Ten

"Do you feel sorry for me?"

Amber had walked from the window to lean against the countertop of the kitchen.

"Well, I do. I would be devasted if I was in your situation, I would keep it in and let the worries get to my heart and break down eventually." She watched as he stood up from the couch and slowly turned towards her, walking slowly in her direction. She sucked in a deep breath as he locked her in his gaze.

Her heart began beating fast and her body got a hot rush, she felt her body retract in a sudden jerk as he stood in front of her, his hands now moved to rest on either side of her torso on the counter caging her, and right after her body pushed back to creat the inches of space between their bodies, she wanted his touch. She wanted his hand on hers, and she wanted to see what it felt like. Having someone she suddenly found extremely attractive touched her body which was reacting in ways she had never felt before with anyone else.

It was different, new, the feeling she got as their space lessoned second by second. She felt like she was more than what she thought. She felt more confident in her body which before she was always thinking she was lacking. It was always other women she found staring at, her insecurities filling her mind.

"I see, so you feel sorry for me because you think I have built up my emotions?" his husky voice whispered, Her body felt excited and he could see her neck and cheeks turn visibly red. Her pale skin showed all her expressions. He was surprised by his own acts because he never like his caveman-like acts getting out for any woman. He didn't need to. But with her he wanted to see her eyes change, he wanted to see for far he could go. He never approached a woman and carried the age-old act of amusing them to get in bed. That would go against his better judgment but with her, he wanted to amuse her.

His eyes traveled from her glistening eyes to her lips, her lower lips under a bite and her chest moving up and down. He stared at her face, her expression refusing to give in to her own body.

"I-I-" Amber stuttered yet again gaining an internal smirk from him.

She stuttered and couldn't answer for the first few seconds.

"I don't know what to say right now. I-I don't understand what's going on"

"Well, what do you think? I am trying to let you know how I see your body reacting to this" He said gesturing to the small space between their bodies. And what's going on is me making a pass at you"

Amber's eyes went wide at his honesty.

"What but, why?"

Alex leaned down, his face right in front of her. Amber stared at him intensely. She was turned on and nothing could tell her otherwise. She could barely speak a word, her mind was foggy her she hardly understand what was going on. She never found herself the pretty and confident type. And she knew Alex wasn't the type to go for girls like her, he liked pretty girls, who had no fat on their stomach, no stretch marks, their hair always down at salons, and perfect image.

She was completed in the dark about the sex part. All she had done was try once, satisfy herself once, and then never again. She didn't know anything about seduction. Her nerves suddenly froze, the thought of the excitement, the act itself, and everything about it overwhelmed her. Amber wanted this as much as Alex did. She just couldn't think straight.

She gulped chuckling suddenly and looked away, shifting on her feet.

"I don't think I am the one for that," she said softly, her eyes dropping to the ground in fear that she would disappoint him the minute they try something. She wanted to be reassured, she wanted that assurance that it was going to be fine. It was just one time. This was all against what she always did, there was part in her which hesitated and the other dragged her out and begged her to take it.

"Amber"

She couldn't lift her eyes, but his voice was stern the next time.

"Look at me"

And she obeyed, lifting her eyes up to meet his dark gaze, It cause her nerves to tickle. She gulped and waited for him to speak his next words.

"If there is any hesitation in your decision, tell me and we both walk away from this"

She took her time, his eyes intensely watching her and she finally shook her head. She bites her lip making him crave her even more. Alex nodded leaning back.

"I want to tell you something before this, I can't do relationships"

His face was utterly serious and his words stern. There was a limit he never crossed. The relationships he did, weren't for Amber. She was innocent, she was simple and she had never been to that side of world where people only invested time in bed never outside that space.

He was making sure she knew what she was getting into. He wanted to let her know that he wasn't playing with her, or beating around the bushes. It was all they could see it as, a one-night stand. Nothing more than that, and after this. They would never meet again.

Amber knew what he meant, she knew she was giving her virginity in a one-night stand. She never cared truly for something like losing it. To her, she found this to be just something that her life brought her into. She had a choice, unlike many other situations. And she chose to take it rather than loom over the future.

"Yep, Understood" Amber whispered pulling her lips into a thin line and putting her hands behind her back, her legs felt numb.

"You are not from my type of life either, I wouldn't be in a relationship with someone like you. No offense"

He smiled.

The next few seconds and the movements of what happened were like the wind to her. She had no idea how to break it to him that she was a virgin. That she had never done it and it was all new to her.

"I have been attracted to you the second I saw you" Alex whispered, his fingers touching her ear and pushing her soft hair behind her ear. His hands slowly wrapped around her waist and she sucked in a deep breath. Her body almost turned up in the heat and melted. His head leaned down, she shivered as his hair touched her neck, his head over her shoulder lightly resting as he kept his hand over her waist.

Was this something you felt every time you slept with someone?

The feeling of wanting to be attached, the feeling of being in the warm embrace of that person.

Or was It just her.

And Him.

"Even if, I am not like the girl you are used to" he leaned back, his hand still on her waist. Her hands lightly touched his biceps. She tilted her chin up to stare at him.

"Well, it was the same for you too, wasn't it?"

"I don't know why, I hated you the first time I saw you but then I am suddenly..." He rose his eyebrows at the girl in his arms. That was first for him.

"I am confused how" he laughed as she relaxed in his arms.

"You hurt my ego, Amber"

Her name out of his tongue sounded much more different now. It turned her on, something like making her legs suddenly close tight together. Their eyes met again, she felt like the time stopped, the noise around them suddenly focused only on his breathing, and the view for him was only her. Everything else turned dark. It was like they were on the same page

Not long ago, Amber came to the to busy city from her home town, she wanted her fantasy to come true. Meet someone new, have a relationship. She wanted to meet someone and find a man who loved her. Her fantasy crashed down soon after. She was content with her job. It was hectic but she had accomplished something wanted. But her style, sense of fashion was differnet. Amber was simple, the only time she dressed up was for events.

Women around her were far too confident. They dominated the surroundings with their beautiful faces, perfect figures. She lost her confidence soon after. She was surrounded by people born in high end of the spectrum. They were rich and established, the men around her were in a different. They preferred dinning in expensive resturants, have a first class cusine. Roam to different cites for dates. Amber wasn't like that. She prefered breaking the ice by having simple food at good resturnants. She hated fine dining and wanted someone who apprieticited nature more than parties.

She understood soon after that she wasn't comfortable living alifestyle she only saw as beautiful. Amber stopped thinking of having a realtionship soon after. She had dedicated her life to moving up the ranks in her work and finally working under someone like her boss. Although whatever she did, she never questioned. there was always the small hesitation. She imagined a simple life, not hectic and working on her own terms. But quitting now could destroy everything she did have.

And now, something like him walked in her life so causally. And she didn't care anymore. It was just for one night. For her pleasure. And he was nothing more than that.