Chapter 1879 Crazy

Shangguan Xiao listened to Shangguan Yu's words.

Even if it was mostly just summaries, he still felt that his cousin's experience was unexpectedly interesting. It was just that there were too many things to keep track and could easily make one feel overwhelmed.

No wonder that no one else ever dared to do something like Shangguan Yu.

"You're truly one crazy b*stard," Shangguan Xiao finally said.

"I have no one in this world and no one will care about what I do," Shangguan Yu replied in a calm manner.

"Heh." Shangguan Xiao rolled his eyes. But it was also true that their Shangguan Family was scattered in the war and suffered greatly from various battles and losses.

In this regards, he himself sometimes wondered to himself whether it was worth it or not. But when he saw the happiness of the people he protected, he felt that it was still worth it in one way or another.

He didn't need them to remember him nor to be grateful for him.

What he wanted was to make his name in the history, in this land, in a way that would leave behind meanings to the future descendants.

Perhaps, he would be forgotten soon.

But he didn't mind. At least, he felt that his life has meanings.

"Why did you work so hard behind the scenes and expose it now?" Shangguan Xiao suddenly asked.

Why?

Shangguan Yu looked at Shangguan Xiao deeply. In his mind, the day when Shangguan Family was formally separated and Shangguan Xiao left for the frontline was recalled. At that time, he thought that he was truly alone and no one stood by his side nor understand him anymore.

But it was Shangguan Xiao who gave him kindness.

"You're the one who told me not to forget that I still have my two cousins," Shangguan Yu replied in a low voice.

Shangguan Xiao was taken aback when he heard that.

He faintly recalled that he seemed to say something like that when he handed the token for Traveling Doctor Liu many years ago. At that time, he just felt that he didn't need the token, so it could be given to Shangguan Yu, who needed it more.

He looked at Shangguan Yu with a complicated expression. "I didn't help you while expecting you to repay me."

"I know." Shangguan Yu shrugged. "But I want to."

I want to.

A sentence full of willfulness that Shangguan Xiao didn't know what to say anything else. He looked at Shangguan Yu in front of him.

The two of them played together when they were young because their age was not that much different, only two years. Besides, the two of them were doing quite well together as they have similar way of thinking when they were young.

They were smarter than other kids, so they didn't really have much in common with the other children from Shangguan Family.

But their abilities were not so overwhelming that they could compare to adults.

It was just better.

However, they walked in a completely different path. Shangguan Xiao went to the battlefield while Shangguan Yu wanted to be an official.

The two of them slowly ceased their contact with each other and only greeted when they occasionally met.

The two young boys from back then had grown up.

They were technically more of a stranger if not for the blood relationship that connected the two of them.

In the end, Shangguan Xiao sighed and said, "Thank you."

Shangguan Yu nodded.

The two of them were silent for a few seconds.

In the end, Shangguan Xiao asked about another matter, "In the regards of your action, will you explain…"

"Even if I explain, it'll never erase the fact that the death of so many people are related to me," Shangguan Yu cut off Shangguan Xiao before he could finish speaking. His eyes were calm and unbothered as if he was not talking about his own fate in the future but talking about weather. "Not to mention, I'm deceiving the Emperor with my action of concealment and also having a private army on my own." Shangguan Yu glanced at Shangguan Xiao. "You know that this crime meant treason."

Aside from the army approved by the military, they were not allowed to have their own private army. This was one of the few rules that everyone in the land accepted.

After all, the Emperor didn't want their subordinate to point their sword in their direction.

"But your soldiers are only a few hundreds." Shangguan Xiao frowned. He had seen the number of people under Shangguan Yu back then. Their number couldn't even be considered as a big army.

At most, it could still be chalked as guards.

"There are already a lot of people waiting for my dismissal in the court." Shangguan Yu was calm. "Besides, I'm already feeling bored with the tasks in the court."

Bored?

Shangguan Xiao looked at Shangguan Yu in front of him with complicated expression. If other people were to say that, he might still believe it. But the person in front of him is Shangguan Yu.

He knew very well how much Shangguan Yu wanted to become an official when he was young.

Not to mention, this young man has always been very ambitious and didn't like to lose.

How could he suddenly say that he didn't want to?

Shangguan Xiao didn't believe it at all. "I can…"

"You don't have to help me." Shangguan Yu shook his head. "A lot of people hated me. Will your soldiers even accept my existence around when they know that I'm involved in what happened to Shi Long Kingdom? Aside from my cousin in law, I can only save a few people and the rest are real."

Shangguan Xiao was silent.

They wouldn't be able to forgive Shangguan Yu.

Even those whose family members were still alive thanks to Shangguan Yu might feel guilty and uncomfortable.

Because they could still stay with their family members while their comrades couldn't.