Chapter 20

Chapter 20

I don't know why I'm crying right now. He’s so annoying! I shouldn't be crying! What I'm crying for is not worth it so I shouldn't be crying like this! But why can't I stop myself from getting hurt?

Why am I here now in the bathroom crying alone? I don't even understand myself anymore. It seems like just the other day I was crying because I wanted to leave this place and be with my Mommy but now, I'm crying because of something so useless.

I turned on the faucet even louder so no one could hear me crying inside. It's just sad to think that now that I want to help, when now that I want to be a part of this place Damon will interfere.

Why? Is it bad that I organize his brother's death anniversary? Or the girl he first loved? I chuckled to myself. Is that really what I'm crying about or something else? Am I crying because I have confirmed that until now there is a woman...that Damon loves?

But I shouldn't care about that! But why am I hurting?! My only role here is to act as his Luna and the Queen of his kingdom but why do I seem to want something else? This is so frustrating!

"Luna?" I was stunned when I heard Anna outside the bathroom. I turned off the faucet to hear her clearly.

"Miss Britney Flurry is now waiting for you in the library, Luna." Anna notified me. I sighed. I should stop crying. Let it be Damon. Next time I will never interfere with what he wants.

He is right. It's none of my business. I'm only here because I have to fill his side. That's all I've got, and I shouldn't go any further.

"I'm coming!" I said and adjusted myself in front of the mirror. I combed my hair using my fingers and put a little powder on my face. After finishing, I followed Anna to visit Britney.

When my session with Britney started, I insisted on listening to her. She explained a lot to me. All of that is about my purpose and duty as queen of the kingdom and mate of the Alpha.

“Being Luna of a large pack is a big responsibility. It requires absolute power and strength. As a Luna, you will be the main source of strength for the Alpha, so you have to be keen and intelligent in making decisions. You also have to support the Alpha no matter what,” she explained.

Am I the main source of strength of the Alpha? I doubt it. I may have a strong bond with Damon but from what I can see in his eyes he has another woman as his source of strength and it's not me.

When I finished my session with Britney, I immediately saw Anna waiting for me. I stared at her.

"Anna...can we go outside? I wanna stroll around," I said.

"But the last time you went outside—"

"I promised I won't do it again! Please…Anna!” I almost begged her. I just really don't want to go to Damon's room right now. I feel that anger will form in my chest again when I see him. I feel like I will cry again when I see him.

"Fine...but we'll make it fast, okay?" she negotiated. I sighed and nodded. I wish we could spend longer, but maybe Anna won't let me if I say that.

Somehow, I felt relaxed when Anna accompanied me to the small flower garden just behind the palace. We were still inside the high fence of the palace, but this cool and fresh air was enough to lighten my mood even a little.

"Who owns this garden?" I asked Anna. The flowers are so beautiful. It has different colors, and it is obvious that the owner takes care of it carefully.

"Actually, your mother owns it..." I was stunned by what Anna said. I suddenly remembered a memory where Mommy often bought flowers to take care of in our yard.

"Mom owns it?" I couldn't believe what she said.

"When she was still living in the palace, Alpha Devon allowed her to plant flowers because it was a favorite of the former Luna Solidad, your mother. But now that your mother can no longer live here, I continued to take care of it," Anna said.

I turned to her and smiled. "Thank you so much for taking care of it, Anna," I said with full sincerity. Anna smiled widely. "I owe a lot to your mother, Luna. If it wasn't for her, I wouldn't be in this palace. If it wasn't for her…I might have been sold to another pack and maybe something terrible happened to me,” she said as her eyes glowed in delight.

"How did Mom help you? Can you tell me about it?” I asked. I've known for a long time that Mommy has a big heart. So, it's no wonder that my mommy once became a Luna in this kingdom.

Anna told me how she used to struggle. She was a peasant. Homeless and orphaned. But one day an old man became interested in her and wanted to buy her and bring her to his pack to make her a sex slave. But mommy came. On that day, Alpha Devon and Luna Solidad returned to the city of the kingdom and helped Anna. And as a thank you, Anna volunteered to serve at the palace free of charge. She promised Mom to take care of everything.

"I also promised your mother that until from her daughter, I will serve her with all my heart," Anna said sweetly. I can't help feeling sorry for what happened to her. It turns out that Anna didn't go through an easy road before she got to this palace.

"But...I am not Alpha Devon's daughter. I am the daughter of my Mommy's other man..." I said sadly.

"As long as you're her daughter I will serve you no matter what," she assured me. I felt more comfortable with what she said and looked at the flowers planted there.

My mother was also once a Luna of this kingdom. I wonder what she was like when she was a Luna? What could she have done to help Damon's brother? Do they both get along? Or...did they love each other?

Soon Anna and I were ready to go back inside the palace, but I was surprised when I saw Damon's angry face as soon as I entered the grand hall of the palace. I also noticed the scattered guards around. There were also some in their wolf form as if an emergency had occurred.

"Where the fuck were you, Athena?" I can feel his seething anger through his words. I didn't understand what happened, so I answered. “In the garden—”

"Stone, bring Anna to her cell," Damon's words widened my eyes. I froze when I saw how the guards arrested Anna! Anna was just silent. She didn't even flinch or break free from the grip of Damon's men.

"What the hell are you doing?!" I almost shouted that in Damon's face. I don't know why he is suddenly like this! As far as I know, I should be the one who is angry here!

"I have only one rule to Anna, Athena..." he came to me and held my arm tightly. “…it was to never let you go outside without my permission. And she broke it. She knows what she'll gonna face inside her cell,"