Chapter 33

Chapter 33

I woke up early the next day. I only felt sadness when I didn't see Damon by my side. I don't know how to start my day. I want to talk to Damon, but I don't know where to find him. I want him to tell me his problems.

I will listen to him even if what he says may hurt me. That's how much I want to understand him. I will bear the pain if necessary. Because I seriously want to stay by Damon's side.

After I finished showering and dressing, we went straight to the dining room. I was stunned to see Jules sitting there and eating quietly. Jules Simson...he's Damon's rival with Neticia. I don't know if I will be happy or sad with that knowledge.

He turned to me, but I didn't even look at him and went straight to my seat. While the waitresses were preparing my food, I couldn't help but stare at Damon's chair, which was now empty.

Where is he? Where did he go? Why is it that whenever he has a problem, he takes it all on himself? Is my presence really useless in the palace that he doesn't think I can listen to him? I looked at my food sadly. I know….I'm not Neticia. I can't put colors on the entire palace. I can't make Damon happy.

"Didn't Damon come home?" Jules suddenly asked. I stopped eating and looked at him. He looks like Damon and there is no denying that they are cousins. I just can't bear to look at him because I hate him for no specific reason.

I didn't say a word and just drank the juice that the waitress poured for me.

"You're pitiful. I just told Damon yesterday about for not protecting Neticia and he just left his Luna alone…” he laughed. I clenched my jaw. I couldn't stop holding my spoon tightly.

But...he was right. Damon did not come home maybe because of what Jules said to him. A sign that Neticia still has a great impact on Damon.

"If I were you, I'll leave this place and replace that man with someone new," he suggested. I looked up at him. I know his anger maybe because he really loved Neticia so much that he couldn't accept that she died at the hands of Damon and Alpha Devon. I can't blame him but messing with Damon's mind and hurting him is something I can't accept.

"I will never leave Damon, Jules," I said firmly. I stared at him coldly. I saw the raising of one of his eyebrows at me.

"Really? Even he loves someone else?” he challenged me. Damon loves someone else. I know that. But he told me he loved me too, didn't he? I would grip even with that faintness of hope. I will never get tired of staying by Damon's side no matter what. Damon is all I have so no matter what happens I will not leave him.

"I'll pursue him until he loves me too," I said seriously and stood up. He followed me with his gaze. "I'm done eating," I announced and stormed out of the dining area. Anna followed me. I stayed in the library all day with Britney and Anna. But I feel like my mind is not there. My mind can't stop thinking about Damon.

That's why when Britney's discussion ended, I told Anna to follow me to find Damon. I thought of Stone first, so I asked Anna where Stone's office was. Anna immediately told me that, so we went straight there. But we hadn't quite gotten there when I saw Damon walk into a room.

"Where is he going, Anna?" I asked Anna in surprise. I turned to Anna and saw her staring dumbfounded at where Damon had entered. We were hiding behind a wall so I'm sure Damon didn't see or feel us.

"Is there something wrong?" I asked Anna. She looked away and headed. "That room was...Neticia's room..." she said softly. I was stunned by what she said. I felt the cold flow through my whole body. I felt a pain in my heart. And maybe because of frustration and mixed feelings I ran away from there even though I knew Anna was calling me.

Just now I was ready to talk to Damon to comfort him. But…I didn't think I would be so hurt by what I saw. It was as if I had been stabbed with a million knives because this proved that I still have no place in Damon's heart.

I didn't realize that my feet took me to the flower garden. Under the orange sky, I sat opposite the flower garden. I am trying to hold my tears. I don't want to cry. I don't want to cry. Because I am so pathetic to hope he has the slightest feeling for me. But...I was wrong. Maybe he will never love me because Neticia will always be irreplaceable inside his heart.

"Our Luna...is alone in this secluded area. Alpha probably doesn't care about you," I heard someone say. Without looking at who it is I already know. It was Jules.

"Leave me alone," I said firmly. But I felt him getting closer to where I was sitting.

"You were so brave earlier. Where did that bravery go?” he mocked. My anger at this man just filled up even more!

"Can you please leave me alone?!" I raised my tone to him. We looked at each other. He raised an eyebrow while I looked at him badly.

“Fine. I won't push your button anymore...but I will still stay here," he insisted. I looked at him and just looked back at the flowers.

"You and Neticia were very different..." he said. What he said only irritated me more.

"Because we are different!" I can't help but be pissed.

"I know. And maybe that's why Alpha Damon can't set his eyes towards you," he said bluntly. Damn him! He really wanted to make me look like Damon would never love me!

"And maybe this attitude of yours was the reason why Neticia can't like you back," I said harshly. He was stunned by what I said. The smile disappeared from his lips. His lips pursed and stared coldly at me. But my eyes also remained cold towards him.

"You're good at finding information huh?" he said and chuckled without humor.

"Let's be honest here Jules. I know you and Damon's past," I said.

"Well, you're right. I loved Neticia. And that's why, until now, Alpha Damon and I can't get along," he said. "And I believe it's Alpha Devon and Alpha Damon’s fault. Actually, from this moment I can erase you from this world so that Alpha Damon can experience how to lose a mate…” My eyes widened at what he said.

Not for the reason that he wanted to kill me but for the truth that he told me. His mate was…

"Yes...Luna Athena...I was mated to Neticia,"