Chapter 39

39

Kareem's POV

After we got down from the bus,we walk down to where I had parked my car earlier

We were on the road. I could see her through the corner of my eyes staring at me and to be honest that was irritating. It was as if she was trying to find out something by doing that. I really hope she believe everything that I told her in the bus.

Earlier when I saw her almost been hit by a truck. My heart beat so fast and the only thing I could think of is to save her. Save her at all cost even if it means I'll lose my life. I don't know where that thought came from but that was all that was in my mind at that moment

I felt something is happening to me....I can't do this...Safeenah is still there,I still love her,I was just so confuse with my feelings towards Maryam, sure thing is that I cared for her but I love Safeenah,I can't cheat on her she's my woman,she's my life

"Staring at me won't change anything "

"I know"

"I know that nothing will break Kareem"

What?

"Even here doesn't hurt right?" She asked as she suddenly hit me on my right arm

I pretended like I was OK

"Even here" she said

I keep sucking in the pain until I could no longer take it

"Stop it!"

"I was trying to see if you were not made of iron or something..... Alhamdulillahi Robil alameen...Thank God ya Allah that I wasn't married to a robot" she said. I turned my head to take a look at her and she was smiling

Why is she smiling?

"Are you stupid or what? " I asked her and she remained quiet

"Next time when you're trying to kill your self, do it where I won't see you"

"Yes sir" she said in a saluting way and a smile appeared on her face

I don't know what's wrong with her. Its like nothing I say right now or do to her is getting to her

"Does this look like I'm joking?" I asked her after I parked my car

"How long do you think you can stand this? I'll soon break you"

Suddenly she smiled again

"I'll be waiting for that day Kareem...that  day I'll prove you wrong..." she said with so much confident

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I performed my prayers. I came up to the room after spending about thirty minute in my study room. I wanted to stay longer,I wanted to brush up a few work but I suddenly have this pain in my head. It wasn't letting me see clearly and I was beginning to feel drowsy. seeing the way as everything is as silence as this, I think she's so smart enough not to tell our families anything, I'm sure it would have gone out of hands if they should know,turning a little things into a big deal most especially Mom

May be if I take this bandage off ties around my head and lie down for a second I'll feel better

Maryam's POV

I finished praying twenty minutes ago then decide to take a bath. I came out of the bathroom all freshen up and dressed in my blue gown and put on to match of a blue baby hijab. Thinking about Kareem,how would I know if he's alright? Should I go meet him in his room? The last time i entered his room it didn't turn out well. What if he slapped me or beat me? No...no he won't do that

I decide to walk up to his room. I made my way to the front of his room and make a stop,I took in a deep breathe before opening it slightly trying not to make a sound. Wow! This room looks beautiful,painted all white with some dark black designs around the wall, a king size bed is placed at the middle of the room, I was busy admiring the room forgetting my reason to be here in his room

I turned and noticed Kareem aseat on the bed trying to take off his bandage himself. He isn't him self and the annoying part is that he won't admit it. I quickly went to brought the first aid kit before I walk up to him

I wonder how he's going to act when he realise I'm here in his room. I stretched out my hand and collected the bandage from his hand before I took a sit beside him. He immediately open his eyes and stared at me.

"I don't need your help!"

"And what are you doing in my room?" He asked angrily

"Yes i know you don't...but I'm doing this just to ease my self" did I just say that? So brave of you and why were you lying when in fact you did care

Alhmadulillah Kareem didn't say anymore words but just sat still staring at me.

He flinched a bit at first but never took his eyes away from me, I gently began to blow on the wound,I was very close to Kareem and for the first time I felt like kissing him,I felt like cuddling him to sleep, I couldn't help to stop my fast heart beating but too bad I can't, he will only get mad. Yes we've made love so many times but he has never kissed me...love? Was it even love to him? Definitely it would be just sex. I decide to push through the thought aside and focus on what I was doing

After I was done treating his wound...I applied a little small plaster and cotton on it

"Just wait here I'll get you something to eat" I told him while he still stared at me. Right now I wish I could read his mind and know what he was thinking but unfortunately I can't

I stood up and left the room

I came back into the room with a tray of his favorite food in my hand and I met him resting his back on the headboard of the bed with his eyes shut. I placed the tray on the side table and carried up the plate of the food in my hand and spoon

"Kareem " I called him as i lightly placed my hand on his hand. He slowly opened his eyes  and they were redder than before. He definitely need to take drugs but he can't do that unless be puts something in his stomach

I scooped a little into the spoon and stretch my hand toward his mouth. He take a look at the spoon first before me

"Please Kareem just try to eat "

He surprisingly open his mouth

Yes I'm surprised but at the same time happy. I handed him a cup of water and he accepted

I took the tray back downstairs while he rest. Later on, when I came back,I saw him lying on the bed with the blanket on and his eyes shut

I'm sure insha Allah tomorrow you will feel better

I turn to my back and was about to leave when I heard his voice

"Maryam" I heard his coarse voice call my name. I stopped then turn to him

"Thank you"

"You're welcome " I replied smiling like an idiot

"You can sleep with-"

"And by the way"

We both said at the same time

He gesture me to continue but I couldn't help but to repeat his sentence in my head...does he want to tell me to sleep with him on his bed?

"Maryam " he called again

"Oh sorry...just wanted to tell you that I love you so much My hero and you don't have to thank me coz no matter what you do I-

"Get out!" He roared angrily

"Ka-"

"I....said...get...out" he said through gritted teeth with his eyes full of anger

"Please-"

"Get out! NOW!!!" He bark making me flinch before running out of the room with tears on my face

Subhanallah what have I done? I just ruined the good moment we're having. Now there's no doubt he hates me so much