06 - THE CRUEL DARKNESS

-SAGE-

The creaking sound of the fan and the chilly winds accompanied me as I stared at the white wall in front of me.

" Sage." Whitney snaps annoyingly.

I exhale loudly slumping down on the chair as she groans in annoyance again.

" I'm talking to you Sage , the least you can do is listen." she mutters raising an eyebrow at me.

I roll my eyes looking at the wall again when she begin blubbering shit again.

" Sage." she growls after a few minutes.

" What did I just say ?" she snaps at me as I look at her with a frown.

" Its so quiet." I whisper.

" Wh-"

" So quiet. Quietness means peace. Is it peaceful ?" I ask looking at her curiously.

" Yes , its peaceful." she says offering me a fake smile.

" I hate it when it's too quiet in my head , I never know what those fuckers are planning." I whisper as she clears her throat looking towards the door.

" Sage , please concentrate." she snaps.

" In the last session , I asked you to prepare yourself. Are you ready ?" she asks as I roll my eyes.

" No." I answer simply.

" Doesn't matter. You have to open up today or tomorrow , let's make it today." she says shifting in her seat.

" Tell me Sage , tell me about the day you escaped from there. How were things ? How did you feel ?" she asks as I smirk leaning forward.

" You wanna hear it ?" I ask, she nods happily.

" Okay. Imagine, you get home today and witness the death of your husband and children right in front of you but your body couldn't move an inch to protect them. You turn around and your house, your happy comfort zone isn't there too. You turn to the other side and find nothing. Darkness , thick cruel and never ending darkness slowly covers you up. You try to think and then you realise . . . you can't think anything. Your mind is blank , it feels like a foreign place. Imagine being alienated in your own mind. What are you going to do ? Where will you go ? You don't know. Why ? Because you're scared of those answers yourself. You know there is no one to save you from this darkness, you have to live in it forever and ever and ever." I finish off as Whitney dashes to the door banging it open.

She runs out of the room as I chuckle following her trail out. Shawn was arguing with her in the hall, she kept yelling like a maniac until she saw me.

" She's crazy Shawn. She's mentally ill. She doesn't need a therapist, she needs to be in a mental asylum." She screams.

Immediately Shawn's palm connects with her cheek sending her on the floor.

" You all are crazy. You can't save her now Shawn. She has drowned in the darkness and it has killed her. You can't save a dead person from drowning." Whitney yells before stomping away.

Shawn yells profanities at her before he turns towards me. I let out a little whine as he pulls me to his chest , his warmth fills me up but instead of making me feel safe , it felt suffocating.

" Sorry baby girl." he whispers. I only nod in response earning a sigh from him.

" Let's go." he mumbles. I quietly follow him to the car park where Elliot was standing with a cotton candy in his hand.

" Hey beautiful." Elliot chirps kissing my nose before he hands me the cotton candy.

" Elliot." Shawn huffs.

" Let her eat what she likes for once." Elliot snaps at him.

Shawn rolls his eyes opening the door for me. Elliot sits beside me trying his level best to irritate Shawn. I stare out of the window as the car engine roars to life.

Pulling a small piece out, I place the cotton candy on my tongue feeling it melt bringing ecstasy to my taste buds.

The chilly afternoon winds kept hitting my face as I stared out at the scene I saw almost everyday. Nothing has changed in the town since the last two years. Every corner and every street is the same except me. I can't even imagine what I was two years ago, my mind doesn't allow me to go back to that phase where everything felt like a fairytale after seeing how the real world is like.

" Sage."

I gasp as my train of thoughts are broken by Elliot's shrieking.

" We're home Sage." Shawn mumbles looking at me sadly.

I nod opening the door harshly and hoping out not caring to close it behind . A feeling of distraught was swirling in me as I walked up to the door , the guard offered me a smile as I walked past him.

I closed my eyes in frustration upon hearing a lively chatter in the living room. I hate people. I hate talking. I hate looks of sympathy. I hate socializing.I hate people adoring me because I know its fake , I'm broken , used and tainted. Obviously it's all fake.

" Sage." Sabrina smiles at me as the noise immediately dies down.

" Love , you shouldn't be eating that. Remember ?" she frowns as her gaze falls on the cotton candy , I was clutching on to.

"So-"

I abruptly stop freezing at the sight in front of me. Every muscle in my body tenses as my heart picks up speed. My breath came in short, harsh pants as tears pricked into my eyes.

There he was , sitting comfortably with my father. There was a smile on his face which disappeared as soon as his dark orbs clashed against mine.

Enrique glared at me pushing his brown hair out of his face. His hair was now long and pulled up in a bun with a few strands escaping.

A tingly feeling settled in me as I studied the face of the man I once devoted my everything to. His jaw was sharp , his cheekbones were prominently displayed, his nose was straight , each and every feature on his face was carved with perfection.

" Sage."

I snap out of whatever world I was slipping into and look at Sabrina who was waiting for me to respond.

" Sorry." I mumble throwing the cotton candy on the floor in front of me.

" Come , sit with us." Elena smiles.

" No." I mutter.

" Sage, please." Sabrina mumbles.

" No."

Wiping my tears harshly , I bang shut the door of my bathroom. Sliding down against the door, the tears I held back at the bay came flowing down my cheeks. Seeing him after all this crumpled down my mental state, I've spent so much in building. I pull my hair letting out an inaudible scream as my insides scorched in pure agony.

The room lay silent, I bring my knees up to my chest and rest my face on them as new thoughts swirl in my mind like a tornado. It brought together all my thoughts and jumbled them up before returning them all twisted up.

Finally, I pull myself up from the floor and splash water on my face before discarding my sweater and putting on a new one. I left the dirty jeans on being too lazy to change and walked out of the bathroom.

A gasp escapes my lips as I stumble back upon the sight of Enrique on my bed. He smirks running his gaze from my head to toe before he smiles up at me sweetly.

" Hello little Sage." he smiles.