1366 I want to live the way he wants to see

Lil 'Xu watched in fear, afraid that Ji Mianmian would flip over. He knew her skills. If she really flipped over, he might not be able to stop her in time.

"Mianmian, don't ... It's windy on the bridge. Let's go back," Xiao Xu called out.

Ji Mianmian stared at the river below.""I don't want what? Am I not normal?"

"Mianmian, you ... You ..." Lil Xu did not know what to say.

Ji Mianmian turned her head to look at Lil 'Xu."Do you think I should cry my heart out and then stop eating and drinking? do you think I'm going to die from grief and use all sorts of stupid methods to hurt myself?"

Lil 'Xu did not say anything, but he did hope that Ji Mianmian could cry to her heart's content. At least she would not suppress herself and could at least vent her emotions.

Her calmness was too frightening.

The sadness in a person's heart needed to be vented. If not, the negative energy ... Would crush a person.

Ji Mianmian suddenly laughed. It was different from the carefree laughter she had in the past. It was as if she had been reborn.

"Don't worry, I won't do that," she said."He saved me and left his life to me because he wanted me to live a good life, not to let me degrade myself. I want to live the way he wants to see me, not to give up on myself."

Who didn't know how to cry?

Of course, she felt pain.

However, what was the use of this?

It was not that she had never thought of committing suicide, but if she died, what would she say to ye shaoguang when she met him in the afterlife?

He had used his life to exchange for hers so that she could live. Between her and death, he had chosen to let her live and then die.

Then, what right did she have to ruin her own life that she had exchanged for ye shaoguang 's?

If she were to really demean herself, it would not be her longing for ye shaoguang, nor would it be her love for him. She would be trampling on his efforts.

Ye shaoguang's greatest wish was for her to live a good life. Since that was the case, she would live the way he wanted her to live and work hard.

When she looked at her own face in the mirror these past two days, Ji Mianmian felt that it was her and not herself.

Her life did not belong to her entirely anymore. She still wanted to keep ye shaoguang's share alive.

Xiao Xu ...

He was too narrow-minded. He had underestimated ye shaoguang and Ji Mianmian.

He thought that Ji Mianmian's calmness was abnormal. He was afraid that she was suppressing herself, afraid that she would explode at some point and do something that they did not want to see.

However, he did not expect Ji Mianmian to be far stronger than he thought. She also understood ye shaoguang's feelings more than he did.

She ... Really loved that man. If she didn't love him so deeply, she wouldn't have understood him so well.

Lil 'Xu lowered his head. He felt even more embarrassed facing Ji Mianmian.

"Don't follow me anymore, I beg you ... Let me be alone here and spend some time with him. Don't worry, I won't do anything. I just want to talk to him. My mind is very clear now, and I know what I have to do. From now on, I won't trample on my life."

Xiao Xu nodded."Okay ... Okay ... I'll go ... I'll go further away ... You, calm down. Don't be impulsive ..."

He kept retreating and no longer moved forward.

Yan qingsi was burning with anxiety as she watched from the car. She had Xiao Xu watch over her, so why was he retreating?

She reached out to open the door and was about to get down when Yue tingfeng stopped her.