Chapter 38

~MICHELLE~

When I got home after I told my school security and principal that I wasn't feeling well,they let me go home,maybe because of the marks on my body even though they were still hurting,I cared less,it can't be compared to my shattered heart.

My mum wasn't at home when I got home,so I went straight to my room to think about my life,the moment I stepped into my room,I cried,it was as if my eyes was just like a tap waiting to be opened to pour our water.

I thought of different things,multiple things.

I will never be good enough for anybody.

I didn't bother to open my phone to check the class group chat because I know I was going to see worst things that might make me suicidal.

I tried to sleep but Cassandra's words kept ringing in my ears and I kept seeing his face whenever I closed my eyes.

I thought my dad was the worst male I have ever met then I met Lucas and then I said,“He's worst than my dad” but I guess I underestimated Jace,what was I thinking?!He was or is a player,so the fun times we had were fake?.

Tears kept dropping out of my eyes,I started sweating and shivering at the same time,I guess the beating and heartbreak was about to give high temperature or fever.

Nobody was at home so I struggled to go to my mum's room to get drugs,I took the drugs and went back to my room to sleep,trying to forget about everything and everyone.

One thing was certain,relationships or love isn't for everybody and it's definitely not for me so I'm not done with.

People like Jace might grow up to be like those men whose weddings are already scattered because one of their side chicks came to expose them.

I took my sleeping pills and dozed off when I woke up,it was already dark like 7:15PM,I guess I overslept,when I opened my eyes,I saw Maya sitting besides me on my bed.

"How are you feeling?."She asked.

"What do you mean?."

"I heard what happened,at first I was angry and surprised that you could do that to Lucas but I guess Jace had worst skeletons in his cupboard."She replied me.

"Okay...I want to be alone,please go."I told her,I wasn't in the mood to talk about him or anything related to it.

"By the way, mummy said whenever you wake up,you should see her."She said before leaving my room.

I stood up and went downstairs to meet my mum and yeah,the second hypocrite and devil whom I shared a womb with was in the living room as well.

"Good evening,ma."I greeted coldly.

"Why did you leave school early?."She questioned.

"I wasn't feeling too well."I replied her.

She touched my neck with hand,"You are burning,come let me give you drugs."

"I have already taken."

"Okay."She replied and went back to my room.

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~JACE~

Everybody has their own side or a part of a story to tell, although I ended hurting her,it was never intentional.

Cassandra finally got what she wanted,her plan to shatter my relationship worked and it's my fault.

I slowly opened my eyes and I was welcomed with a banging headache,I raised my head slowly to notice the environment or wherever I was,I was certainly not in my room or any of the homies room,all I remembered was Leo,Mason and I decided to attend a party,I got super drunk and followed a girl to a room.

When the word GIRL rang in my head,I slowly turned in shock to the girl laying besides,I immediately checked the duvet and realized I was naked underneath,infact I was completely naked,I didn't notice because I was used to sleeping with a top or singlet.

I silently prayed that I didn't end up hooking up with a total stranger or Michelle,it couldn't be her because she's not really a fan of parties based on everytime,she was in one,things didn't end well but I still prayed,I didn't want to take a virginity yet,I was drunk,maybe I went super hard on her,I was supposed to take it slow and easy that's if she's the one,I was still contemplating on turning the girl on the bed when she sleepily turned around to face me and she was Cassandra.

"Good morning..."She greeted as she stretched her body.

"Morning."I greeted her back.

"I need to know something,did we?..."I asked her.

"Yeah,we did,you were super drunk last night but I wasn't."

"So you took advantage of my state."I looked at her.

"No,I didn't,we were in the mood to make out,you made an offer and I accepted."She smirked.

"I was drunk."

"I liked it,your drive is usually different when you are drunk or high,you kept telling me not to stop when I rode you like a horse."

"That was a mistake,I'm in so much trouble,what if she finds out?."

"Who?."

"My girl."

"You mean Michelle?."

"So you are still into her,what do you even gain from that relationship?,baby,look at me,I give you everything and you know that."She caressed my face.

"By everything,you mean sex,it's not always about that,Cassy."I pushed her gently away.

"So you just gonna dump me?."

"I don't know."

"I can't even remember anything from last night,I hope I don't get you pregnant."

"So you are scared?."

"I'm not scared for myself,I'm scared for you, females are the ones who suffers the most."I looked at her in pity.

"Stop worrying,I'm not gonna get pregnant."

"I'm gonna get you one day,I promise."She placed a kiss on my lips  before I could stop her.

When she got out of the bed,she was completely naked and for some reason, he got hard,I tried to hide it but her sharp eyes caught and she smirked.

She crawled back on the bed with her big breasts distracting my eyes.

I gasped when I realized what she just did,"Stop."I said in a low tone.

She smirked,she knew my weak spot too well,"You have lost your authoritative sexy voice,did I make you weak?."

"We can't do this."

"Why?."

"Because I have a girlfriend and I love her."

"Well,I don't care."She didn't give me a chance to speak before sitting on it.

"Fu....ck..,Ca..ssy..stop."

When I realized,she wasn't gonna stop bouncing on it,I had to raise her ass and get up from the bed and when I successfully did that,she was wet as hell.

"We can't do this anymore,yeah,we have done the dirty in the past,that was before I started dating her but now,I'm in a happy relationship and I don't care if I have sex or not,it doesn't really matter to me when I'm around her so please what happened yesterday was a mistake and you raped me few minutes ago,so stop,this is done."I told her,I wore my clothes and walked out of the room,ignoring whatever shit she was saying.

Yeah,that was the mistake that ruined the relationship that I was trying to build with her,I do love but there's no way she's going to believe that,not after everything.

Her ex boyfriend is probably poisoning her mind,they always make me the villain in their story,I'm always the bad guy.

Mason knew about everything,I wanted to tell her but he advised me not to, Michelle wasn't really the type that handled shock so easily so we decided to keep it a secret.

Having a bad past doesn't really matter as long as you try to be a better person in the present and future right.?

~MICHELLE~

I noticed that the Juniors refused to plait their head,some packed their hair in a bun while some had funny hairstyles on their head but I couldn't punish them because SS3 girls did the same,it would be wrong to punish them when the seniors were guilty as well.

You are probably wondering why I'm so quiet or numb because I got my hair broken,I'm just trying to do things that will distract me,I was going to do my job as a prefect.

I gathered the guilty ones in a corner as my classmates and the other classes marched to their class.

"I don't know why you all refused to plait your hair but I don't care,I don't want to see these funny things on your hair tomorrow,you can go."I said briefly and dismissed them.

I climbed the stairs to my class,I was going to tell my classmates the same,I started with Commercial class,then my class and it was Science class left.

You can actually just ignore it,it's not your business if they make their hair or not.

I ignored the voice inside me and walked into Science class,I composed myself since I have been the topic of discussion for awhile now.

Not the first time tho.

Immediately I got into the class,I made eye contact with him,it was as if he knew I was coming and he has been waiting for me to enter his class,I broke the eye contact.

"I'm here to make an announcement."That was enough to get everybody's attention especially the nerds.

"Please,I want to address the girls,we all in SS3 and we are the seniors of this school,we are supposed to lead by example,I noticed that some of us decided not to make their hair."I spoke to them in a polite tone.

"I'm not going to ask why you didn't but please try and plait your hair today when you get home."I said.

I was about to leave the class when he's so called girlfriend walked in.

"Cassandra,you weren't around when I made the announcement,try and plait your hair when you get home today."I told her.

"Since when,did you become Head girl?, Kimberly is busy sitting down,you are announcing as if she passed her power to you."She replied harshly.

"I'm the social prefect,so I have every right to make announcement."

"Look,my hair isn't a problem,so please leave it alone."

"When I made the announcement to others,they didn't complain,just plait your hair tomorrow or else."

"Or else what?!."She eyed me.

"For someone who has been through a lot lately,I thought you would care about your issues and how to deal with them instead you are here forming activity in the name of hair or you just wanted to come to this class to see him,I thought by now,you would hide your face or probably be in a corner hiding."She spat out.

"Whatever,you are talking about has nothing to do with the announcement."

"I feel so bad for you,you weren't good enough,if you were,the males or your ex boyfriends wouldn't have left you,they left just like your dad."She laughed bitterly.

"Cassandra!!."Mason yelled from his seat but I had already replied a statement with a heavy slap.

"Just because you can get boys, doesn't mean they actually like you,you are just pinning them down because you are a full time ashewo(prostitute)."I said to angrily.

The whole class gasped,some even laughed but I could care less,if she wants to fight,I will give it to her.

She slapped me back,"How dare you call me a prostitute?!,are you mad?."

"I don't know why you are feeling bad or did I insult you where it hurts most,you are an olosho(prostitute),accept it."I eyed her.

"You are very very stupid,bastard."

"It is your future child that will be a bastard."I replied her insult back.

What I said really hurt her,she was about to attack me when her boyfriend came.

"Stop arguing!."He ordered.

"You should refer that statement to your girlfriend,she's the mad one trying to start a fight."I eyed both of them.

"Don't say that."He looked at me.

Cassandra smiled,she liked the way he defended her.

"I will say whatever I want,it's my mouth and not yours,why won't you support her,like boyfriend like girlfriend,ashewo and gigolo(male prostitute)."I spat out.

"So you really think so low of me?,you know what?!Fuck this,you both can fight and tear your heads out,I don't care."He walked out of the class.

"If you like,don't plait your hair,come to school with your hair like Devil's horn,you will know my level of craziness."I gave her a dirty look before leaving their class.

Thank Goodness,there was staff meeting holding so I didn't bother going back to my class,I decided to go to an empty classroom,even though,I acted un phased,what she said really hurt me,it reminded me of what happened.

When I got to the class,I saw him sitting in a corner,his eyes were red,he looked so depressed and charming at the same time.

I turned my back to leave when he called,"Muffin,please wait."

He called me, Muffin.

I turned around to face him,he stood up and walked to me, everything about him still attracted me including the way,he walked.

He isn't yours anymore.

"Don't call me that,I don't like it."I looked away.

"Okay,I won't."He replied as his face dropped.

"I'm sorry."

"Don't be, she's right,I'm not good enough for anybody and it's okay,it was just foolish on my part to think you really liked me and wanted me."I said.

"You are wrong,she's wrong,I really like you,it was a very stupid mistake and ever since then,she's been using it against me,please."He held my hands.

When our hands touched,my heart skipped,I removed my hands immediately.

"We don't really have to be together,it's okay,I'm never gonna be anybody's first choice so let's be friends,I wouldn't want to ruin you and my brother's relationship,it's not as if he ever supported me anyways."I tried to hold back the tears.

"Please,don't do this."He begged.

"What we had was a mistake and it's okay,besides you aren't going to study in this country,you are leaving soon,so this is just a waste of time."

"I can't loose you to him."

"Lucas?,you really think I'm going to run to him when you hurt me and when he hurts me,I will run to you,nay,I have learnt my lesson."

"Muffin...sorry...Michelle... please,I don't want to loose you,I can't,I have been having nightmares,you are like my drug,you are the one who makes me sane and happy."

"You should have thought of that when you did it."

"I was drunk."

"That's just an excuse,look,I can't just forgive you overnight,I'm also hurt as well."

"But you don't look like you are hurt,you look okay to me."

"That's because I'm trying to act okay,I'm not,I have been through alot and I don't want this to weigh me down,I'm broken...."I cried,he wrapped his body around mine.

"I'm sorry for making us go through this."He apologized.

"I'm not saying you should instantly forgive me but I'm going to make things right,I promise."He hugged me tightly.

I sniffed his scent and he smelt amazing,I pulled away,I wiped my tears.

"I have to go."

"See you later at home,I guess."

"Okay."

I walked out of the class,I haven't forgiven him yet,I just felt bad for him but he hurt me so it might take awhile,I'm always normal during the day but at night,I'm left with my suicidal thoughts.

I'm not good enough.