1081 [Bonus chapter]For This Matter Alone, I Will Never Step Back
"I know that! I don't need you to tell me!"
Long Qian Xing sneered and looked at Kuang Shen in front of him. He could clearly understand that Kuang Shen was actually a possessive person, yet he wanted to make Luo Qing Wei happy.
It was also because of this that he still made concession after concession.
Despite limiting the people whom Luo Qing Wei could contact, he still tried to listen to her wishes. Whatever she wanted to do, he would try his best to fulfill it, even if he didn't like it at all.
This was also why Long Qian Xing knew that Luo Qing Wei never asked this.
It was all Kuang Shen's idea.
"You know but you still do that. Are you truly a man or not, Kuang Shen?"
Kuang Shen's face changed once more.
Looking at the way Long Qian Xing looking at him, Kuang Shen felt as if any layer of deception that he had prepared were stripped bare. No matter how much he tried to make it sound as if he truly wanted the best for Luo Qing Wei, it didn't hide the fact that he himself was the one who wanted her.
He couldn't let her go so easily.
He could watch her go with someone else, but to be the one who supported her and even smile towards her while giving advices?
It was impossible.
However, he had seen how much Luo Qing Wei missed Long Qian Xing and never accepted his approach. He didn't want to break their fragile relationship by admitting openly in front of her.
This was the only method he could think of.
He could only try to pull him to their side.
Even if the chance was slim, even if he could only try to pull him through benefit, it was the only way he could think of to make sure that Luo Qing Wei could be happy with someone she wanted.
"Shut up!" Kuang Shen yelled. He huffed in anger and turned around, refusing to even look at Long Qian Xing. He knew that the longer he stayed here, the more he would reveal his real self in front of Long Qian Xing.
He detested the fact that he would be like an open book in front of his enemies.
"I can't agree to your request. The seat by my side is only for one person and could never be changed."
Kuang Shen snorted. "She's dead."
"She's alive."
Kuang Shen turned around and looked at Long Qian Xing. At this moment, he could see the conviction within Long Qian Xing's face and understood that Long Qian Xing would never accept that Nan Hua had died.
Just like him would never accept it if someone told him that Luo Qing Wei had died, Long Qian Xing was the same.
He would refuse to admit it from the very bottom of his heart.
"How stubborn. You're putting the lives of many other people on the line, Young Master Long."
"Should I be the one to be responsible for their lives?" Long Qian Xing asked with a faint smile, yet the light within his eyes was devoid of any emotion.
Right now, he had understood Nan Hua's words back then.
The reason why she asked him to wait until it was autumn.
The reason why she suddenly wanted to let the whole world think that she had died.
The reason why she didn't contact him.
The reason why she chose to disappear.
It was all because she understood that the only person who could truly solve the problem from Zhang Xu Kingdom's special army was Luo Qing Wei. However, Luo Qing Wei would never help other people.
She would never help other people but him.
And what Luo Qing Wei wanted was not as simple as his attention, but she wanted him in entirety.
It was something that Long Qian Xing knew that he would never be able to give.
His heart had set towards Nan Hua.
It would never waver.
Even though his rationality was telling him that if he chose to give up on this offer, there will be a lot of people who might die, he still wouldn't want to agree.
For so many years, he had been holding back and took a step back. He had been enduring so many things and worked so hard in order to make sure that he would be able to do what he wanted to do. Now, he was once again facing the same coercion where he couldn't even get what his heart wanted and had to listen to other people's order.
His rationality was telling him that accepting Luo Qing Wei's offer would help Fei Yang Kingdom tremendously in war.
But his heart was against it.
'Young Master Long is a rational person who will always think of benefit first.'
Nan Hua's words from a few months ago rang inside Long Qian Xing's mind. Yes, in normal times, he would naturally work in accordance to how his rationality told him.
But why does he had to listen to his rationality all the time?
If it was just a matter of profit and loss, he would definitely listen to his mind and rationality.
But should he just ignore his heart that was hurting?
He couldn't do that.
He knew what he wanted very well.
And he would never let her go.
Not now.
Not ever.
Because of this, he would never be able to accept Kuang Shen's offer no matter what.
He didn't want to betray his own heart.
Humans didn't only make their decision based on their rationality but also because of their emotions as well.
Sometimes, they did irrational things.
Why?
Because it would make them happy.
It was as simple as that.
"You might not know me that well, Ghost Doctor Kuang Shen, but I'm not a person who always stand at the very peak where everyone listens to my words." Long Qian Xing's eyes gleamed with ruthlessness. At this moment, Kuang Shen could feel chills from the bottom of his heart.
It was as if he had touched upon the line that he should never crossed in his entire life.
The beast that was previously sleeping was awakened because of his disturbance at this very moment.
Even the people around were feeling the danger from Long Qian Xing's body.
They were tense.
"I have endured again and again for so many matters. I have hold back and restrained myself, trying to act appropriately in order to gain the best benefit while not offending other people. There are many times when I have to step back in order to ensure that I can survive.
But for this matter alone, I will never step back." Long Qian Xing looked at Kuang Shen with a cold expression. His body was emitting thick killing intent. "I might be a commander, but before being a commander, I'm also a man, a person with free will and thoughts. I'm Long Qian Xing, a man with a fiancée who's waiting for me to pick her up and not abandoning her.
I will not sacrifice my own happiness in order to get the cure that couldn't be used freely."
