Frustration

'What is wrong with me? What kind of stupid-ass apology was that?... Or could she be upset about the sex?' Tunde wondered scratching an imaginary itch on his head and praying in his heart that she accepts his apology.

[But you said you wouldn't have touched me with a six feet pole if you had known I was a virgin.]

'God!' He exclaimed in his mind. [Abby I said that when I was angry... I said a lot of shit, that doesn't mean I meant them... ]

[You didn't mean it right? What about when you said it was just sex? Something about me...huh getting my panties in a twist over nothing. Tell me you didn't mean that one too...]

'Oh fuck!' How do I explain myself out of this?' He wondered and desperately looked towards his brothers for help, but they just glared back at him with annoyance. He was about to stammer out an excuse in his defense when Abby interrupted him.

[You don't have to say anything... cos it doesn't matter now anyway... What's that saying?... It's all water under the bridge now.] She said because she didn't wish to listen to any excuses that were not genuine.

[So I figured I also owe you some apologies too...]

[You don't owe me any apology, it...]

[I do owe you some Tunde... Everything that happened was not entirely your fault. I have to take responsibility for some too...

I let my emotions get the best of me and I'm sorry for that. I shouldn't have taken whatever it is that was upsetting me out on you, after all, you did not force me, I agreed to be with you out of my own volition.

I'm also sorry for being rude to you. Calling you names and all was uncalled for... I-I just want you to know that I'm not an insensitive person... Yes, I'm outspoken and all but I'm not insensitive. You just kinda bring out the worst in me.]

"I like her already" Mide whispered and smiled.

"Yeah me too" Lekan replied and smiled back.

She paused for some seconds, not knowing what to say next. She had already determined in her mind that it would be in her best interest if they don't see each other again... So many reasons why she thinks they weren't going to work going through her mind right then.

But there's this tiny part of her that was still fighting against her decision despite everything that had transpired between them. That part still yearns for him and that part would win if she was not firm in her belief.

[Abby... None of these is your fault. I know I acted like a jerk and I'm sorry about that okay?... But can we please meet to talk about this?]

She didn't answer him, but stood still, with the phone held close to her ear, her resolve already getting weak, contemplating whether to change her mind about meeting with him or not...

He waited patiently as the silence grew till he began to wonder if she was still with him.

"Abby?..." He called her name softly to confirm if she was still with him.

[I don't think our meeting is a good idea.] She immediately replied when his voice broke through her thoughts. Saying that out to him was more difficult than she had thought but the decision had to be made. She couldn't let her passion for him get the better of her this time. As badly as she yearned to see him again, she should stand firm in her decision for her own good.

[But why?] He asked. His heart suddenly lurched with pain, and the fear of not seeing her again overwhelmed him. 'How can she not want them to meet?" He wondered.

[Because...] she sighed deeply, not knowing how to go on.

[Because of what Abby?... Talk to me please.] His gentle pleading voice got to her and made her voice quiver with emotions.

[Why are you doing this Tunde? What exactly do you want from me?... What is there to talk about between us?]

[Abby I like you. What we had was special...]

[You like me?] She gave a derisive laugh like she was certain he was lying.

[Abby I...]

[Tunde what we had was just sex! It was nothing special! You said so yourself and I...] She paused, unconsciously closing her eyes, [...I'm not looking to have just a regular sex partner if that's what you're looking for... If that was why you said you like me... I'm not cut out for that.]

[Abby... It wasn't just sex. You are unlike every other woman I've met.]

[I've not met many men, but you are unlike the few I've met too, truth be told... But is that reason enough?... Is that reason enough for you to want to be with me?... Because I'm crazy and you're crazier?... Aren't you scared we might end up killing each other one day? Two crazy people?...]

Tunde was speechless, he had no clue about what to say to convince her. He's just hopeless when it comes to women matters. He looked towards his brothers for help but the bastards were just there listening and acting unconcerned... Why are they not giving him some clues to help him out of the jam he found himself in.

'I'm going to fucking kill them if this doesn't end well' He thought furiously, as Abby continue talking.

[I wasn't in control of myself, the few hours I spent with you. I couldn't think straight. I became reckless, and being reckless was not my thing...

I kissed you in broad daylight on the street that my parents and church members live on.

D'Glamour is a woman that's old enough to be my mother, yet I was rude to her because I was jealous of her hitting on you... When we weren't even dating! Isn't that crazy!?

And I stripped!...] She whispered to him like she was afraid somebody might be listening. [...how could I have shamelessly stripped in front of you...!? It seemed as if a strange being took over my body...] She sounded aghast, her voice shaky.

[Then we had UNPROTECTED SEX! Who does that!? Who has unprotected sex with a person they hardly know!?... See why we shouldn't meet, ever again? You are bad for me! You are like the devil, pushing me to do bad stuff.]

'What bad stuff is she talking about?' He wondered 'Apart from the unprotected sex, he doesn't see anything bad in everything she just detailed down.'

[You waltz into my life and disrupt my composure, trying to make me into what I'm not... Why can't it be Mike? Why must it be you?] She said in frustration.

[Hey! Hey!... Who the fuck is Mike!?] He asked jealously like he had the right to know. He couldn't just hold it in. His voice turned from soft and nice to deadly cold in seconds.

'So there is a Mike, apart from the Josh he knew of... He might not know the right sweet words to say in convincing her to be his, but he would surely find a way to eliminate all the assholes in her life.'

[What is it to you who Mike is huh?... What right do you think you have to ask me that? Do I look like one of your bimbo girlfriends that you can just command and demand from at will?] She coldly replied to him back.

[I have the right to demand from you who he is because I'm your first. I took your innocent so that automatically makes you my woman alright?]

[What!?... ] Abby asked and laughed, amazed at his outburst. [This is unbelievable... Are you out of your mind!?]

[Am I?... Well maybe I'm out of my mind, I sure don't give a shit about that. Right now I demand to know who Mike is!?]

[You demand huh?...] She gave a dry laugh [...okay if you insist. Mike is this very handsome man I like and have hopes of being with. Now that you know, what are you gonna do about it?] She sked sarcastically... [So I was in the middle of something when you called and I need to get back to it... Bye.]

*click*

She immediately cut off the call.