1382 I Admit
"Mhm."
Nan Hua felt something cold was pressed on her forehead. She opened her eyes and looked around her blearily. Seeing Long Qian Xing's figure in front of her, Nan Hua blinked once more before closing her eyes again.
"Sorry," Nan Hua whispered.
Long Qian Xing's hand paused. He looked at the young woman on the bed and didn't know what he was supposed to say.
Why did she apologize?
Because she was facing the Lin Family on her own?
Because she makes a move without any authorization?
"You're not at fault, Hua'er. The priority now is for you to rest and recover as fast as possible, ok?" Long Qian Xing said slowly in a low voice.
"Mhm." Nan Hua hummed in a low voice. She knew that she had to sleep, but she felt that she was also making trouble for Long Qian Xing at this time. This made her wonder just how much of a troublemaker she was.
However, Nan Hua forcefully pushed all thoughts away from her mind.
She had to sleep. She still needed to rest if she wished to recover faster.
Long Qian Xing patted Nan Hua's head and whispered softly, "Sleep. You don't have to worry so much. No one can hurt you here."
Waiting for a few minutes until Nan Hua's breathing turned stable and rhythmical once more, Long Qian Xing then proceeded to walk towards the door. He clasped his hand together and made the chirping sound.
*chirp* *chirp*
There were many animals in the forest.
But there were not many that were active due to the battles in this area recently. Thus, it was actually strange to hear animals' sound at this point of time.
Though, Long Qian Xing's intention was to call his men because he needed them to do something.
Swish!
"Young Master." Lou had come and knelt on the ground.
"Call Long Xu's sister here and inquired if there's any famous doctors nearby," Long Qian Xing gave his order.
"Yes, Young Master!"
"Also, clean up the area and make sure no one from Lin Family could come close. There are also some other commanders…." Long Qian Xing proceeded to give a series of order to Long Xu before he walked into the hut once more.
On the side of his horse, there were some emergency supplies that he carried with him. It was used in case he was separated from others. Some water and also food. But this kind of dry food was naturally not suitable for a patient.
Long Qian Xing sighed and bit down the dry bread.
Long Xu had a sister whom he had arranged to stay in the nearby city to help with inquiring some pieces of news. While she might be a bit young, she was helpful in some matters and refused to leave her brother on his own.
The distance was a bit far, so Long Qian Xing estimated that it would take some time before Long Xu's sister could come here.
As for a doctor?
Long Qian Xing had heard that Traveling Doctor Liu was in Zhang Xu Kingdom, but he didn't know the exact position. This traveling doctor truly lived up to his name. It was really hard for anyone to find him if he didn't wish them to find him.
After all, he would be nothing more than a traveler.
And in this kind of era, how many people would travel each day? There were many of them who had lost their villages and naturally leave to seek other ways to live.
It would not be easy to find the right traveler if they didn't know this peculiar traveling doctor's route.
Time passed by quietly.
During this time, Long Qian Xing stayed in the hut, changing the compress while thinking how to obtain more water. The end result was for him to ask his soldiers to fetch water from the village.
He also listened to the report made by the soldiers about the Lin Family.
The Lin Family back down.
And Yu Jin also reached the nearby village, trying to make her way inside and captured the village.
The sky darkened.
Long Qian Xing sat on the chair, looking at the moon outside. He was somewhat anxious for Nan Hua, but there was nothing that he could do but to compress her forehead. After all, he didn't know what he was supposed to do anymore.
Nan Hua was sleeping peacefully.
As the sky darkened, she opened her eyes and saw Long Qian Xing sitting there, looking outside. She didn't know what he was thinking.
Blinking her eyes, Nan Hua knew that her body had only recovered half. She should feel better tomorrow morning.
Nan Hua opened her mouth and then closed it again.
Looking at Long Qian Xing beside her, she felt that she couldn't avoid it anymore.
She admits.
She was afraid.
Afraid to trust.
Afraid to hope.
Afraid to have feelings once more.
Even though she had been trained to have no feeling, Nan Hua could never forget the experience she had. Having her trust repeatedly broken, hope continuously crushed, and feelings forcefully killed all the time, she never expected anything else from the world.
Her world was really bleak.
And Nan Hua knew that she has always been afraid. Afraid to experience the pain once more.
She closed up her heart.
Become the perfect killing machine tool for the organization.
Nothing could affect her.
Or it was supposed to be.
Interacting with Long Qian Xing and his grandmother moved her heart bit by bit. Even though it was supposed to be normal action, she felt that he just kept on getting closer and pry open her previously closed heart to these people who were not her family members just like she slowly opened her heart to her family members.
They should have nothing to do with her.
She knew that she's a stranger who came into this world. Those six transmigrators should all have a life without her inside. So she tried to stay away from something that shouldn't belong to her.
Because she knew that what doesn't belong to her would never belong to her.
She shouldn't covet it.
Hoping and aiming for it would only hurt her.
But it's different now.
If she continued to run away, she would only hurt both of them.
At this moment, Nan Hua wanted to hope again, hoping that she could stay with him and trust him. Along with assessing her own feelings and let it grow once more.
Nan Hua slowly closed her eyes.
