Chapter 59

Sharanya's pov.

I closed the door after Maa, Yashvi, and others left. I turned to find Neil still sitting on the floor in the same position with her picture in his hands. He didn't even cry a bit. His eyes didn't shed tears. He handled his little brother like a father. He wiped his tears and made him sleep while he was lost somewhere he still was.

The loud thunderstorm warned me that it could start raining at any time.My eyes travelled to the wall clock, which flashed 10:30 pm.

I approached him and placed my hand on his shoulder, his eyes bloodshot red. "Neil kuch kha lein bohot late hogaya hai," I said softly, staring at him."I am not hungry. You have something and sleep." What's this man made up with? He knew how to mask his expression He didn't even cry at his mother's funeral, and still wasn't crying. He was a master at masking his discomfort.

"At least eat something, you haven't had anything since the morning," I said, and he shook his head no "Maine bola na bhook nahi hai (I said I'm not hungry)"He answered then stood on his feet. His hands were still clutching his mother's picture. His white kurta wrinkled around his muscles without giving me a glance. He walked inside the other room where he was staying and banged the door shut, making me flinch.

I sat down on the couch, leaning my head back, not knowing what to do. The bullet was about to hit Neil, but his mother came in between and it pierced her heart. She was dead in a second. It was way too shocking.

Those four men were still tied in the basement getting special treatment from Neil's changu mangus (staff and bodyguards), but still they weren't saying anything about their boss.

He was in pain I knew about it. But I couldn't feel the pain he was feeling. I could never He just lost his mother. I knew how much he loved his mother. Not even once did I see him cry when she collapsed in his arms. I just heard him whisper "I failed." His tone was way too broken..

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He looked out of the window as it started raining heavily. All of a sudden, the lightning flashed on his blank face. He sat down on the balcony staring at the sky. Her face, her smile , her words, her loving nature, everything flashed in front of his eyes. He was left alone all over again, and this time his mom wouldn't be coming back. God took the beautiful soul away because she wasn't made for this cruel world.

He wanted her to be with him. He wanted to treat her like a queen; he wanted to give her all the happiness in the world, but she left. She left him and his little brother.

Everything was destroyed in a second. From happy to sad, from love to blood and death..

He hissed and closed his eyes tightly.It hurt. The ache in his heart had multiplied now that he wouldn't be able to sleep on her lap any longer, and they wouldn't be able to share their evening tea together.Now she wasn't here to smile for him and praise his cooking skills.

In a short sentence, he was now an orphan after being the Billionare. He couldn't save his mother.

He breathed out and started at her picture. His expression was like a baby who was staring at his mother with longing in his eyes.

He kissed the picture and whispered

"I am already missing our evening tea and dinner together, but it's okay, I will adjust. It will take time, but I'll be okay. Your Neil is strong." He said and tried to smile but failed miserably.

"I know you are happy there, but what about me and Piyush maa? There was no one for us. We are left alone in this world. " Another drop of tears fell on the picture.

"I am sorry maa I am very sorry I wanted to save you but I couldn't. Please forgive your Neil. "

"You were the Angel Maa, and that's why God called you." You weren't made for this cruel world, but I promise maa I will give all of them a painful death. " His softened eyes stuck on the picture where his mother was smiling beautifully. His head was heavy, so was his heart. He had so many things buried inside him today. He wanted to take it out but couldn't. He wanted to cry but couldn't.

He placed the photo frame aside and closed his eyes, leaning his head back. Just then he heard her soft voice, "Neil?" His eyes shot up. She was standing a few inches away from him.

"I am fine "Sharanya, go and sleep, it's late," he said, staring at her, and she stepped closer to him. Her palms cupped his stubble jaw while he looked away "Look at me," she said, and he did. Their eyes met.

"I'm fine, Sharanya," he said, and she sighed, "No, you're not!!"And it's totally okay!! You can't expect yourself to be fine all the time. You are also a human being and not some machine. " She said her thumb gently rubbed his skin.

"It's okay to cry Neil, you don't need to mask your emotions all the time. Let it out, you'll feel light." She said her voice was soothing to him. It was calming to his heart.

"Cry Neil, cry all you want, don't bury those things inside, let them out, or it will haunt you later," she said, her eyes welling up with tears.

"I am not we..." He whispered, his tone stuttered a little, "You are one of the strongest people I've ever met, Neil, and crying won't make you weak." And that's where the dam broke and his tears started rolling down from his cheeks uncontrollably..

He started crying like a baby, palming his face. "I have no one left with me now!! She isn't here. She left me and Piyush. We are orphans now. " Hearing him, her eyes welled up.She didn't even know how to console him. Heck, she never saw him broken like this.

I failed to give her the happiness she desired. I was too toxic for her. That's why she died saving me. His voice broke as he cried more.

"She is in a better place now, Neil," she said softly Her hands rose up to cup her cheeks again. But what about me? "She left me here alone," he whispered.

"Main Maa ka acc.ha beta nahi baann paya isil..iye woh chali ga..yi (I failed to become a good son for her, that's why she left me")" He said and she shook her head no and wiped his tears, "Don't say this, you are the bestest son Neil." The next moment, his arms wrapped around her waist as she was standing close to him, his face hugged her belly as he cried loudly. She let him cry as her fingers gently stroked his hair.

Moving back, he got up, wiping his tears with the back of his palm and clearing his throat. "I am fine."

"Neil, please have something, otherwise you'll fall ill." She said it again. "I said I wasn't hungry; why can't you understand dammit?" she reacted angrily to his sudden change of behavior.

"Neil ii----" her sentence was cut short by his yell, "It's me dammit, I lost my mother, you can't feel the pain I'm going through and you're telling me to eat." he yelled, his eyes welling up with tears.

"I know I can't feel your pain, but I care." "Anyway, I'm sorry," she said as she walked out of his room, her sentence cut off in the middle.