Chapter 57

Ashton

"Where are we going?" I asked Zie in confusion, he was forcing me to get dressed so that we could leave but he did not tell me where we were going.

"You forgot already?" He asked me in disbelief which caused me to frown.

"Aw, it's your birthday?" I asked with my voice full of uncertainty.

"What? No." He replied his eyes widen.

"Um, it's your company's anniversary?" I asked again and swallowed my saliva when Zie looked at me seriously, the kind of look that says I should stop messing with him. If looks could kill, then I'm ash right now.

"You're so horrible at remembering things." He said in frustration.

"But I don't remember what we'll be doing or where we'll be going today," I said and scratched my head, I tried to go back to what happened to me the other day but nothing entered my mind even the slightest clue. I heard Zie's weak breathing as if he was giving up on me guessing what was going on today.

"You have an appointment with doc Ramon today." He said seriously, my brows furrowed at what he said.

"What? But I'm okay now. I don't have to go back to doc Ramon's clinic." I replied but he just stared at me with narrowed eyes and crinkle nose.

"Don't lie to me, I know you're still having nightmares at night." He said.

"We're all having dreams at night, even you," I replied and he didn't seem to like my answer because his stare at me suddenly deepened.

"We're still going. Get up and wear your comfortable clothes." Zie commanded in a baritone voice and immediately turned his back on me. I could do nothing but stand up and get dressed.

About half an hour later we reached doc Ramon's clinic, just like before we were sitting on the couch waiting for Doc Ramon's session to end.

"Hey Zie, how's your company? Lately, you don't seem to be coming to your office anymore, I don't want you to neglect your responsibility just because you are always with me." I said as I lay down on the couch we were sitting on, I lay my head on his massive legs while he is combing my hair.

"My company's doing fine, don't worry." That's his only reply.

Moments later the door of the clinic opened and Doc Ramon came out along with a woman with reddish eyes and seemed to have just recovered from a crying.

Zie and I immediately stood up and greeted doc Ramon.

"Come in." Doc Ramon ordered, Zie and I immediately looked at each other.

"Are we gonna come inside or is it only Ashton?" Zie asked.

"Yes, you will be with Ashton this time." Doc Ramon replied not looking back at us and went straight into the clinic. I immediately walked in and motioned for Zie to follow me.

I don't know but I was nervous as I sat in the chair in front of doc Ramon, Zie sat next to me. When Zie noticed my body trembling he immediately took my arm and wrapped his hand around my hand.

"How are you, Ash?" Doc Ramon suddenly asked so I immediately looked up at him.

"I'm doing fine thanks to, d-daddy," I answered honestly and tightened my grip on Zie's hand.

"That's good to hear. How about your nightmares? Are you still having those nightmares every night?" He asked again.

"N-No, it's been a week or two that I've slept well," I replied but I did not know why I was nervous while answering doc Ramon.

"Well, that's progress." Doc Roman replied slightly smiling at me. He walked towards his desk and sat on the edge.

"Let me ask you a question, Ashton." Doc Ramon said while looking at me intently, I was a little confused by the way he stared at me as if he was undressing me.

"What?" I asked nervously.

"What if it happens again? What if in a few minutes you suddenly get double penetrated here?" Doc Ramon seriously and I wallowed my saliva as my body starts to panic. What the fuck does he mean?

I shook my head over and over again. No! I don't like it. Fuck! In an instant, I suddenly remembered what had happened to me that night on the beach. How they force me to take them both, and how they abuse my body. I did not realize that my body was shaking and tears were dripping from my eyes.

After a while, Zie suddenly approached me and hugged me tightly causing my body to stop shaking.

"You know what Ashton? It's already imprinted in your mind that when you do double penetration, what happened to you on the beach will happen again, you think that you'll be going to experience it again. The only way I can think of to battle your trauma is to make you experience again what you experienced that night but this time, no one will force you. " Doc Ramon said, Zie and I looked at each other.

"I think that is not a good idea, Ramon." Zie resisted and shook his head.

"It's the most brilliant idea, Zie. What if we'll double penetrate Ashton? Let's take him slowly and carefully until he was so caught up with the pleasure and forget about the pain until he realized that it wasn't so bad after all. I know you can do it, Ashton, you can take me and Zie at the same time, you're just scared that the abused you experienced might happen again. Your first encounter was tragic that it makes you think that your next encounter will also be tragic." Doc Ramon said. I swallowed my saliva as if the truth had slapped me with what he said.

"I'm not ready yet," I replied weakly. Zie just nodded at me.

"That's it! That's the end of my assessment. Let's now start the session." Doc Ramon smiled and smirk at me. My brows furrowed in confusion as I was looking at doc Ramon who sat in the swivel chair and get his note and ballpen.

What does he mean? Aren't we already started the session?

"Okay, tell me about your nightmares." Doc Ramon ordered. Zie and I looked at each other and when I saw him smile as if he was encouraging me to obey doc Ramon's command I took a deep breath and began to tell my dreams.