45. Blossoming Spring Days

Nethra's POV

I never expected even in my dreams that my life would show this hell. My dark past turns my life upside down. I came to India back with a will power to grow the baby in good circumstances. I rejected everyone and came to Mercy home as I wish. No one disturbed my peace of mind. Still my fate was not satisfied with what I am now, each and everyday my health conditions was deteriorated. My only wish is to bring up my baby. Unfortunately, I have undergone major heart surgery. Before going to hospital, I called my friend cum sister Neethu many times in phone but her phone was not reachable.

I don't know what happened to me afterwards, I was unconscious and fighting for my life. When I came to conscious, I understood that I have undergone heart surgery. I came to know that Rahul was taking care of me and he was buying all the medicines as per doctor's prescription. I longed for someone to be with me but unfortunately no was nearer to me to comfort. The painful moment is Rahul didn't face me. He didn't even stepped into my room. I thought of calling him but something stopped me. Why didn't he come to see me? I knew he won't come to see me because I am sinner. Did he hates me really? I have unknown fear in me. I cried late at nights. If I think about the baby then I can't bare myself.

Days passed slowly, Rahul didn't come to see me. My eyes are begging me to see him. Already I have broken his and my heart into pieces, those broken pieces were longing for his care. The discharging day came, my health conditions was alright now. I was waiting for him to discharge me. I was looking outside, unexpectedly he enters I can't keep my eyes away. I looked at him as I can't move my eyelids. My deserted plants were blooming at the moment I saw him. Hardly, I ignore his eye sight.

Without even giving a time, he ordered, "Come to home" he stressed those words and it has full rights on me. I was happy at that moment but I didn't show it off.

"I know where to go" my words brought pain in him. I could see his pain in his eyes. God! Why do I am hurting him? I hurted and killed him alive already still I'm doing the same. Why is he not forgetting me? Why is he not ready to start his new life? Why is he giving me such love pain?

"Ok Nethra! I will go out of our home if I am your problem. Come and stay in our home. Everyone will take care of you very well," said him. I am speechless. I was shocked and looking at him. What is he mean? How long he will sacrifice everything for me? I deserve only his anger but why is he showering his love? I am feeling guilty for my mistakes. He shouldn't forgive me. I was broken for spoiling his life. So I came out from their house. They should be happy. I am unfit for them.

Then, he packed all my dresses and gave his hand for my support. I ignored and walked besides him. I looked at him whenever I get a chance. I am feeling pity for him and his love for me. Why did God show me such a hell life?

We reached Mercy home. I tried to come inside my room to keep the luggage. I didn't allow him. He stood out. I took my baby, I miss her badly. She is my world. I should bring her to a good position in the society, why is my fate playing with my health? I played with my child.

"Sir! Can you afford a room for me to stay?" He asked the proprietor.

I looked at him shockingly. Why is he behaving so insane? Why is he taking such decision? Why is he hurting me with the things which I don't like? He shouldn't stay here, he has lovely family. I never allow him.

The proprietor showed his room and at once he entered the room and locked it. I can't stop him. Why is he sacrificing is good life for me? I  deserve only his hatred not his love . I don't want to spoil his life again. He should forget him, he shouldn't think about me, he should leave me.

I closed my door and tears flooded from my eyes. I cried a lot as I can't control myself. Rahul should be happy. God! Please show him a better life. I can't make him happy.

Rahul's POV

I tried a lot to convince her and take her home but she is stubborn. I have no other way to make her understand so I decided to stay in Mercy home. At once I said to the proprietor, he could see a sudden change in her. This idea will works. Hopefully, It will help me to take her home. Who will take care of her here? Her health is not at all good. Often, she will get fainted. I can't leave her here. Sorry Nethra! If my decision makes you feel or makes you cry. I would never ever disturb in your other decision but considering your health I can't leave her because I loved her, I am not a stone to leave you here.

The Next day Morning

I woke up early in the morning as I couldn't sleep for whole night since it was a new place. I opened the door, lights were ON in her room. She is not a early waker may be she forget to turn off the light. Within a blink of an eye, she opened the door and I was standing out like a thief looking at her house to stole something. She looked at me weirdly but her eyes showed unknown fear and care for me. First time after her return from U.S I realized such a look. Then, she entered her room and closed her door.

At 8.00 a.m

Everything had their morning breakfast as Idly and Sambhar with vada curry (Famous south Indian dish). Maid brought breakfast for me, I rejected and sat together with the people waiting for Nethra. Losing my patience, I asked, "Where is Nethra? Did she have her breakfast?"

"Sir! As usual we have given her breakfast near her doorsteps. She will never come here and at the same time she didn't mingle with anyone except Neethu. Especially, she will never allow anyone to enter her room till now," said the maid.

I got up from there and knocked the door. Nethra opened it. "Please have your breakfast and eat some fruits too. You need to take medicine" I said. She looked at me without replying.

"Rahul! I need to talk to you something" she said shockingly.

"Tell me,"

"Go to home, please. Don't disturb my peace of mind," said her.

"My presence is disturbing you Right?"

"Yup"

"No! You are cheating yourself and me. Even now you are caring about you,"

She didn't replied.

"What does this silence means? You are caring for me now and then. You are thinking about our family. I informed to them already so no worries Nethra. Either come to home or else I will stay here as a stranger. You don't care or worry about me Nethra, Take care of your health"

"Don't you understand me? Leave me and go Rahul? Please don't play with my emotions,"

"Who is playing Nethra? It is you and not me. Come to home don't be stubborn. Everyone is waiting for your presence. I will never disturb you again. For the sake of your health and baby, you should need a family,"

Baby cried, "Mamma is nearer to you baby, don't cry," she patted the baby. She can't even lift the baby due to surgery. She is facing lot of troubles alone.

The baby wants someone to lift her. "Wait Nethra! I will lift her," I took the baby in my hands and kissed her. The baby placed a soft kisses in my cheeks.

"Take rest Nethra! let the baby be with me and I will give her little later. Don't forget to take the medicines,"

I played with the baby and slowly the baby enjoyed my presence with her. Two hours later, I was about to give the baby to her. I knocked the door and the door was opened, she forget to unlock it. I called her but she didn't came. So I stepped up into her room.

She was sleeping peacefully in the bed. I found a photo in her hand and it makes me in shock. She placed some photos in the walls. By hearing the baby's sound, she get up from her sleep. She looked at me shockingly.

"Why did you come here? Did I allow you to enter my room?" I looked at her without answering.

NETHRA'S POV

I closed my door and tears flooded from my eyes. I cried a lot as I can't control myself. Rahul should be happy. God! Please show him a better life. I can't make him happy. The whole night I didn't even sleep for a minute. Only Rahul's thoughts occupied me. Already, I have spoiled his life. If he stays here, what will I reply to their parents? I felt guilty to stay there at the same time I don't want them to lose their happiness because of me. How will I make Rahul to understand it?      I am a third person after all I am their enemy's daughter. How could they forgive me so easily? I can't even forgive me for my mistakes. Why are they still loving me?

I came out at 4.00a.m. I was shocked to see Rahul there. I don't know how long he was standing there. I really feel pity for his decision. I tried a lot to convince him to go home but he refused it. I didn't deserve his love then why is he troubling me this much?

He took my baby and he went out. My eyes again flooded with tears. I didn't eat anything from morning to till now. I didn't even took any medicine. I hate this life totally. I felt very tired and fell in the bed. I took his photo and looked at him for a long. Unknown tears oozes out as I couldn't able to control. Day by day I am losing my control. This is not good for Rahul or his family. Already I have done everything for them that is enough. Still my heart aches and gave me lot of pain. I don't know when I slept.

I heard my baby cry. I got up immediately from bed. Rahul was sitting besides me. He looked at the photos in my hand. I tried to hide it but hopefully he saw it. Then he looked around the walls, Till now I didn't allow anyone to enter my room because I have kept our family photos in the walls.

"Why did you come here? Did I allow you to enter my room?" I controlled myself and shouted at him. He looked at me shockingly.

"Nethra! Why are you fooling us. You still loves our family that I can understand. Come with me Nethra,"

Why is he making me weak. I am about to cry but I shouldn't do it. If I cry he will grasp everything. I should act bold to make him and his family happy.

"What are you thinking Nethra? Why are you killing me? Why are you stubborn?"

"Leave me Rahul, I beg you,"

"No way Nethra!"

"I thought of leaving you after giving you to our family but now no way Nethra. Show me your hand," He said in strict tone.

He never ever showed his strictness towards me. I looked at him and stretched my hand. He held his hand and kissed my hand. What is he doing? I jerked my hand. I shouldn't fall for his emotions and feelings.

"Please Rahul leave me. I didn't match you. I didn't deserve your love. Leave me please," I said turning my face. Tears flooded from my eyes. I became weak and weak. I should control my tears.

He wiped away my tears, "Don't worry Nethra! I am there for you. I will never leave you at any cost even if you did any mistakes. Look at me and repeat the same sentence that you said before," Said him caringly.

I couldn't look at him. Hardly, I looked at his eyes. I cried and he hugged me to comfort me, "Rahul! I am sorry for betraying you. I can't be a burden for you and our family so only I came out from our home. I knew everyone showed me the same love as you shown before. I am feeling guilty Rahul. I should be punished for making you all in worries,"

"I said stop it Nethra. I and our family members didn't think that you committed a mistake. We are ready to accept you Nethra. Don't punish yourself. If you really wants to punish you then kill me Nethra by your hands," he didn't release his hug. I hugged him back.

"I am sorry Rahul. I will never hurt you again and I didn't hurt you anything from my heart,"

"No problem Nethra. Seriously! It doesn't matters. Please don't say sorry again and stop feeling guilty on you,"

I nodded looking at him. We shared our emotions and feelings in the form of love. What will happen if I share my past? Will he shower the same love? What will I do if he rejects me? Will he accept the child as his own child?