Chapter 13

Maryam's POV

"What do you think you're doing?". He scold me right the moment the door was closed.

I shoved his hand away from mine. I didn't bother to answer him Instead, I just walked passed him. The least he could do is to assault me.

Kareem followed me and grabbed my arm. "Do you know what time it says?" He asked sounding annoyed.

I glanced at my wrist watch "it just 8:03pm" I replied back.

"Yes! it's freaking 8:03pm and you're coming home late by this time? So, this has been what you've been up to, while I was away?"

What was the matter with him?

"I'm sleepy, can you release me now?" I told him in a calmest voice.

Instead, Kareem did the opposite. He tighten his grip on my arm. Why was he always this rough?

"Finally" Kareem said out of the blue. "You're now showing your true colour. The girl who has been acting innocent has finally come to show the world who she really is,you're even bringing a guy to my place!"

What? Bringing a guy to his place? Like I was planning to do something stupid with Khalid? Khalid is his friend for Allah sake,best friend to be precise. How many times does he wants me to repeat my self to him that I love only him, even after all the abuse and all that, I still choose him. I still love him which is so annoying, I really can't believe him.

"Whatever" I remark shrugging off my shoulder.

I didn't fail to see the surprise in his eyes. He probably didn't see that coming...and his expression, it looked funny.

He back away and bite his lower lip,then he glance at me "I... It's not safe out there Maryam" he said in a calm tone.

"It's not good for a lady like you to be staying out late most especially a married woman"

Wow! was he now to lecture me? How would I ever listen to the word of a man who forced him self on me, if there were to be danger, it was to be with him and not with his friend outside there.

As a matter of fact, he Kareem Abdulazeez was the DANGER.

I fixed my hijab as I straighten myself "so, are you done with your lectures daddy?"

Kareem didn't answer me. He groan as he closed his eyes instead.

I decide to speak again. "Last time I checked, you didn't care a bit about me, you don't care about how I feel, you even raped me because of your extremely apathy, so can you just leave me alone tonight?". I said as I began to step away, yet I pause and turned to him once again "oh and not just only tonight..how about leaving me alone for the rest of my life, because honestly, I'm sick and tired of you already!"

Then I left him as I walk towards my room. He didn't bother to follow me which I'm very grateful for. I didn't know what he was actually thinking right this moment. The most painful part is that, I still love him so much and it hurts.

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The wall clock in my room was the first thing that caught my attention when I open my eyes,it was 5:00am in the morning and I felt I need to pee and perform my ablution.

I decide to stand up only to meet Kareem's figure sitting at the side of my bed,he was watching me and so am I.

"What are you doing here?!" I cried out in shock as I sat up.

He didn't answer me, he just look at me with those blank and sleepy eyes. I'm scared of being in same room as him.

"What exactly are you doing here in my room?" I asked, remembering our encounter last night, didn't I tell him to leave me alone? So, what was he doing here? Especially in my room,on my bed?

"Can't sleep" he finally said. "I didn't mean to disturb you though"

"Well you have disturbed me already...congratulations"

What was he doing in my room? My mind won't stop screaming.

"L..let talk Maryam..let have a talk" he said hesitantly at first,but spoke clearly later on.

"Talk?! We have nothing to talk about" I said trying to stand up from my bed. "And how did you ever come here in my room? You're not suppose to be here!"

"Well, I have the key to every room in this house " he said raking his hair with his fingers.

Oh my God! how stupid of me to not know that he had the key to every single room here.

"Get out!" I yell at him.

"When are you going to give me time to talk with you?" He said. "I just have something to tell you and...". He paused while bowing down his head. "And you're becoming really,really stubborn these days and you're avoiding me-"

"Avoiding you? Isn't this what you want? To get rid of me? So quit complaining Kareem, and please, I don't want to hear anything from you!" I stood up and unintentionally showing him one of my over sized T-shirt that I wore before going to sleep yesterday. How could I forget easily that I wasn't wearing something appropriate. What if he rapes me again? And the worst part is that unintentionally my thigh was to him.

He also stood up and i blushed a little when I caught him taking a quick look at my thighs. I quickly grabbed my blanket from the bed and wrapped it around my self. I could still remember the feel of his hot palm on my thigh when I was under him on my bed that day...and it felt so weird why I still had to think about it...

"You can't just come in here anytime you want!" I said angrily at him. I couldn't allow him. I couldn't allow him to sexually assault me for the second time.

"I'm not talking to you anymore. Get out!"

He breathed hard as he stood there in front of me "just hear me out on this okay?" He asked looking irritated now.

I put my hands on my ears to show him my unwillingness to listen "I'm not listening to you, never"

Very irritated already, Kareem move closer to me. There was some kind of hot electrifying fire roaming around my whole body as I felt our closeness. This man here is extremely DANGER.

"Get off me now,I need to perform ablution" I said coldly but the main problem is that I seriously need to pee.

"I said, I need to perform ablution " I said once again when he didn't bother to move.

"Of course" he said, still locking his gaze with mine, but didn't move...for like eternity.

"I really need to perform ablution Kareem, I should be able to do that, since my husband don't fancy praying or count it as anything " I said frowing.

"Maryam-"

"Please Kareem, not now" I said cutting him off.

"But please, hear me out"

"I said not now!" I said angrily.

"I...I'm... I...I... I'm... I'm sor...I'm sorry" he said.

Did the almighty Kareem just apologise to me? Did he just said the word 'sorry'? He really do! He said it! He said the word sorry! Oh my God!

"Maryam please, just give me the chance to prove my self to you, to show you how sorry I was for treating you that way,it wasn't my fault Maryam and I'm sorry for everything, I'm just...I wasn't my self, there are so many things you don't know about me yet, I'm sorry please.....Okay, how about this? Just name what you want? I promise to do it, just to show you how sorry I was".

Did he just say all of these things? Should I forgive him? I think I already did. Just some few words from him and I had already forgiven him. And he was asking me to ask for anything, will he really do it? I smirk as what I would ask for came across my mind.