1669 Conversation between Old General Han and Chi Dong Wei

Since Chi Dong Wei agreed to teach Feng Ao Si, Feng Ao Si has been calling him with the word 'teacher' and not general anymore. 

Feng Ao Si struggled to stand up.

His body was hurt after being beaten up under Old General Han's move. Even though this old general had no intention to harm him for real and only sparring against each other, it still hurt being thrown so badly like that.

As Feng Ao Si moved to the side and brought to tend his wounds, Old General Han signalled for Chi Dong Wei to follow him. 

"It's nearly time for dinner. Come with me for a while and we'll discuss your disciple later," Old General Han pointed at the nearby hill.

"Alright, Old Man."

The two old people walked side by side to the hill.

Not long afterwards, they reached the hill and Old General Han took out a pouch from the side and opened it, pouring wine to his mouth. He handed the pouch to Chi Dong Wei after he had drunk a bit.

"Your habit of drinking hadn't changed at all," Chi Dong Wei commented.

"As long as you don't tell my daughter about me drinking, it's fine." Old General Han waved his hand and laughed. "She's so strict like my wife."

"Sorry," Chi Dong Wei suddenly speak. 

"Why do you apologize, it's not your mistake that you're now here." Old General Han laid on the grassy ground, looking at the red sky above. "If you want to blame someone, blame this era and world. Why do you have to be born in this era with such a background."

"It's useless to blame the world." Chi Dong Wei laid down not far from Old General Han and drank some wine. The taste of wine was really strong and nearly made him cough. He should have remembered that this old man really liked to drink wine.

He handed the pouch back to Old General Han. 

Old General Han put the pouch away and then asked, "Are you alright?"

"What do you think?"

Is he alright?

To be honest, Chi Dong Wei himself didn't know the answer to this question.

He had tons of grievances in his heart for the people who had accompanied him along the way so far. 

He wanted to yell.

He wanted to complain. 

He wanted to cry.

But in the end, he did nothing. Because he knew that no matter what action he did, he could never change the past. 

He couldn't change his stupidity in the past, he couldn't change what had happened, he couldn't change how people treated him. 

Chi Dong Wei took a deep breath.

"It might have been because I'm so cold hearted that the people who are supposed to be close to me choose to use me," Chi Dong Wei slowly speak out.

When he first chose Fei Yang Kingdom to take refuge, did he had no grievances?

He had!

He had so many grievances inside his heart that he couldn't tell anyone and had to endure. Feeling guilty for his family who followed him, he worked hard in order to gain recognition from the people who used to hate him so much because he had killed their family members.

Is it hard?

It's freaking hard that Chi Dong Wei felt like he was going bald.

But as a general and also the head of the family, Chi Dong Wei swallowed all the complaints into his stomach. He didn't dare to speak any of the grievances he had buried deep in his heart. 

"No, it's because they're all selfish people," Old General Han said calmly. "Everyone are inherently selfish because they will put their own needs above others and these people whom you used to call as your family members are just at least twice as selfish as normal people. They can't see other people's goodness and just want to take advantage of you when it's possible. 

So you're not wrong. You don't have to feel as if you have made a grave mistake and that the entire world will not want you. There are still people who care for you and will treat you sincerely as you treat them sincerely."

"I know," Chi Dong Wei replied in a low tone.

He knew.

It was something that he knew because he was not stupid.

Analyzing the reasons has been one of the few abilities he had because of his profession on the frontline.

But perhaps, he just wanted to hear it from someone else.

Having someone to tell him that he's not wrong and that what he had done so far was not a worthless thing. 

"Good." Old General Han sipped the wine. "What do you plan to do in the future?"

"I'll just take a look at the changes that had happened here, especially the area that previously belong to Zhang Xu Kingdom," Chi Dong Wei replied.

He's a general from Fei Yang Kingdom.

It was also due to his contribution that Fei Yang Kingdom was able to conquer Zhang Xu Kingdom in the end. Even if his contribution might not seem much, but without his help, it wouldn't be the same.

So Chi Dong Wei wanted to see.

He wanted to see with his own eyes what had changed in this place with the change of the reign.

This way, he would be able to feel more intuitively that what he had done so far is not useless.

People might not remember him. 

People might despise him. 

People might hate him. 

But at the very least, he knew that he had done something, something good for the kingdom in overall. 

"I see." Old General Han nodded.

Chi Dong Wei stood up. "I'm going back first."

Old General Han sat up and glanced in the directions where Chi Dong Wei left before turning his attention back to his wine. He muttered in a low voice, "Really... he's still a stupid brat."

Old General Han took a deep breath and looked into the distance. "But I hope you find what you're searching for."