I want to die

Dharani POV

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ONE MONTH LATER

It has been one month of our marriage. We are still living like same as owner and maid. He don't slap me or abuses me but he ignores me completely. I cook food for him daily and he eats food without saying any word. I am usual sleeping in the kitchen he didn't even asked about my whereabouts after that day we return from uncle house. Haha why would he ask me when he considers me as a maid. The only difference between my uncle's house and his house is there they will abuse me and hurt me physically but here he doesn't do like that, now . But the common thing is no one talks to me here and there.

I felt immense pain in my stomach. I think I will get my periods soon this is the difficult phase now because at this time we can't do so much work but in my fate I have to do everything in all the days. I checked my bag for sanitary pads but they are not there. I think I have to buy them but I don't have even a single penny now. What should I do shall I ask Akash for money. But what will he think if I share my problem with him.

I heard the door opening sound and Akash came inside and sat on the couch. I took a glass of water for him and went to him. I forwarded my hand towards him and he took without looking at me. I stood there only.

"What?" He asked me angrily.

"I want some money" I told him with a fearful tone maybe he didn't even listened to me.

"What?" he asked me again.

"I....I want some money" I stammered infront of him.

"Why you want money?" he asked me.

"I want to buy some things" I told him. He got up from the couch and held my arm tightly.

"What do you think of yourself?.You think you can ask me money and I will give it to you so that you can use my money?" he said and held my arm even tighter.

"Ahh.... Please leave me" I asked him not able to bear the pain he is giving.

"Please I want money to buy something very important" I asked him. I can't tell him about my periods.

"What is that important thing you want to buy" he asked me.

"I can't tell you" I told him.

"Please leave me you're hurting me" I said with tears in my eyes.

"Yeah right. You know one thing you are working as a maid in my home and even it is month end so I should give you your salary right?" he said shocking me to the core. I thought he changed these days and don't think of me like a maid. But I am wrong he didn't changed and will never change.

"Take this" he said and threw a bundle of notes on my face.

"Don't think I am giving less to you. This is what you deserve and I cut the money because you are having my food" he said and went to his room.

What his food yeah, eating once or twice a day and the worst part is he gave me salary like he gives to maids.

I wiped my tears and took the required amount and put the remaining in a steel box so that I can return him his money. Tears are brimming in my eyes. What have I done to get a life like this. I don't have money to buy the basic things a girl needs. I took the money and went to the nearby shop and bought the required things. I came to home and kept those in my bag.

I sighed and went to kitchen to cook dinner. I am feeling immense pain but I ignored it and continued cooking. Later he came down and had his food and went to his room. I went to my room to get freshen up and saw I got my periods. I quickly got fresh up and came to kitchen to eat my dinner but this pain is not letting me to have food. I forgot to buy a pain killer and now I have to be awake all the night. I had my dinner slowly and tried to sleep on the floor. My back is paining like hell I just want a blanket beneath me but I can't have it.

Akash POV

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I got disturbed from my sleep when I heard some voice. I went down and heard the voice coming from kitchen I went to the kitchen and turned the lights on and saw Dharani is curled into a ball and crying. What the hell is she doing, don't she have manners that she should not disturb others sleep. I went near her.

"Why the hell are you disturbing me?" I shouted at her and she jolted from her place and turned to me.

"Tell me why the hell are you crying?" I asked her angrily.

"I am having stomach pain" she said in between her sobs. Urggg I hate when someone cries before me.

"Stop crying right now or else I will throw you out" I told her and came to my room.

Again I heard her crying and I went to kitchen and I pulled her by her wrist and dragged her towards the door without listening to her pleadings. I pushed her out.

"Dare to come inside until I tell you" I shouted at her and locked the door. I came to my room and try to sleep.

But when I heard her cry i felt something inside breaking my heart. That's the reason I throw her out. Because I don't want to feel anything towards her.

"What the hell is happening to me?" I thought myself and slept.

Dharani pov

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He threw me out of his house. What should I do now. Don't I have right to cry also. I sat near the door and leaned on the door.

I remembered how my family treated me till now and how he is treating me now. I just hope I don't open my eyes tomorrow. I want to die. God please just kill me. I can't bare this torture anymore I cried on my fate and I don't know when I slept there.

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