Feelings Arising
Imaani
I TURN ACROSS MY BED AND I STRETCH my hand towards the bedside table in search of my buzzing phone. It had been ringing repeatedly now.
Maybe that's because you've been holed up in your room since Friday
My subconscious rattled.
I release a loud sigh and my thoughts begin to roam on their own.
My legs tighten instinctually as I remember the events of Friday when we had sex.
Amazing sex, if you ask me.
I cross my legs as I replay the events of that night in my head.
The cuffs, the vibrator and the numerous mind-shattering orgasms he gave me. Not to mention the vulgar words and the way he always noticed how my pussy clenched so hard from them.
I thought back to when I kept denying the fact that I was not into stuff like that for whatever reason, I have absolutely no idea. I guess I sort of fell prey to society's daft way of judging people with different kinds of kinks that they deem weird.
My legs tighten again as I remember how later that day at midnight we went at it like horny rabbits two more times, it was too good.
I glance at the screen of my ringing phone and decide to pick up since it was Sarah calling.
"Hey"
"Hey?! Hey, that's all I get, I've called you like five times Imaani I was so close to calling Jax. Why have you been ignoring my calls?" She rushed out her words
She is pissed.
Why was I ignoring their calls, I had no idea. It just happened after Friday. I got home and I've been binging Dynasty and eating while ignoring my phone.
Focusing back to Sarah "I'm sorry, I've been kinda busy" maybe she might believe me
"Oh really? Doing what huh?"
Shit!
"I had some leftover work to do you know and i-"
Sarah cut her off "Quit lying and come unlock your door, I forgot my key."
"What?" I exclaim in shock. Her statement made me jump out of bed because of shock
Well it's Sarah, I'm not surprised
I end the call and make my way to unlock the door and I notice the bag in her hand.
"Liar." She says as she notices my outfit which consists of my pyjamas "Anyway this...! she holds up the bag "is for later, when you bribe me by telling me about your time with Mr Smith"
Our boss. Our boss whom I had sex with.
"It was nothing, you know just sex that's all" I reply, trying to take her mind off it.
"Just sex huh? And you have that after-good sex glow. You just crawled out of bed and you're glowing." She gave me a look as if telling me not to try her
"I always glow, I'm black."
"Well, you're glowing extra. Now let's go you have a lot to tell me" she replied with a slight skip to her movements
She's enjoying this more than she should.
Sarah and I talk for a while, well I did the talking while she interrupts me and makes me repeat myself all over again three more times.
"I'm never going to look at Jax the same way again," Sarah said interrupting me while I was telling her about how he made me read page 135 while he went down on me again at midnight.
"Like I said it was just sex."
"Yeah right. I'm living vicariously through you, I deserve the smutty details no matter how nasty" she said winking at me and laughing
"You're crazy" I laugh along with her
"I'm not the one that had an amazing sex with the hottest man alive. You're so lucky"
My mood gradually switches "Im not lucky, he's my boss and I had sex with him, who does that?" I stated lowly
"So? It happens don't beat yourself up. Besides, it takes two to tango you're not the only one involved." Sarah stated trying to console her friend
"That's what I'm saying Sarah, it happens but not to me. I don't just experience stuff like this as if it is my normal daily routine. I'm not the girl that her boss wants to have sex with and I'm not even the girl that agrees to it"
"Is this why you walked out of his place first thing in the morning and have been holed up inside your house?" She asked slowly as she held onto me while rubbing my shoulder
I sniffle "yeah kinda" I reply as I lean into her
"There will always be regrets baby, but at least you got numerous good orgasms out of this one. Besides, I know there's more to it so tell me everything, talk to me"
I release a sigh and admit to myself that there's no point in hiding it anymore I might as well just tell Sarah... she's my best friend.
I pull away a little to sit up straight and look at her while we talk "I think I like him. I mean you know I've always had a crush on him but that was just a crush. And now these past weeks since he moved here with the late-night texts and calls and now the sex... I think I might like him"
"Well damn. Do you know how he feels about you? Maybe he feels the same way or something?"
"I doubt it," I say
"Why?.. did you ask?"
"Noo! Why will I ask you're the first person I'm even admitting it to"
"So how are you so sure he might not feel the same way?
I sigh and bring out my phone then scroll to the video I watched last night and press play
"So Mr Smith, about your relationship, is there a girlfriend or even an admirer somewhere that we don't know about? The voice from the phone asked.
He laughs lowly "No not at all"
"Wow, it seems like you're still waiting for the right woman." She asks him again
"No, I'm not. It's just not in the books for me"
"Wow! Okay you all heard it from the man himself, directly on your number one news channel. Thank you for joining us today Mr Smith it was nice having you"
"My pleasure. Thank you for having-" the voice cut off as I clicked my phone off and placed it on the table.
He's not even here and his voice gives me shivers
"That's reason enough. But I mean It's just an interview not like people say the truth on that shit right?"
I give her a pointed look.
"Yeah you're right he doesn't feel the same way"
"Not helping Sarah"
"I'm sorry"
I groan out loud "I dunno what to do it's like I'm stuck in my head and I'm lost"
"Do you want to tell him? Do you want him to know how you feel so you can get it off your chest"
"I don't know should I?"
"I feel you should let him know. Whether he meant that interview or not at least you will feel better once you get it off your chest. Even if he doesn't feel the same way it will help you move on faster, you know."
She's right.
"You're right. But I'm scared"
"We all take risks Imaani just put on your big girl pants and tell him how you feel"
"I will, thank you, Sarah"
But not anytime soon...
"You're welcome love"
"I'll be right back let me get dressed and we can leave"
We were going shopping. According to Sarah, I have to bribe her for withholding good information.
I picked up my phone and made my way to Sarah after I showered and got my hair done. I glanced down at my phone as I received a message
Stop ignoring my calls Imaani, we need to talk.
Well damn...
