Chapter 20

Confused feelings

I waited for him but he never came back. Sighing, I looked down on my wristwatch. It's ten o'clock in the evening and my stomach's grumbling due to hunger but I didn't mind it at all. I was eagerly waiting for that man but I guess that bastard ditched me. What the heck.

I was startled when a few raindrops fell on my face. Looking up at the night sky, I wiped those drops away and sighed for nth times.

"Miss Rishel, I think it's going to rain. Please take shelter under the tent first so you don't get wet," warned by the man who's passing by the parking lot.

I smiled at him. "Thank you but it's okay."

He scratched his nape and smiled wryly before saying goodbye. I just stared at his retreating back. It's good that it hasn't rained yet, but I knew that I shouldn't just stand here waiting for nothing.

I took a deep breath and stepped forward, toward the way that Lyndon and the woman took earlier.

I don't know why I'm feeling agitated imagining him with that woman. My head's telling me that I shouldn't feel this way, and that I love Levi. But... why Lyndon's making me feel something important is slipping away from my hands?

I looked around but I didn't even see his shadow. My lips pursed into a line. Where did those two go?

Because I was thinking too much, I didn't notice I reach the back of the abandoned building. I just knew that in front of me was a complete darkness. The night salty sea breeze blew past me and it ruffled my hair, strands dancing with the wind.

"Lyndon?" I called, frowning, but no one answered me.

The silence was almost unbearable. It was uncomfortable, especially since I felt like someone was watching me from the dark.

I kept telling myself that I'm a grown up woman, but I couldn't get the fear out of my system. It was the same feeling I felt after that night in Boljoon, like a pair of eyes is watching me from the dark.

I turned around and quickly walked back to the bright part of the fishing port. But no matter how many steps I'll take, it's like the light is moving farther away. I was sweating profusely. And when I was at my limit, I squatted on the ground and covered my ears with my palms, closing my eyes tightly.

I don't know how many minutes I was in that position before I felt someone tap my shoulder. I opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was Lyndon's worried face.

"Rishel, are you alright?"

The terror I felt earlier came rushing down on me as I broke down. I quickly reached out my arms and hugged him, burying my face on his chest and tightening the hug. I felt him patting my back to soothe my trembling body.

"What happened? Why are you here?" he asked after a few minutes.

I let him go and huffed. I accused him with my glare and didn't answer. His face was at a loss. He picked me up in his arms and walked towards the busy part of the fishing port.

"I didn't see you in my car so I looked for you everywhere. What are you doing there?" he asked again with a frown. "And you're trembling. Did something happen? Did someone mistreat you?"

I shook my head and closed my eyes. I buried my face in his shoulder and inhaled his manly scent which calmed my nerves. Ah, I was confused with my feelings.

Having Levi by my side makes my heart thump wildly, while Lyndon makes my heart at peace. I want to be near Levi and to see his smile, but with Lyndon... I need his presence to calm me down.

Why is this feeling so complicated?

"Engineer, what happened?" I heard someone asked. If I'm not mistaken, it's the woman earlier who looked down on me and one of the bees that Lyndon had attracted.

Even though my face was buried in Lyndon's shoulder, I could feel the woman's sharp gaze on my back. I pursed my lips in annoyance and slightly raised my head to look at her. She's glaring at me, but after a few seconds, she retrieve her sharp gaze and smiled at Lyndon.

"We have a lot of important tasks to do, Engineer. It's not time for others to act wilful," the woman reminded.

My face darkened. Willful? I wasn't fooling around!

"What are you implying?" I asked the woman, frowning and annoyed.

Well, I thought she'll deny it, but no. The woman's brave enough to raise her eyebrow at me in front of Lyndon. "Miss, it's not a place for you to act as a spoiled princess. Engineer has an important job but is delayed because of you."

"Architect," Lyndon warned. He was frowning. "We'll talk about work tomorrow. Let's call it a day," he announced and stepped past the woman.

I breathed a sigh of relief. I thought Lyndon would leave me again for that woman. I looked at her and smiled sweetly. Her face darkened, frowning. Ah, what a lovely sight!

She's the number two version of Nicole who assumes that they rein their men well, but what they didn't expect, it was Levi and Lyndon who wanted to be tied my hands. I chuckled to myself while imagining both men standing in front of me while giving me their sturdy reins.

"Oh. You're laughing. What's funny?" asked Lyndon.

I shook my head and grimaced secretly. I eventually shut my mouth and cleared a throat. "Thank you for finding me sooner," I whispered.

If he hadn't found me in that moment, I might not be able to handle it. I was at my last wit when he came to save me from that darkness. I sighed. Of all the men I met, he's the least I expected to come and pick me up.

"Where's father?" I asked.

He turned towards the parking lot where his pick-up was parked. "I notified him that I already found you." He sighed and looked down at my face. "Next time, don't wander around. Don't let everyone worry about you."

Both my cheeks warmed at his serious gaze and his sweet words. "O-Of course." But remembering what I'd sacrificed just to wait for him, the corner of my lips twitched. "Well it's your fault. Why did you take so long to come back?" I complained.

He raised his eyebrows at what I whispered. "Then, I won't make you wait next time."

My cheeks just got warmer at what he said. "I-I didn't mean that!" I denied.

He chuckled. After a while, his face became serious. "Tell me what happened."

Only then did my heart become normal. I pursed my lips. "I... I don't want to talk about it."

He remained silent and did not insist. I was grateful. I don't want to think about what happened earlier. I wanted to forget because whenever I think about that, chills creep into my flesh, filling my heart with fear I didn't know where it originated from.

At that time, I didn't know that I would regret my decision of not letting him know in the coming days.