Chapter 35

~MICHELLE~

I woke so early the next day after my date with Jace,like you know,it was sort of fun including sleeping in a cuddling position with my boyfriend,his hands were on my waist from behind,he was still sleeping when I woke up,I removed his hands gently from my body because I didn't want to wake him up but I eventually did.

"Ba...be."He said in a very sexy sleepy voice.

Damn....

"Yeah.."I replied.

"Where you going?."

"It's 6:30AM,I need to go home before my mum comes back."I explained.

"Come on,she knows about this sleepover besides Mason is still sleeping,come here,I wanna cuddle."He tapped the bed for me to get back on it.

I obeyed and laid down on the bed and we dozed off again,we woke up by 9:00AM.

Relax,it's not school day.

We took our baths and got dressed so Jace could drop us at our various destinations,don't forget Kim was also part of the sleepover.

We dropped Kim off first and then we headed to my mum's house,"You coming?."I asked Jace.

"No,maybe later."He replied.

"Okay..."I opened the car door to leave when he pulled my hand back gently.

"I love you...."

I couldn't reply him immediately because I still didn't believe that I'm dating the guy that every girl wants.

"You don't love me back?."He asked in a sad tone.

"Ummm...I'm sorry...yeah...I love you too.."I placed a goodbye kiss on his lips before leaving.

"I will text you!!."He said before I shut the car door.

I was the last person to get into the house,"Good morning,mummy."I greeted my mum as soon as I got in.

"Madam,why are you the last to enter the house even Nero that is Jace's bestfriend was the first to get in?."

"Ummmm..."

What's ummm...find a reply to the question na..

"Anyways,your teacher called me,he said you haven't been taking the study  routine with the person he assigned you to seriously."She cut me short before I could reply her last question.

"Mummy,I can study on my own,I don't really need anybody."I replied her.

"You need assistance in your studies,you had an accident for God's sake."

"Which I'm healing from, mummy,I can study on my own,I don't need anybody and besides,the person that it's supposed to be my study guide is a guy."

"A guy?Which boy is that?,do I know him?.She asked.

"Yes, he's Lucas Kalu."

"Lucas?....Lucas...Lucas Kalu...wait,isn't he the guy that saved your life by rushing you to the hospital?."She asked me.

Yeah,he rushed me to the hospital because he was the reason for me almost dying....

"Yes, he's the one."I faked smiled so I wouldn't raise suspicion.

"Wow,he's such a nice guy,after saving you,he also wants to help in your academics."She commented.

If only she knew

"Who's such a nice guy?."I turned to look at my brother who jumped into our conversation.

"Oga,have you fed the dogs?."My mum threw a question at him.

"Yes,I have,mummy,who's a nice guy?."He asked.

"That kind boy that informed us about Michelle's accident."My mum replied him.

Her response made him burst into laughter,a very hearty laughter,"Kind?."He laughed.

"Are we talking about the son of Lucifer or another Lucas?."Mason whispered to only my hearing.

I pinched him to maintain before he would reveal the truth,if the truth was revealed,my mum would kill all of us especially me.

"Is anything the matter?."My mum asked both of us.

"Nothing,it's just that you are underestimating the guy,he's more than kind,mummy."Mason sarcastically said but only me could sense that ofcourse.

"Okay o,anyways,since he's the one,I approve it,you must study with him whether you like it or not,you can study at his place or he can come over."My mum stated before leaving for her room.

"See,the day that boy steps his foot into this house,he will the dog's meal."Mason frowned and left.

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"We are moving forward."Lucas commented after 3 hours of our study session.

I had to obey my mum by allowing Lucas to tutor me again and it was pretty awkward because he kept giving me uncomfortable stares.

"Yeah,we are."I replied as I closed my Government WAEC past questions book.

"So I'm a good tutor, right?."He grinned at me.

"You are not that bad."My statement made his smile drop and giggled because of the facial expression and he smiled again.

"I haven't seen you laugh in awhile and that was satisfying to watch."He commented.

I immediately stopped and faked a cough as I brought out other books from my bag.

"So should I get you something to eat or drink?."He asked in a caring tone.

"No,I'm good,what are we studying next?."I stared at him for a reply.

Silence.

"Lucas..."

Silence.

"Hello...."I waved my hands in front of his face.

Silence.

"Dozie!!!."That was enough for him to zone back into reality.

"I'm so sorry for that,it's just...."

"It's okay."I replied him.

"If you are tired,we can study some other time."I packed my books into my bag,getting ready to leave.

"So you are never gonna forgive me?."

"Can we just drop that issue?."

"No,we can't."He replied.

"Well,that's your business."I said as I stood up.

He stood up as well,his height hovered over mine because he was tall.

"Michelle,we can't keep doing this..., we were friends and we dated,it's not easy for me.."

"And it's my fault,right?,no,it's my fault that we are in the situation we are today."

"I'm not saying that,I know I messed up but please,can't you forgive me or atleast try and talk to Olivia,you know her condition."He pleaded.

"Both of you would have thought of that before doing the deed!."I spat out.

"It's not easy to be in the same room with your ex-bestfriend and girlfriend...it's not."He stated.

"And it's not easy for me either,I was forced to come here,if I had a choice,I would stay miles away from you."

"Michelle,you got to....,excuse me."He answered whoever called him.

"Wait,what?!,please don't say or do anything,just watch her and keep me updated,I'm on my way."He ended the call.

He went to his drawer and brought his car keys,"Not that you care or anything but Ollie is in trouble,I gotta go."He ran out.

He came back within the blink of an eye,"Do you wanna come?,maybe you can help,if you want to come tho."He said in a rush.

I nodded and followed him,we got into his car and he drove out of his compound and estate.

"What kind of trouble is she in?."I asked calmly.

"It's not I don't tell you,maybe you should see for yourself."He replied.

I went quiet but my mind still wondered on what was going on with Olivia.

In less than 15 minutes,we got to her place because her house wasn't that far from Lucas.

We got out of the car and rushed in as if his wife was in labour.

I wonder if he did that when I had my accident.

I walked slowly into her house.

Wow,great,first I entered Lucas's house and now, Olivia's.

Her house brought back so many memories to me, flashbacks that made a tear drop from my eyes.

I went upstairs to her room,I could hear Lucas begging a female and also a girl crying.

Olivia?.

When I opened the door,I saw her with a knife,Lucas and one of the maids were in the room.

"What the hell?!."I asked in shock.

"Ollie,please drop the knife,please don't do this to me."He pleaded but she kept crying.

"Olivia,biko,don't do this,what will oga and madam say when they find out that their daughter killed herself."The maid pleaded.

"Why do you want to kill yourself?."Lucas asked.

"I'm tired...I can't...if I die... everything will be okay for everybody,I won't feel this pain no more..."She cried bitterly.

She looked so pale,her face had eye bags,her hair was messy.

Why does she want to kill herself.

"I know this isn't the way to speak to someone who's suicidial but why do you want to kill yourself?,are you even thinking at all?,if you die,it's the people that you left behind that will feel the pain and you will suffer in hell,I hope you know that."I said to her angrily.

"Michelle.... stop."Lucas replied.

"You don't know how I feel,you don't,I'm a problem to everybody,the most important drug to me,I lost it,how am I supposed to be happy,I ruined everybody's life,my parents,my ex-boyfriend,my ex-bestfriend and the guy I fell in love with doesn't love me back and it's all my fault."She cried.

I turned to face the maid,"Please can you excuse us?."I asked politely.

"Yes but I hope she go dey okay(I hope she will be alright?)."She asked.

"Yes,she will."Lucas assured her and she left.

"What's the drug?You can always get another one and about Mason,you didn't ruin his life,you were his karma,he played multiple girls and when he fell in love,you played him so that's not a problem besides he's happy with Kim now,they make a good couple."I stated.

"Not helping.."Lucas glared at me.

"And oh,about me,this whole suicide thing is quite ironic,don't you think?."I sarcastically asked them as I laughed.

"Nothing is funny!."Lucas balled his fist.

"Oh,you are angry now,relax,I'm not making this situation worst,I'm just helping.."I laughed.

"You are trying to kill yourself when I'm the one who is supposed to be holding that knife on my wrist or with a rope to strangle myself or even drink poison,you know why?."I paused,they both stared at me like a psycho.

"Unlike other kids with a blissful childhood,I never had one,I had a monster as a father,I lost my eldest brother,I lost my younger brother who never got a chance into this world,my boyfriend used me,my bestfriend betrayed me,I was in coma for weeks,I was almost raped and now,I'm not doing well in my academics because of the accident,now tell me,who's supposed to be holding that knife because I'm not sure you have insomnia or you are scared to sleep because of nightmares or flashbacks and here you telling me you wanna kill yourself,why?!, because you betrayed me,oh,no,sweetie,don't do that,you aren't suicidal,you are just guilty and that serves you....."

"Enough!!!."Lucas yelled at me.

"I didn't bring you here to make things worst for us."

"Why can't you just let go?,Why do you keep grudges for so long,you know why you have nightmares or flashbacks because you don't want to let go and move on,you are letting the past to haunt you."He spoke in anger.

"Please,stop..."Olivia said weakly.

"I'm the cause of this...I'm always the cause."She cried.

"No,Ollie,don't say that,you aren't."Lucas petted her.

I scoffed at their sight,"Look,if you don't want to forgive,then you can leave for good,you can keep the hatred in your heart."He glared at me.

"You are never gonna realize the damage,are you?."My voice shaked.

"I never did anything wrong to both of you,I was a good friend to both of you but you hurt me for no reason."I cried as I broke down.

"You hurt me because of Jace."I said to Lucas.

"And you hurt me because you misunderstood the situation."I said to Olivia.

"I'm so sorry,Michelle."She cried as she dropped the knife.

"I regret everything up till now,I shouldn't have,you were my bestfriend,you were always there for me but I was a fool,I fell in love with Lucas and when I saw he had interest in you,I had to move on with Mason but then I misunderstood the situation and I'm so sorry,I know you can't forgive or trust me but I'm not asking for any of that,I just want another new beginning between us."She pleaded as she wiped her tears.

"I don't want another beginning with any of you."I replied bitterly and that made Lucas very angry.

"Oh my God,why are you like this?,are you going to keep holding back this grudge,it's not healthy for any of us,for God's sake, forgive and maybe forget."Lucas said.

"No."

"Why because you are with Jace and you are scared your twin brother and your boyfriend are gonna be mad at you and probably call you stupid for forgiving us but that's their business,it's your life and you are supposed to make your own choices."He replied.

"I know what I did was horrible,it was more than horrible and I regret it,I made you suffer for no reason and I almost lost you,if you had died,I don't know what would have happened,things would have been upside down for everybody and whatever guilt,Olivia is feeling,mine would have been worst,what am I even saying?!,mine is worst because I hurt you the most and I'm deeply sorry,I'm not gonna deny the fact that you never know the value of something or someone until you loose it is very true because I'm in love with you,everytime I see you,I always have mixed emotions and I'm saying this so you can like me because you are already with Jace,your one true love,I'm just trying to fix things but if you don't want to,then it's cool, atleast I know I tried."He ended his speech.

"Maybe we might have a chance for another new beginning but it can't be the same because of you are too toxic for me."I said and walked out of the house,not giving them a chance to reply.