Chapter 15 Want to seduce me

* Anna’s Pov *

After Blaze left, I came back to the room he called my room; I locked myself inside this room; I wanted to be alone at that moment, currently; I was sitting on the carpet, hugging my knees,

Thinking about what he said, I finally lost my cool, but suddenly I turned calm, too calm, unusual like me.

I don’t know if I should pity my fate or laugh at my fucked up luck; long-lost love came back but turned into a nightmare; I wanted to marry a man to save my father, complete planning.

I planned how to kill myself on the wedding night before my marriage, but got kidnapped by my ex-lover and tried to run away, but he caged me in an ocean. Nowhere to run. And finally, he blackmailed me into marrying him.

I don’t know how an average person would react in this situation, but my mind completely lost sense.

I am a loud and nosy person, but suddenly I feel my brain frozen like December’s snow.

I was thinking about how to die, but here he caged me inside this castle.

After thinking for a few hours, my brain gave up; it told me that if I want to die, why are you making me so tired?

But my heart was thinking something else, after so long when I finally met him, only I know how I felt at that moment. I loved the boy, just a 22-year-old college student, yet he changed for good or bad, I don’t know. But seeing him with an unfamiliar feeling happening in my heart, maybe my hatred and disappointment to cover that feeling at that moment, but in this darkness and silence, I can't see anything other than his handsome face.

The sharpness and the manly scent I can't get out of them from my head. How could I? I was crazy over this man, totally insane?

Even when a girl looked at him at that time, I fought with that girl. At one time, when I started chasing after him, my teacher caught me on the spot reading how to seduce your boyfriend''.

Seriously, thinking this, I'm feeling so embarrassed, but when my teacher asked me why I read that book in anger.

In front of 2 teachers and full classes of students, I said

''I'm going to seduce Blaze and make him mad with my love, “the whole call laughed for at least 30 minutes.

My teacher also laughed like crazy; this news speed in fire speed, he also heard the news. But he did the opposite from everyone, he came to my class and asked me in front of everyone “ so, you want to seduce me? You better seduce me hard and make me fall in love with you madly. After that, everyone knew us as a crazy couple.

Thinking back, I want to go back to that time, how lovely and straightforward our life was, with no worry and free from every tension.

But it was like someone cursed my life after he left me. Why? I want this answer because this has made me crazy these past five years.

I would be happy if he broke up with me straight away, but he left so silently that this silence killed me.

But what should I do? My heart started bleeding again, but I don't want to admit a bitter truth, my heart to feel, it suddenly knows to feel pain and wants to be loved.

I mind telling myself not to trust him, but my heart screams for him as if the love button, which I switched off five years ago, suddenly turned on after seeing him.

Why? I'm not too fond of this word the most in my life because this word might be simple, but when a person’s life is stuck in a puzzle with this world with no answer, this word becomes the most painful word.

I wouldn't say I like this feeling; I hate myself for being so helpless in front of this man.

“Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh’’ I screamed; I wanted to let out the feeling from my heart; otherwise, I don't know how long I could hold myself back from throwing myself in his arms.

Suddenly, I heard a knock at the door. “Madam, it’s dinnertime; please open the door; if you want, we can deliver your dinner inside the bedroom." A woman said from the other side of the door.

I felt a little irritated. I'm not too fond of it if someone disturbs me when I try to be alone; my mother also likes this stubbornness because I'm still alive after five years; these five years, I wanted to kill myself many times. Yet, I don’t know how, but she seems to read my mind and always appeared when I tried to give up.

That’s why God created a mother; no matter how much you hide from the world, you can never hide from your mother because a child with his/her has a unique connection.

That’s how my mother is; she is my best friend. Even when I wrote my first love letter, she helped me; she even made a covert mission to meet Blaze.

Thinking these things, my heart became heavy once again, one side my painful love and another side my family.

She even went on hunger strike for one week when I agreed to marry Dylan; she always used to tell me, Blaze just left for a while, he will come back for me; in these five years, she never let me forget Blaze as if she knew Blaze would come back, she was so confident. Even though I believed her for three years, I slowly lost faith in that belief.

Once again, the maids started banging on the door, and I came back to my senses.

I irritatedly got up and went inside the bathroom, ignoring their non-stop requests.

I took a shower to sober up on these feelings.

I am a sluggish person; I somehow dried my hair because I don’t want to lose my hair or ruin my hair; that’s why.

I jumped on the bed like a wrestler and dragged the blanket over my head, and tried to fall asleep, and soon sleep danced in my eyes.

I am always like this: when my brain is fried with tension or feeling confused with many things, sleep is the only thing I feel best about at that moment.

So it is also the only thing that comes and goes as I wish.

Soon I lost all thoughts, and sleep took over my mind and body.

I don’t know when I suddenly felt something warm on my neck, and the feeling was too good the familiar scent; I turned toward the direction to get more of the emotion.

And the breathing fell on my face. Without thinking, I did something I never wanted to do in my conscious mind.

* Blaze’s Pov *

After I left the so-called house of mine, I came straight to my home, yes my home with Anna,

As I entered inside, I saw all the maids and guards were standing there, lowering their heads in guilt and fear.

Seeing them, I looked at the head butler “what happened? I asked casually.

Because I already could guess exactly what was happening there, I knew this would happen after all.

“ Sir, madam locked herself inside the bedroom after you left, and no matter how much we tried, she did not respond to any of us; she even skipped the dinner, “ the head butler explained with details.

I looked at my hand watch; it’s already 12:45 am; I know she might fall asleep; she never sleeps late because this is a habit of hers; her sleep comes no matter how sad and angry she is.

“ It’s okay, you all can go. “I dismissed everyone,

The head butler looked reluctant to go; I looked at him blandly “ what happened? Do you want to say anything? I asked.

“ Sir, should we serve dinner to you? “he said.

“ It's okay; I will not eat right now. One thing, everyone, if Anna misses her meals, cooks nothing for me, I will eat when she eats and everything she eats’’ I said to them and walked out of the castle.

I called my men and told them to arrange a ladder for me. I climbed up with the leader and entered our Room through the window where Anna was sleeping.

I already knew she would lock the door from inside, so I climbed from the window, but I strictly ordered them to hide the ladder after I climbed up.

After all, this rabbit of mine was so cunning; she will try to run around and hurt herself after falling from this height.

As I entered the bedroom, I faced nothing other than darkness.

But I knew everything and taking the lead, I walked inside the bathroom and took a quick shower, just like washing my body. I went back to the bedroom.

I walked to the bed and climbed on the bed, making no sounds or movements.

And saw her sleeping, covering her face inside the blanket; I moved the blanket from her face, her face covered with sweats, this stubborn girl.