apparent to this one, but she values the money more than I do. They didn’t give me time. Sometimes I think about running and having a family and work.
Damn it, she is always scolding me, and this is the scene every day.
“I don’t want you to see her again!”
“Okay, then don’t!” I shouted and entered my room, and slammed the door.
“Aba Cyan, you rascal!” Mom knocked in my room. She can’t open my room because I hid the key.
“Okay, lock yourself there, and we won’t go anymore!” She shouted back and walked out angrily.
If you are younger, you don’t have the right to speak and talk back to the oldies, and we are always wrong and never make the right decision and act. Does it mean that we are younger and don’t have the right to decide and do the best we know for ourselves?
Mommy only wants that I follow her. How about me?
I laugh. My mom never listens to me, never listens to my beg, and only looks at my wrongdoing.
In her eyes, I did nothing good.
I texted my brother and friends.
Friends? Do I have one? I can count on my friends in times of need.
I stare at the ceiling.
Why they didn’t give birth to me early, so I am already working?
If you don’t have work, no one is proud of you.
All I want is freedom.
All my siblings are busy with their lives.
Brother Kienzo is busy with his wife because they are moving house and getting married again.
Brother Enzo is busy with his Chandria because she is about to give birth.
Kuya Keran is crazy. I can’t contact him.
Why did I feel so lonely?
I Have a lot of siblings, but why do I feel alone? Why do I feel like no one loves me?
They never spend time with me. I Always beg and ask for my brother's and parents' time and attention for me.
I need some love, too; this seems gay to say.
I chuckled inside my brain.
I just want to end my life.
It doesn’t have value. I am alone; my family doesn't love me.
No one would cry if I died.
I cried when their hurt words echoed in my head.
Maybe it’s true that I am useless. All I did in my life was a mistake and a sin.
What’s my purpose in this world? I don’t have the energy to wake up every morning because the cycle continues.
I am feeling sad.
I can’t take it anymore.
I want to die
It’s so dark here.
And darkness gave me comfort.
Kyle Vladimir Cyan Velasco












