Chapter 312 Despair begins from this moment

"I don't know."

Su Yi was silent for a moment and shook his head: "If what you said is true, then I have no way to understand what I will think in the future."

People can understand their past selves, but they never know what they will become in the future.

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Even if life and the future are already empty at a glance, everything is going according to plan.

But life always has too many surprises.

"Sure enough, you are quite pure now."

Wang Peibo looked at Su Yi with a smile: "At least you don't think you are a fool now."

Su Yi raised his eyebrows. He felt that the boy in front of him was scolding him in a roundabout way, but he couldn't find evidence.

"You asked me why I want to be a hero, then you should know what kind of hero I want to be in the future?"

Su Yi looked at Wang Peibo. He had gradually accepted his existence from the shock.

Although this kind of thing sounds too outrageous, reality is often so magical.

"Just as you think now, a hero standing in front of all mankind."

Wang Peibo blinked and asked with a smile: "Do you feel proud?"

"No, I feel it is a responsibility."

Su Yi shook his head: "But I still can't feel what you said, I don't think I will be so great in the future."

It's okay to protect the people in the country, why do you talk about the level of all mankind here?

What's the matter, the 10 billion people in the world are all relying on me alone?

Su Yi thinks this is quite outrageous.

"Responsibility... Tsk, what a pure beginning."

Wang Peibo shook his head and said with a smile: "You are much purer now than in the future. You will never say anything about responsibility in the future. During the journey I walked with you, you were always cursing and complaining."

"Well... Have I ever given up?"

"No, I just cursed very badly."

"It seems that I will understand the meaning of sacrifice and responsibility more in the future than I do now."

Su Yi also smiled: "Compared to this, I am a bit like a hypocrite now."

"Indeed."

Wang Peibo nodded in agreement: "What you hate most is the principle of a community with a shared future for mankind that you insist on. You can only use brainwashing to tell yourself that if mankind perishes, you will die too. You are just fighting and struggling for your own interests."

Community with a shared future for mankind!

Su Yi's expression suddenly became serious, and he was in awe of his future self.

I didn't expect that my future self would have such a high level of awareness. Although cursing is wrong, a gentleman judges by deeds rather than by heart. This pattern is indeed great.

"But the more you struggle, the more painful it is; pain will make you make wrong decisions. I just play the role of a corrector in this process."

"You asked me to remind and correct you appropriately when you make a wrong decision."

Wang Peibo paused and said lightly: "Before you die every time, you emphasize the same sentence."

Death?

Every time I load the game, it means that I have died once in the future?

Fuck!

How many times do I have to die then!

Su Yi's eyelids twitched, but his expression remained calm. He asked, "What am I emphasizing?"

"You always say: This time I must be more perfect. As long as there is no mistake, I will succeed."

"You must pursue perfection at every step and let yourself really give up."

Wang Peibo shrugged his shoulders: "Look, even when you are dying, you still think that you are not working hard enough; to be honest, you are really a cow."

Su Yi also smiled and asked softly: "Then have I ever had the most perfect time? I mean, the time when I was most satisfied with myself, when I didn't make any mistakes."

"Not yet."

Wang Peibo shook his head: "You have been making mistakes all the time , although the number of mistakes is decreasing, it has not yet reached perfection, and there is room for improvement every time. "

"So, you also believe me."

Su Yi looked at Wang Peibo and pointed directly to the crux of the problem: "If I am really as bad as you said, why do you have to start over again and again to help me become more perfect."

"Please! Do you know how much I regret it now?"

Wang Peibo spread his hands, his face full of helplessness: "I also think I am quite stupid. Why do you attach so much importance to promises? I have to start over every time. I am almost tired of it."

Su Yi lowered his voice: "But you still did it."

This man looks very free and easy, with a careless smile on his face.

It is hard to see that such a relaxed guy has accompanied himself to failure countless times, trying to make himself more perfect every time, and constantly looking for ways to pass the game with bad files.

"You work harder than me."

Su Yi looked at Wang Peibo with a hint of respect in his eyes, and said softly: "It's not easy for you."

"Hey! Don't say that!"

Wang Peibo raised his hand and reminded loudly: "Don't! According to my experience, the more you say that, the more you will be scolded!"

"You are helping me so much, why should I scold you?"

"No, don't scold me, scold yourself."

"What am I scolding?"

"You'd better not know, it's really hard to hear."

Wang Peibo smiled brightly: "I have gone through so many time points, and I have never seen a guy scold himself so harshly. You have worked much harder than me."

At least he could live, he didn't really die.

But Su Yi is different.

Even if he knows that everything will start over again, he will still experience constant despair in the constant failures and die in despair.

Even with the best efforts, it still doesn't work.

"It seems that I am quite stupid and have never succeeded."

Su Yi took a deep breath, and his smile was a little forced: "Okay, let me smooth it out now."

"A bad plan that has failed countless times, a decision to protect all mankind... I want to know, haven't I thought about giving up?"

"Yeah, I'm weird too."

Wang Peibo tilted his head and looked Su Yi up and down: "Why do you think there is such a person, so stubborn to the extreme? In so many restarts, he didn't even think of giving up?"

"Hello."

Wang Peibo suddenly approached Su Yi and stared into Su Yi's eyes. He asked sincerely: "Brother, tell me the truth, are you a bit masochistic?"

Su Yi raised his eyebrows and took a step back: "Can this sentence also make me more perfect?"

"No, this is the first time I've asked. It's a special case for this restart."

"If I have to answer, I think I should be quite normal."

Su Yi pushed Wang Peibo away and regained his composure.

After a brief period of calm, Su Yi broke the silence: "So, back to the topic, I still didn't break away from the mechanism itself in the end. I died in the constant rotation of the doomsday, right?"

Wang Peibo was rummaging for snacks and comic books at home, and responded without looking back: "Ang, yes, there are many ways to die."

The corner of Su Yi's mouth twitched: "To be honest, not long ago I thought that the doomsday mechanism was nothing to me. The doomsday difficulty these times was too easy."

Wang Peibo turned around, glanced at Su Yi, and suddenly reminded seriously: "This is your first mistake, put away your arrogance and conceit. The doomsday mechanism is far more terrifying than you think. The node where I appeared is in the fourth round of doomsday. beginning."

"You will feel relaxed in the first ten doomsday nodes, but the doomsday mechanism is a major rotation every ten times, and the increase in disaster intensity exceeds exponential levels."

Wang Peibo said expressionlessly: "The first ten doomsdays are just small rotations. It makes you unable to see any possibility of losing, but your paralyzed ego is your biggest enemy, causing you to miss many of the best opportunities." A good opportunity to become stronger.”

"wrong."

Su Yi shook his head: "If according to what you said, even the earth cannot bear the exponentially increasing difficulty of the doomsday disaster. If the earth is gone, what kind of hero should I be? Protecting the air? No, there won't even be air at that time. There will be!”

"Have I ever said that if the earth is destroyed, will mankind be extinct? Or will the disaster disappear because of the destruction of the earth?"

Wang Peibo smiled: "Have you forgotten the targeted target of the mechanism? It targets humans on earth, not the earth; in a sense, even if you are the only one left to die in the world, the disaster will not disappear. , you are also a part of the human race on earth.”

The mechanism will not stop until all humans are killed!

Su Yi raised his eyebrows silently, this answer was within his expectation.

Wang Peibo's answer also explains very well the second question Su Yi is about to ask, why he wants to fight the mechanism.

In fact, from one's own perspective, this is also a forced self-preservation.

The mechanism will not stop just because Su Yi lies down, it has no emotions.

If you don't resist, you will die.

Perhaps this should be the reason why my future self will not give up even if it is painful.

Not just to be a hero, but also to survive, just a pure desire to survive.

"Then in the future, will the earth still be there?"

"How many times are you absent? How many times are you present? It depends on how you choose."

Wang Peibo found a few bags of snacks with satisfaction, sat back on the sofa, and shook the snacks in his hand proudly at Su Yi: "Look at these small variables, their positions will not necessarily be at the previous locations every time they are restarted. ”

"You put them in place, which means your actions are already affecting every new future."

"Perhaps the change of the position of a bag of snacks cannot really change the future outcome, but its change is enough to show that the future is full of variables."

Wang Peibo sighed: "This is the charm of time. There will be subtle differences every time, just like the appearance of your death has subtle changes every time, and the degree of tragedy is also different; sometimes there is only one head left. , sometimes there are two more arms, and sometimes even the upper body is still intact, which is really amazing. "

Su Yi's mouth twitched: "Wait, can you not mention my death? It feels weird."

Listen to a person discussing the way he will die in the future, and let yourself know in advance that death is a high probability.

At this moment, Su Yi suddenly understood how desperate he would be in the future.

No.

Perhaps, despair has spread from this moment.

"Okay, I won't mention it."

Wang Peibo smiled, opened the snacks and started eating.

He didn't seem to care about anything, not even this restart.

Perhaps in his eyes, Su Yi may still fail this time, and perhaps in his eyes, Su Yi at this moment will eventually become an old history.

An individual who has been abandoned before it even begins.

Su Yi can understand the despair and cruelty in this, but he has no reason to blame Wang Peibo. He can only silently taste the sudden panic in his heart.

Su Yi stared at Wang Peibo in a daze, and it took a long time for him to recover.

Regardless of whether Wang Peibo thinks there is hope this time, at least he can't give up on himself now.

After all, Su Yi still doesn't know, if he still fails this time, will he still be himself after the next restart?

Is the "I" at different time nodes each different "I", or a complete and unique "I"?

No one knows this question, which is almost the true meaning of philosophy.

Su Yi doesn't understand it either. He doesn't want to think about it, and he doesn't dare to think about it.

He can only force himself to calm down, take a deep breath, and then speak in a hoarse voice, breaking the silence again.

"Then, even if the future is still a long way off, we will do it more perfectly from now on."

"I think... it should be getting stronger, taking every right step, which is what I pursue in the future. I believe that I will at least not lie to myself in the future."

"Then, judging from my current situation, it may be that thing that hinders me from becoming stronger."

Su Yi looked at Wang Peibo and suddenly asked: "Do you know who the man behind Chen Yanshuo is? Where will he be? How can I solve this hidden danger?"

"Future man, you should know this, right?"

"Oh, finally asked."

Wang Peibo chewed potato chips, smiled vaguely, and looked up at the wall clock again: "Oh, it's 12 minutes faster than last time! Great!"

"Answer my question, Wang Peibo!"

Su Yi's expression was very serious. Everything this guy said, the authenticity of all his arguments about the future, will be determined by the answer to this question.

"Of course I know."

Wang Peibo nodded, and Su Yi immediately asked the next question: "Who is he! Where is he! How strong is he!"