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MIRELLA :

"Mirella darling, don't you want something to eat? I made your favorite meal."

How often, I'm not hungry. They should just leave me alone. I don't want to see her or anyone else.

"Go away." I call out annoyed and stare at the TV, but that doesn't really give me any comfort either.

i miss noah I just want him to hug him, but dad had to destroy everything. I hate him !

"Mirella please. You gotta eat something, honey. I know you're not feeling well at the moment, but that between Noah and you would have gone haywire... don't you think so too?"

No, I do not think so.

"Mirella, stop the fuss. Open the damn door and eat something. This boy isn't good for you and you're going to keep staying away from him and now unlock the door right now before I take this fucking thing off and you're left without it." dad calls from the other side.

He can eat me. It's all his fault.

"Bring me Noah and I'll open it." I snap back and close my eyes.

I want to get out of here and go to Noah. He must have forgotten me long ago and is doing his job. That's how he is. He forgets what was and moves on, but I'm not him. I want him back.

"OPEN THIS DOOR YOU Naughty Brat."

Up until two weeks ago I was his daughter whom he was determined to protect and now I'm suddenly the naughty brat. He really has to decide what I am now.

NOAH :

"And I don't feel like arguing. Either I get 60% or the deal is gone and you don't get a cent either. I'm putting my people at risk for this mission... so why should I give you more just because you know how to get into the building?" I ask the guy in front of me, looking at him blankly.

I want to see Mirella. The last two weeks have been pure horror. I can no longer sleep, eat or concentrate and yet I pretend to everyone that everything is the same as before. I pretend in front of them that Mirella never existed, but she's on my mind all day.

"Okay, 60% then! But we have a deal... right?"

"Shadow will take care of the contract and go over everything with you again." I reply and stand up.

I want to go to bed.

"Of course Boss." I hear him say to him in the background.

I sigh and get up, walking back to my room and slamming the door behind me before running to the bed and dropping down. I hate my life. It never goes the way I want it to and now I have to pretend everything is perfect.

Well, at least I know I did the right thing. Mirella's dad is right. She's in danger with me and I can't let anything happen to her because of me.

The worst thing is that many of her things are still with me. A few shirts, pants, dresses, underwear and her makeup and perfume.

The perfume and underwear are the worst. I smell the perfume everywhere and as soon as I see her underwear in our closet, I think of her naked in front of me.

"Shit!" I hiss with my eyes closed and stand up again.

Screw all these consequences. I want her back and I'll get her back.

"Shadow, demon! You watch the hall. I have to do something." I call once loudly through the hall as I enter it again and grab my car keys, which I left on the hall table.

Your dad can fuck me. This is the first time I like someone and they absolutely have to get in the way. Such a crap. Nobody stands in my way. I don't give a fuck if he's right or wrong. I'm sure Mirella feels the same way. She's definitely not walking around town and she's glad she got rid of me. I just don't think so. Those looks from her... they weren't fake. Those looks were pure love and I'd be stupid to give that up just because her dad got in the way.

"Don't you want to take someone with you? You need protection." Shadow calls after me worriedly, but I don't even react to that.

I'm such an idiot. I should have made it clear to her father from the start that she would stay with me, but I listened to him too much. She's in better hands with me than anywhere else in the world. I will protect her. I will make sure that nothing happens to her and that she can lead a calm and normal life without fear.

NOAH

"Open the door!" I shout loudly and bang hard on the door. I've been standing here for almost ten minutes trying to get in. I'm starting to get angry.

"When..."

Suddenly the door jumps open and a slightly older woman looks at me. "My daughter has nothing to say to you. You should go or I'll call the police." She mumbles, looking into my eyes.

I want to see Mirella.

"Let me see her." I say coldly and take a step forward.

"I can not do that. My husband will be home soon and will be furious when he finds out I let you in. She can't be with you, so accept that and go home."

I won't go home. I have a right to see my girlfriend and I will see her too.

Her mother seems more sensible than Mirella's father. If I talk to her and let her know that I love Mirella, then she'll understand and maybe let me in. I just have to convince them of me.

"Do you really want her to be unhappy?" I ask her mother bluntly.

"It's not my decision, Noah... It's too dangerous for her if she..."

"I just want to see her." I interrupt and take another step.

"Please.... I'll be gone too before her husband comes back. I can climb out of Mirella's window if I have to. Please !" I look down at her pleadingly and bite my lower lip. Come on !

As soon as she sees how happy Mirella and I are, she'll leave us alone. She will make sure that Mirella's father also accepts our relationship.

Swallowing, she looks into the house once, then nods slightly and steps aside.

It's okay.

"Where is she?" I ask as I enter the house.

"In her room. She hasn't eaten much in two weeks...I don't even know what she looks like because she never leaves the room."

Yes that is what I thought. I would have done the same... but I have a gang to lead and I can't afford to grieve.

"My husband thinks you're just using her... Well, sometimes he does. Other days he thinks you love her but that you're too dangerous for her. That makes me sad. I don't know you and I don't know what you're like, but what I do know is that you're dangerous... She's my eldest daughter... Don't you dare break her."

I nod slightly and look at her seriously. "I'm dangerous." I answer shortly and look at her demandingly.

I want to see Mirella.

"Of course you are. How could she confide in a gangster and then the gangster who wanted to kill her father?" she asks, giving a scornful laugh before running out to show me Mirella's room.

I never wanted to kill him. I just wanted my money back, that's all.

"And your husband is better than me?" I ask amused and follow her.

He's no better than me. He ruined his family and put them in danger. So who's the worse company for Mirella here?

"Here it is. Hurry up. I want you gone in ten minutes. We don't want people like you in this neighborhood."

Will she also say that after I finally showed her her daughter after two weeks? Without me, Mirella would remain in this room for months.

"Mirella... you..."

"Go away. I told you to leave me alone. I don't want to talk to any of you." Mirella shouts angrily, making me smile.

"Not even with me?" I ask and knock lightly on the door.

It's quiet for a few seconds, but then she seems to get up and walk to the door.

"Noah?" I hear her ask on the other side of the door.

"Yeah babe, it's me. Open the door and we can talk." I answer smiling and look down at the doorknob. She will open the door for me. Suddenly I hear her unlocking the door. She opens it slowly and looks into my eyes.

"What are you doing here?" she asks quietly and opens it completely. She gently pulls me to her and hugs me.

Now her mother should thank me for coming. She wouldn't have seen Mirella for months if it wasn't for me. So she should just accept our relationship and let Mirella back with me. I can protect her.

"Honey, are you hungry? Do you want me to make you something to eat?" her mother asks hopefully, but Mirella shakes her head slightly.

She should eat something. If it's true that she hasn't eaten in the past two weeks, then she needs to eat now.

"Yes, she is hungry. Please make her something to eat. I'll make sure she eats then." I intervene and smile at Mirella's mother. She nods slightly and then walks downstairs.

About time we were alone. i missed her

"In there." I breathe laughing and push her back into the room.

"Where have you been for so long?" she asks disappointed and straightens my tie. I had to figure out what I really want.

"I've been thinking... about us." I murmur, stroking her cheek. I need her. I don't care what her father says. I don't care that her family is against me. She is everything I am I want and I will keep her with me for the rest of my life.

"And what decision did you come to?" she asks calmly.

I didn't know that myself until now. Now that I see her, I realize what I want. This is my only chance to be happy with the woman I love.

"Marry me." I whisper, nodding slightly.

She should marry me.