78: Desperation and anger.

FIFI.

I saw Kiki walking towards the office and knew that there was only time for a drastic action so I quickly rewrapped my arms around Gigi’s neck slowly.

“What are you doing? “He asked as I whispered something in his ears before I kissed him. I kissed him slow and pressed on untill he opened his lips slightly and I took his tongue. I knew that he didn't like it because his body was stiff and he didn't kiss me back but he also didn’t push me away.

So I focused on giving Kiki a good performance as I kissed him tightly and make sure that I sucked on his lips. I was intent on making sure that she understood that I wasn’t going to give up on him just like that. That Gigi was mine and just mine and from the way she was clenching her file with her hand and was blinking her eyes to keep back the tears. I know that I was doing a good job.

She turned and left as she closed the door as Gigi finally realized that there was another person here and pushed me off saying, “Fifi, stop it. I can’t entertain this from you any longer. You are totally crossing the line.” He said as he saw that it was Kiki who was walking away and he went after her.

I stood in front of him, “Gigi, you want to tell me now that the kiss meant nothing and you are actually heading back to follow Kiki. Don’t you see me? Leave the gold dIgger alone. She is not the one for you. I am ready to love you with all my heart. Please love me back.” I pleaded with no iota of pride.

“Fifi. Please for the love of God, allow me to go and check up on Kiki. She is misunderstanding what happened between us. Can’t you leave me? She needs to know that this was just a mistake and I didn’t kiss you… you did. I only left you because I didn’t want to hurt you. But this is getting out of hand. Is this desperation?” He said as he held me back with his two hands looking at me directly in the eyes.

“Yes, call it desperation. So what? Call it anything that you want to call it. I do not care until you see that I am the only one for you. There is no one else who can love you like o do. Everything I have done is to please you. Everything that I am offering right now is for you. We can be together. It is not a thing. We are the real deal. You know it. Everyone else knows it. Please Gigi do not throw your future for a girl like her. You will regret it. I have watched you my entire life. How do you not see me? I am the most prettiest lady alive. I have a slim figure. Look at me. Tell me I am not turning you on? You are going after last year’s news. Nobody wants her. She is tainted. Come with me, leave her.” I pleaded pulling him towards me, I was almost crying at this point.

I couldn’t believe that I was going to lose him. This was a blow to my face. I couldn’t stand it. It had to be a lie, a dream. What did Kiki have over him?

“Does she have something over you? Is she forcing you to do what you do not want to do. This is not you. This is beyond me. You never do such things before. It seems you are possessed or in Trouble. Talk to me. Tell me so I can help you.” I said as he pulled himself away from my grip and said in a cool low voice although I could see that he was trying so hard to contain his anger.

“Listen to me, Fifi for I am going to say it for the very last time and I won’t tolerate it again if this issue continues to happen. I do not care about you. I do not love you, I surely don’t feel like spending the rest of my life with you and if you think that I am going to drop Kiki just because you say so or I would give up on her because of you. You got a big problem ahead of you” He said as I tried to touch his face but he slapped my hand off and continued.

“It seems I have been too lenient with you. I do not want to hate you and cut off all ties with you because you are a good person underneath all this craziness but if you do not stop all this obsession that you have for me. You won’t have me as a friend either and I will cut off all ties with you without blinking an eye. Someone out there loves you so much. Do not waste it on me. I am sorry for hurting you but staying with you hurts me more. Don’t you want to see me happy. Kiki makes me happy. Do not let me lose her.” He said as I left him.

He turned and left the office going after Kiki as I stormed my feet all-around and scattered his table before falling to my knees crying.

Gigi was right.

Mum might be right too.

Heck, everyone is right at this point! And I hate it.

He was never going to love me but still I loved him. I didn’t want him with someone else that wasn’t me. He had to be with me. Why couldn’t he love me? Why am I not enough in his eyes. This was totally unfair.

I hate Kiki with all I got. She was the one who did this! She was plotting this somehow.

I play not going to give up that easily without a fight.

No way.