No Room for Insecurity

Imaani

SATURDAY MORNINGS WERE ALWAYS the worst for Imaani. She never had the urge to get out of bed, since it was a work-free day and she cherished her sleep.

But this particular Saturday Imaani was up at the crack of dawn baking cookies and cupcakes. Why was she baking? She had no idea, or so she tried to hide.

It was mainly because of the deal she made with the devil last night or as other people know him her boss, Jax.

She had sent him a simple text message as her reply to the offer he made her.

She said yes.

Imaani was extremely nervous that all she could do was stress bake to get her mind off the entire issue at hand.

Last night when Imaani started second-guessing herself and decided to delete the text, she checked it and saw that it showed the message was delivered. It was already too late for her to change her mind.

Thinking of it now she had no idea why she said yes to that offer.

You know deep down the only reason you said yes was because you want to be degraded and praised during sex and specifically by him. You loved how he made you come undone with his fingers, you loved the thrill of everything.

And also due to the fact you've not had sex for more than a year.

Curse my ability to get lost in my thoughts and also the ability to have a subconscious that was always right.

And now I'm freaking out because I dunno if he has seen my text or is just ignoring me because he finally changed his mind about the deal. Her overthinking mind would be the death of her.

That would be embarrassing....and slightly disappointing.

Imaani brought the cookies out of the oven and placed them on the counter to cool. She had nothing else to bake and right now she needed herself occupied before she does something stupid.

Like call Jax or text him again...

A few minutes later after her baked goods had cooled down properly, she dressed up, got in her car and made her way to Sarah's place. She didn't bother to call, she would just let herself in she had a key.

They both did for each other's houses.

She placed the sweets on the passenger seat and drove to her best friend's house. Maybe from there she and Sarah can brainstorm on what to do with all these sweets. She had already stocked her fridge full of them.

She knew she and Sarah had a sweet tooth.

And between her and Sarah she was extremely sure they might almost finish them during one of their movie nights.

She smiled as she remembered the past month how she and Sarah would buy a lot of different snacks for the future and end up almost finishing them all one hour later during their movie.

She was really glad they found each other.

Imaani knew how she always felt uncomfortable around Faye when it came to her body. Faye would always throw slight jabs at her weight or say something offensive indirectly.

But with Sarah, she loved how she didn't step in front of the mirror after every junk food and start complaining about how her flat stomach is looking fat.

Or how her thighs that have never touched were suddenly touching because of too much junk food.

She remembered one of their movie nights when Sarah had randomly said "I'm glad I met you. I feel like you're my rich boyfriend but a girl, that keeps buying me food and spoiling me"

After that Imaani didn't know how to feel, whether to cry or hug her. She had no idea how to take the statement, but she knew deep down that in Sarah's weird way she meant it in a good way.

So she hugged her friend "I love how my body is since we became friends. It's extremely perfect and I won't have it any other way with anyone else. Besides if I leave you, I don't think you'll find another sugar baby to spend on and try new food with" Sarah said

Imaani burst out laughing

One thing she knew for sure was that Sarah loved food as much as she loved Imaani... if not more.

While driving her car all she could do was smile because she knew that with her friend she never had to worry about her thighs that touched or her tummy that spills when she sits down or even her back rolls that she had immensely grown to love.

Pulling into Sarah's driveway, she got out of the car and made her way into the house

She took her bowl of sweets to the kitchen, came back to select a movie that they would watch later, and then made her way to Sarah's bedroom to wake her up.

She got into her bedroom to find her coiled up in her sheets sleeping peacefully.

She almost felt bad for waking her up. Keyword:almost.

She crawled into bed with her and felt her stir awake, groaning out in annoyance Sarah moved her head back and opened one eye and let out a small sigh when she saw Imaani

She smiles at her "hey sorry for waking you I brought cookies" Imaani said hoping it would soothe her and make up for her disturbance

"Shh sleep, talk later" Sarah grumbled as she pulled her friend closer to her, covering both of them up before falling back asleep.

Imaani knew she could not find it in herself to sleep, but the comfort she felt from her friend's arms around her, made her relax a little bit enough for her to forget about her boss and the message she had sent him.

Soon after Imaani closed her eyes she embraced the sleep that came to her.

Upon her entry into Sarah's house, she had left her purse with the movie she picked out in the living room.

Her phone kept ringing incessantly from her purse and buzzed repeatedly every time she received a text message.

But of them were already fast asleep.